Saturday, April 24, 2004

Feel like throwing myself a light bulb so dat it'll light up, indicating dat i hav an idea wad i m supposed 2 do
why issit these kinda things hav to happen again and again and again?
why issit tat ppl juz can't stop to think b4 they say things out? dun they ever realise that things said are like poured away water??
wad right do they hav to even care? juz becuz they are my frens? does dat mean that i HAV to tell them everything??
dun they ever realise that the reason i dun say things out is becuz i dun want to hav a repeat of the "brought it upon myself" thing???
why do ppl apologise when they themselves think they had done nothing wrong?? juz to pacify others???
and lastly, the question dat made me cry last nite:
Why do frens hurt me time and again??

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nice questionaire above.. if u dun get it, good... for naomi and sokmui, i noe u understand but i hav no means of hiding wad i really feel (since both of u feel i should tell u everything) getting pissed off twice within a few months by frens is really tiring... moreover, it's over the same matter... wad can i say?
i tot i made the right choice not to tell anybody over the thing... but seems like i am wrong again... i tot the previous incident already made me learn my lesson, about not to trust ppl so easily... yar, exactly, i learnt my lesson... dat's why i din do it this time... i kept quiet... end up? misunderstandings... blah blah blah... and den i am viewed as that sort of person... wad can i say? two best frens thinking of u dis way... wad do u wan me to say???
sorry to say, but naomi, i read ur entry... and sorry to say, i understand perfectly well who the person was in ur entry... i confirmed it wif sokmui yesterday... and true enuff, it's me.. can u tell me how am i acting??
i tot all my frens already noe i can act very well... so sad u dunno it, now u noe, i can act very well, and i admit it... today in skoo, i already am acting as if this whole bloody matter dun bother me at all... dat's why i can still luff and joke wif sokmui... i dunno how much longer i can hold it out like dis... mayb not now, coz i wasn't so pissed off until i saw naomi's entry... so many sorris... if u tink it could help, y dun u go try killing somebody and den say 100 sorris to his or her family... i noe i am crapping... juz wan write out all the bloody stuff here so dat i wun go crying again tonite... i AM pissed off ok...
can u tell me wad to do?? telling ppl will result in getting myself hurt, betrayed... not telling ppl will result in ppl misunderstanding, den i will get pissed off again... wad do u mean by ''it's their private life and i hav no right to interfere'' den turn around and tok about things behind their backs and den misunderstanding b4 even giving me a chance to clarify??
maybe i sholuldn't hav even published this entry... but aren't i supposed to tell my FRENS how i feel eh?