Wednesday, April 28, 2004
LaLaLa~ *the music of the song colours of the wind is still ringing in my mind... gotta get it out of my head*
it's my brithday today... yay... hahaz...
gotta rush thru this entry... bro waiting to use com... kkz...
thanx to ann, sokmui, naomi, felicia, ankita 4 the cute piggy bank.. =D and not to mention, the SUNFLOWER... which i took wif me to take the mrt thru 6 stops and a bus thru another 6 stops... hahaz... and to meiching, for the test-tube wif the msg inside and lots of beads... =D to ann, for the birthday card... to naomi for the lollipops and sweets and the lavender bottle... to weisiang 4 the birthday card... the present and the card which i still dun understand from anson... and the present and card from cheng2... hm... did i miss out anybody... let me think... er... yar... and thanx michelle 4 the nice birthday wish... :D erm... and yar, to the whole of 2/6 for singing the birthday song in hall today... yay... hahaz... and to benjamin for singing the out of tune birthday song in class today... hahaz... and to all those who wished me happy birthday today... thanx so much... today was such a nice day... wonderful day... =D yay
woosh, end of thank u list... hm... juz feel very happy today... =D although i fell down during PE and flunked my maths test... but i dun care... coz TODAY WAS MY BEST DAY IN LIFE =D so many nice things happened... =D
yay... birthday wish: hm... cannot say.. say liao wun happen liao... =X hahaz... wish for world peace?? hahaz... i not miss universe la... =D
MG :) wrote on
19:22.
Sunday, April 25, 2004
fine den
i hav nothing more to say
i can go on acting in front of u all, if dat's wad u wan
u can go on thinking wad u wan
juz try it one day and c how it wud feel
u din noe anything and u shot ur mouths off without even thinking first
fine den
i am in the wrong
i shouldn't hav typed out the last entry
i should hav juz gone on acting
but wad's done is done
wad else u wan me to do now?
if u r not in the wrong
dun apologise in the first place
it onli make matters worse
tis entry unfortunately
is typed out in anger and despair
friendship is fragile
and i dunno how long it will take 4 me to forget about this matter
if u tink it's a small matter
den fine
u can think wad u wan and i can't change it
juz dun giv me that face when i c u tml
u noe i am acting in front of u all
juz dun stop me
if u did
den it will really be the end
sry to say
this whole thing bother me
mayb not as much as the previous one
but i wud be lying if i tell u i am dat magnanimous
especially when naomi describe me dat way in her entry
u tink it's juz a miscommunication
fine den
fine
fine...
MG :) wrote on
20:30.
Saturday, April 24, 2004
why issit these kinda things hav to happen again and again and again?
why issit tat ppl juz can't stop to think b4 they say things out? dun they ever realise that things said are like poured away water??
wad right do they hav to even care? juz becuz they are my frens? does dat mean that i HAV to tell them everything??
dun they ever realise that the reason i dun say things out is becuz i dun want to hav a repeat of the "brought it upon myself" thing???
why do ppl apologise when they themselves think they had done nothing wrong?? juz to pacify others???
and lastly, the question dat made me cry last nite:
Why do frens hurt me time and again??
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nice questionaire above.. if u dun get it, good... for naomi and sokmui, i noe u understand but i hav no means of hiding wad i really feel (since both of u feel i should tell u everything) getting pissed off twice within a few months by frens is really tiring... moreover, it's over the same matter... wad can i say?
i tot i made the right choice not to tell anybody over the thing... but seems like i am wrong again... i tot the previous incident already made me learn my lesson, about not to trust ppl so easily... yar, exactly, i learnt my lesson... dat's why i din do it this time... i kept quiet... end up? misunderstandings... blah blah blah... and den i am viewed as that sort of person... wad can i say? two best frens thinking of u dis way... wad do u wan me to say???
sorry to say, but naomi, i read ur entry... and sorry to say, i understand perfectly well who the person was in ur entry... i confirmed it wif sokmui yesterday... and true enuff, it's me.. can u tell me how am i acting??
i tot all my frens already noe i can act very well... so sad u dunno it, now u noe, i can act very well, and i admit it... today in skoo, i already am acting as if this whole bloody matter dun bother me at all... dat's why i can still luff and joke wif sokmui... i dunno how much longer i can hold it out like dis... mayb not now, coz i wasn't so pissed off until i saw naomi's entry... so many sorris... if u tink it could help, y dun u go try killing somebody and den say 100 sorris to his or her family... i noe i am crapping... juz wan write out all the bloody stuff here so dat i wun go crying again tonite... i AM pissed off ok...
can u tell me wad to do?? telling ppl will result in getting myself hurt, betrayed... not telling ppl will result in ppl misunderstanding, den i will get pissed off again... wad do u mean by ''it's their private life and i hav no right to interfere'' den turn around and tok about things behind their backs and den misunderstanding b4 even giving me a chance to clarify??
maybe i sholuldn't hav even published this entry... but aren't i supposed to tell my FRENS how i feel eh?
MG :) wrote on
19:06.
Thursday, April 22, 2004
sighz... hi dere... hasn't updated since last saturday... well.. coz i kinda busy la... (bluff who, everyday stay in class play cards...) hahaz.. er... saturday i went back skoo... no reason... went back eat lunch... -.-'' and watch half of the basketball match... den sunday i think i went somewhere... can't remember... wait huh... let me think... o yar.. i went meiching's hse do literature... yar yar... now i remember... went home at around 8pm in felicia's dad's car... er... den monday... supposed to hav training... but den skipped and went out... den tuesday... er... wad arh... eh... i can't remember huh... memory loss... tuesday... o yar... stayed in class played cards... hahaz... play wif 2/6 ppl... den wednesday got sexuality education... after dat played cards in class again... den today, today is thursday... thursday... got cip... den no more liao...
IMPORTANT!!
hahaz... jkjk... juz wan say out how much i hate rachaibatuni chaitanya... kan ni na...
wad sort of damn chairman lor... chairman liddat.. walau... so shi bai... do until whole class bu shuang wif him... waseh... ''boooooo'' diao lar... stupid chairman... so damn arrogant... anyhow abuse authority... walan... who does he think he is??!! today journal writing he make until the whole class buay song... sum more keep on saying ''u wan dc? u wan dc?'' walan... DC DC lar!! u think we scared meh??? whole class dc for u to c LoR!! 2/6 class spirit rox manZ!!! but with this kind of chairman... PUI... CHAITANYA GO TO HELL LAR!!! not fit to be the chairman at ALL!! i rather put kk as chairman oso dun wan him lor... c his type of attitude WALAU... go HELL lar!! (sorry for my use of language... i juz can't stand this damn guy)
for further scoldings on this current damn chairman of 2/6, pls log on to sokmui's or naomi's blog... hahaz...
summore today IPW... he can't even cooperate with his own team members lor... i really despise him... can be such a failure as a human... such poor ability to communicate properly to fellow humans... *shakes head... quoted: ''nigel, i dun like runescape u noe'' walan... y muz he saboh his own teammate like dis?? and den explain the maths thing... ARROGANT MAN!! walan...
after IPW, tok to mr tok... it's no use... seh~ ''i will tok to him... i will tok to him'' no wonder his name is mr tok... tok to him tok to him... dat's all he noes how to do...
at first mood quite good one... now say finish all these i oso buay song liao... *hope things change 4 the better*
to sm: k, i noe... i wil do wad i feel is the best 4 me... thnx 4 ur concern
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MG :) wrote on
20:03.
Saturday, April 17, 2004
finally learnt to take life easy... (or had i always not taken life seriously...?) hahaz... wadeva it is... my mood is always light and floating whenever i dun hav to go skoo... c, i hate skoo so much... hahaz... today is a saturday... NO SCHOOL!! hahaz... so happy... dun need to c teachers and homework, at least for the next two days... YAY
hahaz... yesterday i went mad and went to tampinese with naomi... yar, i noe anybody's first reaction wud be: siao... hahaz... dat was naomi's mother's reaction... felicia's and sokmui's too... hahaz... yar, duh... i already said i went mad... hahaz... after dat we ate macdonalds dere and went shopping for about 15 mins... den i took bus 969 back... straight back to woodlands interchange... the bus ride so damn long... so sian in the bus.. one hour 15 mins leh... *yawns reached home already 7.50pm liao... haiz... past my sleeping hour... LoLz
sighZzz... hafta buck up.. so much things for me to do... english newspaper article i haven do yet... later muz do... yay... so nice to rest at home and shake legs... hahaz...
Life is Beautiful... without school =X
MG :) wrote on
09:30.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
these few days all the other ppl's blogs all never update de... so sian... so many things to do... maths crap, read and share crap... english homework crap... chinese test crap... science theory WB crap... geo project crap... field trip crap... literature crap... so much things to do.. so many pieces of paper stuffed into my bag... i really slack... sighz
I WAN A REST!!! should request from singapore MOE to let us hav a holiday once every two days... -.-'' i am so stressed out... the skoo life is so stressful.... i wonder why i dun hav the ability to take it easy like maybe naomi or whoever... but haiz... i always slack one mah... then the homework everything keep on piling piling... and me... i am being crushed underneath... =( sighz
ahhhhh... haiz haiz... in fact, i got lotsa plenty of extra time... but like i saed, i realli realli slack... no energy to do anyting... i take out the maths onli i feel like crying... =(
wahhhhhhh
^PS to mingxian: sorri huh... the reply letter... i wrote liao... but haven gone to buy stamps yet... will try to send it as soon as possible... sorrie kkz?
and the damn cip thing... wad the... the sight of audrey makes me feel like going up to her and telling her wad a bitch she is... if she thinks she is so capable, by all means, sack me... wad makes her think i wan to be in such a position anyway?? damn her... i dun wan do any of this damn thing at all in the first place... i mean, whu wud wan to?? every week hafta waste one day go grade one level... fine den... and den still hav to put up wif all sorts of complaints... wad the... fine... and so much of ja-parang things cuming out... wad noticeboard, wad sec one interview... wa kau lar... juz grading classes onli mah... so serious for wad... walan... dis morning after assembly hear sok mui tell me about yesterday's meeting wif mdm hee... walau... i angry until i almost to tears liao lor... wad the... sack sack me... i WAN to be sacked.. wad voluntary work... i din volunteer it at all lor... and i am doing it very involuntarily... wad the... muz well sack the whole team, leave audrey alone go grade all four levels... our lives will be much simpler den
wad the
MG :) wrote on
19:39.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
haiz... realli realli a lot of things to say... but haiz... like i mentioned... dis blog is too public... sighzzzz...
today had been a rather hectic day.... so sian... everyday keep on studying and studying... like robot liddat... haiz... i feel like eating batteries... to giv me all the energy i need to carry on each day... haiz...
maths was as boring as eva... had group work... waseh... i saying out wad happened i oso feel sian... den had english... wah... i practically slept through the lesson... den recess, reading... den had srp... another lesson dat i slept through... den art... pathetic arh... my grp... *shakes head... haiz
after skoo... went library look for mdm hee... sian... tok crap with her... den hear her tok crap... sian arh... den after dat... i went home... again, things happened but i can't say...
sighz... tml hav cip meeting... hope i will get sacked... pls pls... i wish i can get sacked... i hate to go round grading SEC FOUR... haiz... the best is replace the whole team...
sighZ... so many projects cuming up... geo... lit... science read and share... field trip... wahhh... i wan cry liao lar...
well, at least art is done... one down, four more to go...
~crumbling under stress~
MG :) wrote on
17:54.
Friday, April 09, 2004
sighZzzz... why my blog so many ppl visit... *cries... supposed to be private one... nvm nvm... but i juz wun type out wad really happened coz well, some things are best to be known to nobody until one day when the time is right... sighz... yea... sumthing happened today... how should i say it... k, it is er.. haiz... shuan le... ask me personally if u wanna noe... and if i wan tell u, den i will tell u personally... -.-'' c lar, so poor thing, got blog cannot type out much about my life... sighz...
literature... geography... science read and share... maths assignments and classworks... IPW... ARHHHHHH... haiz... nvm... i will ren... can overcome it one... at the most i juz flunk all my subjects... wad else can happen?? fail fail lor... cum out to work... get money... survive... can liao lor... study so hard, no gurantee u will do well... dun study so hard, oso no gurantee u wun do well... -.-'' wad crap i toking... nvm... shuan le...
sighzzzz... think i gonna create a new blog somewhere else... haiz... shuan le... mus well juz write in my notebook... 100% gurantee nobody will c except me... -.-'' den if i wan let my frens noe, den let them c... -.-'' c lar... i tok crap den i diao myself... -.-'' diao again... kauZ, suffering from mental problems... hahaz... need special medical attention... LoLz
need a rest badly... supposed to rest and slack today... but haiz... i still went ahead with something else... -.-'' nvm, shuan le shuan le... like i saed, i wun tok about anyting here... *ann probably noes wad i am toking about* dun go asking her man... dun wan a repeat of wad happened in the past... wan noe anything, cum find ME... dun get her into bloody matters again... -.-'' nvm... tml rest and slack more... hahaz... but, haiz, hafta do all the work lar... if not will die until chum chum... haiz... lit... dunno leh... dey like wan to do tml... or izzit sunday?? dunno lar... later ask again... but the things in skoo leh... do wad hell... geo... i supposed to go find out about wad egg plantation thing... -.-'' wad crap is dat... IPW... done liao... juz haven present yet... read and share... haiz... pathetic... today wanted to go library but library closed... -.-'' kkz... i am not supposed to tok about today... -.-'' why i keep on -.-''-ing myself... hahaz.. i am lame, thank u... =P
woosh... the bloody penguin game is a great way to relieve stress man... try it... sho nice... =D so shiok to c the penguin bleed and bleed and bleed when i hit it... hahaz... i sick in the mind... lolz
end here le... go sleep... wooo... i juz realised it's 9.31pm... wondering why i so late haven sleep? hahaz... coz i juz woke up at 7++ mah... hahaz... c i lame again...
BuAiZ
MG :) wrote on
21:06.
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
sian arh!!! i dun wan update lar!!! tml geo test... can be 75% sure will fail... heard it is quite difficult... haiZ... fail ding le... dun tell me i everytime say fail fail... in the end wun fail... this time... wakor... i really lazy to even take out the notes to stare at it and den cry... -.-''
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH
all the lit grouping, frens thing... so tiring... I OSO STRESSED ARH!!!!
MG :) wrote on
20:37.
Sunday, April 04, 2004
lolz... last night actually wanted to write the entry one... but really too tired liao... hahaz... yar... overview of wad happened yesterday...
i reached skoo at 6.50am... jaslyn and weeyang were already dere... i signalled to weeyang to keep quiet and scared jaslyn from the back... she luffed and gave me the diao look... kauZ... hahaz... supposed to meet up at 7am lar... got tournament against Fuhua at Tampinese sports hall... we so despo to play bridge... we played in the canteen lorZ... me, jas, wy and alexis... play play play until mr tan came... den we played in the bus... lolz... too fun liao... cannot resist... joan subsitute alexis... ruth sub wy... coz wy helped us take cover from mr tan... not allowed to play cards one wad... hahaz... he surface area big mah... can help us cover up... hahaz... jkjk... hahaz... den reached there liao... played match... but lost lar... 3-2... haiZzz... nvm, we did our best and we had no regrets... =D all the best...
came back skoo dat time dunno wad time liao... 11 plus i think... den we went opposite coffee shop hav lunch... charmaine, jenna and nasihah went home le... alexis went for her private training in bishan... left joan, jaslyn, fiona, weeyang, ruth and me... den later ruth went home too... left the five of us... den we went up to the 2/6 classroom, since the hall got ppl taking exams... cannot go in and play first... so we went 2/6 play bridge lor... then me, jas, joan and wy play bridge... fiona dere draw on the board and laugh to herself... -.-'' dotZ... dun understand the stupid sec one... hahaz... den we play play play until shuang liao... den went hall started playing badminton... at first no space for us le... got kc lau and the talentime ppl, dragon dance and ncc ppl... but kc lau chased them out later coz she say too noisy... den we begged her to let us hav a court, promising dat we will be quiet... so, she agreed... den we started playing lor... den alexis came... yar... den play until 3++... den we sian liao... so go back 2/6 play bridge again... joan had wanted to play in the hall... hahaz... but we hum chee lar... kc lau dere leh... so go 2/6 lor... dere so deserted, nobody will walk dere one mah...
the two sec ones dere eat fries...and the four boliao bridge-addicted sec twos play bridge dere... den play play play... den the sec ones went home... den we four play play play... play until like siao... coz we thinking got basketball mah... so skoo gate wun so early close... but all four toots forgot that skoo gate not closed, but the gate at the stairs dere will close... hahaz... and we stopped playing at 6++... coz is weeyang wan go home... if not we will continue playing one lor... hahaz..
we were like so diao~ when we saw all the entrances are locked... we tried all the entrances lor... and we were like.... ''wakau...'' hahaz... den we were stranded on the second level... and i smsed cheng cheng for help... told him we locked up in skoo building... den weeyang's mother came... and juz nice mrs lee cum back in skoo bus from dunno wad function... den heng heng lor... his mother went to find her... seek help from her... den mrs lee called mrs tan and OM... wah... we so honoured... =P heehee... OM overseas... so cannot help us... hahaz... den cheng cheng went find mr neo here... den mdm hasniza oso cum back from dunno where... hahaz... den the basketball ppl so funny... got us a ladder... so unstable one... none of us dare to use... hahaz... they some more say wad the lightest one try first... which happens to be me.. walau... siao... must well jump down... chang tong bu ru duan tong... hahaz... cannot let weeyang try first... coz if he try liao... the rest of us no need go down le... ladder sure break... hahaz... jkjk...
den mrs tan came, with her whole family sum more... her 3 daughters and her husband... lolz... so nice... den they got the lock smith help us open up the gate... wahhh.... hahaz... first time i walk down that stairs i felt so good... lolZ...
den i went home le... hahaz... and dat's the end of the story... -.-'' we becum the headlines on mon liao lar... hahaz
P.S: dun tell we were playing bridge in class hor... against skoo rules leh.... bridge is the name of a card game lar... our version of the story is dat we were helping the two ppl from 2/3 do their art project work... hahaz... *wink
for more info, go to jaslyn's or weeyang's website...
MG :) wrote on
13:57.
Friday, April 02, 2004
i should go join drama club... i can act so well even i myself am shocked... haiz... these few days he had always been weird... can tell very clearly he not in good mood... so i oso din go and bother him over msn... haiz... but somehow a lot of times these few days, i caught him looking at me... and he will look away whenever i saw him look at me... haiz... fan arh...
another thing arh... up till now, ann noes... wad should i say... i hardly trust anybody now... and i always hav second tots b4 telling anybody anything... i hope i can still trust ann.... and the things i told her today, hope she wun tell anybody... if not... haiz... i am not really sure wad i wud do... yup, this matter onli ann noes... dun bother asking her... i trust dat she dun tell... how should i say... i mean, she was the onli one who managed to keep the previous secret a secret... not to say sokmui din or wad... but so much things happened this year... and i'm already beginning to think i shouldn't hav even told her... probably one is enuff, good enuff... haiZ
to myung hyun: hi dere... juz received ur letter... thnx... really thank u... felt really great to noe someone out dere still do care for me... *touched to tears... lolX... hahaz... thank u... wud reply as soon as possible... thanx again
MG :) wrote on
19:24.
Thursday, April 01, 2004
haiz... tournament today... i played first singles... dunno wad got into coach's mind and got me to play first singles... haiz... i lost... 11-1, 11-0 or 1... pathetic... haiz.. i lan lar...
after tournament went back class... all ppl in dere happen to be boys.. except for ann's bag but the person is not around... haiz... went back to hall for training... haiz... den liddat lor... den cum back home... tired lar... but a lot of things haben settle yet, so cannot sleep...
today's lessons arh... maths, the ppl from hk came into our class lo... michelle brought them in... lolz... so funny... wear tie some more... hahaz... *michelle is the mua ji who told the lame muaji and monkey story* yar... den got group work... haiz... still need to go c mdm hee... coz i kanna current group leader... walan eh... haiz...
den had wad arh... i oso can't remember... o yar, chinese... haiz... nothing much happened lar... haiz... den science... oso nothing much happened... even if got things, i oso can't be bothered to say liao...
sighZ... i am stressed out~
MG :) wrote on
20:46.