Thursday, October 28, 2004

feeling all so mixed up.. happy.. sad.. depressed.. a bit frustrated... a bit helpless.. and especially feel like restarting the clock.. hao xiang HUI DAO GUO QU... *sniff*

2/6
may not be able to book chalet lo... haizz.. worse cum to worse go layjia's hse -.-" haiZzz... today was the last day of skoo le.. din blog for the past two days partly cuz i wan spend more time tinking abt 2/6.. partly becuz my eye was pain cuz of the hit by some ppl -.-.. partly becuz i dun feel like since nobody else is blogging.. hrm... real sad that today is the last day of skoo.. dunno why.. my heart felt pain lehZ.. and i almost felt like crying.. but kept hold of myself.. managed to SMILE... since it's the last day of skoo.. i'm supposed to enjoy it.. but sighZzzz...

Today
felt abit not happy this morning.. came to skoo sucking a lollipop.. it is supposed to 'cheer' me up and to stop myself from thinking abt today being the last day of 2/6... it was a strawberry and cream lollipop.. dunno why there is a strawberry and cream lollipop on my desk lo.. yesterday go 2/2 play dodgeball cum back got one lollipop on my desk lo.. so heng hahaz.. and den came to skoo wif sokmui.. she wore the wrong shirt and had to go running round the skoo.. yea, she is suay.. and den she realise that she dropped her comb and sweet in my father's car.. (anywayz, the two items have been recovered..) yea, she is suayy... and den we had deepavali concert where during which i had been sleeping throughout.. Zzz.. sometime during today we were in cls.. and den sokmui and gang came to tell me abt the cheap ppl A-ing abel's yu-gi-oh cards.. cheap.. i despise them.. bleah
and then i was sort of pissed off wif sokmui cuz she kept on asking me to call my father when i told her many times dat he wun on his hp until 1+.. once i was tinking abt how many ppl from 2/6 wud probably end up in the same cls.. was getting abit emotional when she came over and asked me abt the comb... i got pissed naturally duh... and den i got a bit crazy in the mind and was smiling a bit too fakely =/
haiZzz.. after skoo.. stayed back wif the rest.. went to eat lunch wif the girls.. den went back to cls.. we were so bored cuz we dun hav any more cards.. all are wif mrs goh =S.. and so the four of us, me, priscilla, anson and jiahao were seated ard the table and drawing crap on pieces of papers.. sheryl felicia and ann went for choir sectional.. and den i went a bit more crazy in the mind playing wif felicia's puppet.. -.-" and den sheryl came back and went home.. and den i listened to some jay's songs on jiahao's discman.. and den we drew more and more crapZ.. and den i got weisiang to write my autograph book and he wrote crapZ too.. -.- (i can feel myself going crazy...) erm...
and den we decided to play murderer.. cuz it's a innocent game dat doesnt require any cards.. and we played the contact one.. the hold hands one.. and den we played played played and den felicia and ann came back and so everybody played.. and we played somemore and bullied jiahao.. kill him all the time.. if he not dead by the first round means he is the murderer lolz.. -.-"
and den ann went home and den felicia went home... and den we played somemore.. and den we played the step legs one.. dun hold hands, we stepped legs -.-" played until 5++ den priscilla wanted to go home.. jiahao wanted to go home too.. left weisiang anson and me.. so we muz well go home too.. and so we went home.. sad =(

A few dedications...
To Sokmui... sorri abt today.. if i was a bit too harsh in my words.. abt u whining.. paiseh.. and yar, ur two items have been found and are wif me.. ur comb and ur fisherman sweets.. they are wif me.. ignore the sms i asked sheryl to send to u.. dat was b4 my father told my mother he found the things.. so my mum told me there wasnt any... and erm.. dun tink we will be in the same cls next year le bah.. looking at our choices.. (my heart aching suddenly..) sad.. but let's juz remember the good times we had.. all the fun, the tears, the smiles and of cuz the laughter... memories are meant to be kept.. will never forget u..? cuz u did make a great difference in my past 2 years... -nod nod- u will always be my best fren in anderson.. *sniff*

To Sheryl.. erm.. thanks for everything too.. dun tink we will end up in the same cls too next year.. u chose bio-chem.. i chose physics-chem.. sad again.. there goes my good fren who never fails to luff at my not-funny jokes~.. all the best...? though known u for like 2 years.. but from wad i knew, hasnt been on quite good terms wif u in the past.. especially last year.. but like mr tok said "Let bygones be bygones" stay happy k? and when i not ard, muz continue being crazy abt Jay woR.. cannot forget to stay crazy abt him~ hrm.. and ya.. juz wanna tell ya sumthing dat i had always wanted to tell u.. sumtimes alot of things i din tell u.. firstly is becuz i dunno how to say.. secondly is cuz i prefer it like this.. simple.. nothing to promise to each other.. no more things like Promise not to tell or wad.. and abt the thing earlier this year.. at ard february.. abt the thing where u went to ask naomi and felicia abt it.. let's juz say i realli dun care anymore.. i will choose u as a best fren over that matter.. meaning i wud rather choose to treat u as my best fren rather than remembering those unhappy things and lose u.. kz? take care~

To Meiching... hi.. again, looking at our choices.. i dun tink we will end up in the same cls next year.. but aiseh, Ang Mei Gui here vows that i shall never forget the dear girl who told me the fisherman joke =X ahahaZ.. and hrm.. i always tot u are a person wif strong beliefs in urself and u wud always do the right thing.. (although playing cards in cls is not right...) =/ and i noe u wud succeed in future.. cuz u hav great ideals in ur mind.. and of cuz, i'm glad to hav known u.. and yea, i wun forget u too.. dun cry becuz it's over.. smile becuz it's a new beginning.. and the saying u told me.. life never closes a door without opening a window.. *sniff* u told me some of the things dat were bothering u.. and i tink i hardly told u any of mine.. not tht i dun trust u or wad.. mayb it's becuz i hav got less of those big troubles (other than a 55-maths) and more of those less important ones.. things like having 'cute' moms and dads for example =/ bleah.. i dunno wad i'm toking.. ermZ anywayz.. best of luck for the future.. =)

To Ann... hi.. i havent forgotten u.. i admit that these few days or weeks i havent been toking to u much.. ever since the last time we sort of quarelled during chinese oral.. and den meiching changed places and i tink we hardly ever toked ever since.. i admit that i havent had much good impressions of u these few days or weeks.. at the same time.. i admit that i didnt regret going out wif u during all those times last year.. after the exams.. to angmokio or orchard.. i admit that i was truly happy wif u those days.. i admit that u made me luff and made me happy and we were enjoying ourselves then... dun wanna remember all the sad or unhappy times this year.. although i noe it's quite impossible.. but today after reading the msg from my autograph book.. i am glad, glad that i did noe u.. and i never regretted any of the things i done.. cuz i onli do wad i wan to do.. and i wanted to be wif u laz year.. as for this year, so many things happened.. all the ups and downs.. remind me of a very exciting roller coaster ride.. so exciting that i dunno exactly where i stand some of the times.. u are the onli person i typed dedications for that has sort of the chance of getting into the same cls as me.. cuz i chose physics-chem too... yea duh.. and ya.. all the best and take care too...

To Jiahao.. dunno why i typing this lolz.. dun tink he wud even be reading this.. thanks for saying thanks to me -.-" he said thanks to me for all the help in the past 2 years -.-" and erm.. thanks too =) for laming wif me in cls.. and for all the fun and laughter.. and of cuz for 'consoling' me for the 55-maths thing.. (although ur consoling includes telling me u got 71...) thanks... for telling me that 2/6 spirit will stay on forever... and for telling me crapZ after crapZ today.. thanks for being the one to be constantly bullied by me o.0 hahaZ =D all the best too.. hope we get into the same cls.. may lamers #1 and #2 stay on~!!

To the rest of 2/6... i luv ya.. realli.. *sob sob* 2604 rox~!!!!!