Monday, June 07, 2004

my brain is splitting apart... headache strikes again -.-''
HELP!!! the headache is realli terrible... *OUCH.. sighzzzz... these few days huh, the feeling about me living as if i am in a dream is back again... or should i say it has always been there ever since the second nite of chalet... haiz... *tsk tsk... these few days huh... realli struggling to get on wif life.. kept on telling myself i'm in control, i'm in control.. but I CAN'T... i can't control my actions... can hardly remember wad i juz did earlier that day... sometimes i do things which after a while i wud ask myself.. why did i do THAT???
sighzzzz... under great pressure now... dunno wad to do... c a doctor?? he onli gives me medicines which in my opinion are merely sweets dat taste bitter... -.-'' realli no effect at all.. panadol works better... dat's why i hav been taking panadol lately... almost everyday... and nowadays, i can be doing something, and my mind is on something practically no relation at all.. like i was bathing juz now and my mind was on read and share... !! read and share!! why the hell did my mind come to dat..?? wIeRd~~~~
i cant control my actions too... like today's training... i lobbed as if i am a robot... no feelings, no thoughts, no concentration... i dun even noe how to describe... =S wad is happening to me???
god, help me pls... get me back to my NORMAL self..!!