Thursday, September 30, 2004

=wonder why some ppl hav to be that despo.. sigh.. are they shameless or wad...=
yo ppl.. anyone can guess who i am toking abt.. who else rite... yea.. that shameless thing.. cant stand it man.. how can anyone be DAT despo~~?! i pity any girl dat might ever go out wif him.. but in anycase, i dun tink any girl in the right mind will be as despo as that monster and go out wif IT.. since IT is a pervertic freaky thing.. eeeewww *bleah*

one good news of the day.. the art presentation din turn out to be as bad as we tot it could get.. it was ok... at least we din go up there and start singing a song abt toys bought from DBU toys which my mother gave me on my birthdays... lolx

tml is our paper one exams.. wish me luck...? hahax.. as for the sick story i wrote in my chinese compo book.. lolz.. it was all inspired by this movie called May.. i noe it's sick.. yea yea i noe.. lolz.. as seen on the expressions of sokmui and sheryl.. *bows* thank you thank you.. i sorta enjoyed myself while writing that compo too.. *evil grin*

gotta slp earlier tonite.. hav to get some brain juice flowing back into my head.. i dun hav any Jay Chou on my table tml to inspire me to write well lehx.. let's hope i dun get a mind block like i always do during maths test tml.. *breath in breath out* ^_^

erm.. anywayz, to anyone out there reading this, pls remember to bring ur chinese dictionary tml.. say thank you quick.. c, i am so kind.. =)

cum to tink of it.. mayb i wasnt so kind to some beings out there... [he-whose-name-must-not-be-mentioned].. but hey, he realli deserves it~ bleah.. the mere thought of him disgust me.. *vomits vomits* and yar, guess i had juz created a new name for IT ---- HWNMNBM... he whose name must not be mentioned.. inspired by Jiahao's idea of SWNMNBM... or maybe we could call IT HWRS.. that stands for He-who-really-stinks.. lolx.. i did not mention anybody here.. who cares abt that freako out there anyway?? he's juz so damn shit dat he (quoted from mc) deserves to die... mayb it's time to start a hate club.. i will be the first to join.. bleah

kkz.. enuff of all those sick stuff.. it's making me puke.. ByeZ~!!

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

yea.. some ppl really do suk... very very much
hi ppl.. i am back to blog.. did i blog yesterday?? cant remember.. i tink i did.. o yar i did.. =S nvm.. dun mind me.. it's past 8 now and i am very sleepy.. dunno why.. the system in my body choose to becum like it was last time.. where i feel i shld slp by 8.. =S

anyway.. i am feeling rather weird rite now... wif some stalker in the cls that goes round finding abt things they ought not to noe abt.. yar yar.. they suk.. realli do suk... these ppl are so scary u never noe wad they could be doing behind ur backs.. and yar.. the way these ppl act as if nothing has happened juz so pissed me off.. pure actors.. bleah... dun tink i hav to hide ITS identity.. everyone out there shld noe.. the chairman.. lazy to even type out the name... dun wan dirty my blog by displaying the name... bleah

anywayz, i was rather shocked today when meiching screamed in class today... shocked dao.. and.. sort of agreed wif wad sokmui said.. quite admire her courage to scream in class liddat.. not happy den scream.. admirable.. hmmm...

gtg now... i juz come to noe abt something shocking.. not confirmed yet... choz pplz...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

a quiz taken from sokmui's blog.. dunno whether the results correct or not.. lol..




He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that
scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he
will always love you from the bottom of his
heart! And if your friends start telling you
hes not your type, ignore them or laugh in
their faces. You are the key to unlock that
heart of his^^.

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and another quiz...


Your eye color is dark blue. You rely on your logic
solely, and may have more mature interests than
many of your friends and family your age. You
can sometimes also be interverted and lonely
from a lack of understanding with people, and
can be rather frustrated with some types of
folke. Some may describe you as cold and
distant, and you are honest with how you feel
about things.

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erm..? lolz.. yea yea.. i am back to blog.. wanted to blog yesterday but photobucket was down and the avatar wun show when i tried to view it.. so.. too bad lo.. din feel like blogging wif a unseen avatar.. lolz.. wad crap...

cant believe i'm actually looking forward to tml's lessons becuz there is PE.. need a run badly.. lolz.. it has been like ages since i properly ran quite a distance.. erm... anywayz...

today's lessons..? the same old usual ones lo.. except some ppl by the name of Kok Huabin pissed me off during literature lessons by playing wif the keyboard of the computer when i told him to quit doing that.. unfortunately he still played and the keyboard dropped and it hit my hand and it hurts.. =S and i scolded the F word.. hope dat it wasnt too loud..?

feeling damn bored now.. hav quite a lot of things undone.. hasnt done any of the eng hw yet.. mayb going to do them later.. still hafta do 2002 paper 2.. -sigh- exams, exams.. HAIZ

-sigh-

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism 54% Type 2 Helpfulness 74% Type 3 Image Focus 46% Type 4 Hypersensitivity 50% Type 5 Detachment 62% Type 6 Anxiety 38% Type 7 Adventurousness 74% Type 8 Aggressiveness 62% Type 9 Calmness 74% Your main type is 9 Your variant is sexual

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yea yea.. and another quiz results.. i scored in helpfulness, adventurousness and calmness.. i did badly in anxiety, hypersensitivity and image focus.. i did ok for perfectionism, detachment and agressiveness... overall my main type is 9 and this means that my main trait is calmness.. my variant is sexual.. this means that i scored the highest on assertive traits, followed by withdrawn traits and i scored the lowest for compliant traits..

i wonder wad the results wud be like for somebody..

lol... and the adjectives used to describe me from the test are as follow:

sociable, outgoing, talkative, responsive, easy going, lively, carefree, leadership...

can be quite near to these too:

active, optimistic, impulsive, changeable

tht's two test for today... =)

test results.. cute

Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid 46% Schizoid 22% Schizotypal 58% Antisocial 70% Borderline 42% Histrionic 42% Narcissistic 62% Avoidant 34% Dependent 18% Obsessive-Compulsive 38%

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Friday, September 24, 2004

erm.. juz tot i wud type out another entry specially dedicated to all of 2/6'04... since we are gonna go into different streams soon and i noe i wud miss 2/6 like hell.. juz more things dat i hav tok abt before and more and more..

right from the start.. orientation of class 1/6... naomi was sitting beside me.. is it fated or wad.. she sat beside me on the first day we stepped into 2/6.. a whole environment unfamiliar and strange to us.. she wanted the first row of the seating but i took the last.. so she had no choice but to follow me since i was the onli one she knew and she was the onli one i knew.. we met each other in 1/1 before we were streamed into different classes.. and so, yar... felicia and shuling were sitting in front of the two of us and sheryl and sokmui in front of feli and shuling.. sounds kinda fated or wadeva.. my close frens currently all sit close to me at that time.. i remembered we introduced ourselves.. the six of us.. and i remembered saying my name and making them luff.. although i seriously found nothing realli funny abt it.. guess it's becuz i told them i often wrote my name as ang mo kio and my address as ang me gui.. lolz..

and den came in qi'en and fangyi.. how fed up they were especially during the practices for the campfire nite item.. lolz.. i remembered fangyi even cried once... lolz.. and i remembered us playing whacko and huabin always being the one called cuz his name was easy to remember.. lolz.. how fangyi hold onto huabin and screeched: "I WANT MY HUABIN!!" lolz..

the first person i noticed in our class was alfred.. i was staring at him on the first day of skoo wondering woo.. wad did that guy to to himself?? hahaz...

and den mr lim was in charge of the sec three camp and so we din get to c our form teacher for the first few days of skoo.. lolz.. wad a form teacher... the first time we saw him he was on a few canteen tables at the quadrangle dancing the ketchup dance wif the councillors.. joker.. lolz.. yea, we were dancing the skoo dance at that time.. lame.. and den mr lim went on the tables and danced the ketchup dance.. lolz... i could still remember wad went on in my mind.. i was thinking.. is that a teacher~~? looks more like a clown wearing human clothes.. lolz.. and den i came to know later that he was actually the teacher in charge of the student council.. hahaz...

yea, and den speaking of him.. how could i possibly forget how he danced wif us on the campfire nite becuz siewboon being my partner couldnt make it for the dance and mr lim very conveniently became my partner.. i could still remember meiyan of 2/2 telling me her whole class was luffing at ME becuz mr lim kept on turning on the wrong side and i had the fed up look on my face.. cant blame him though, he juz learnt the whole dance that very day... lolz.. i could still remember the light sticks.. how we made a whole big damned cirle wif all the light stickes joined together.. and putting it ard us.. i remembered how we so fakely cheered for other classes becuz we tot that wud add more marks to our presentation and den mayb we could win a prize.. lolz.. and yea, everyone was fed up becuz 2/9 won the best cheer award when they hardly opened their mouths.. lolz.. nevertheless, all of us were happy that day... cant remember why all of us had the lollipops in our mouths when we took the class photos in class later that nite.. issit all the classes had a hamper or sumthing liddat?? mayb bah.. well anywayz, qi'en's photographing skills were very *ahem and mc was particularly fed up becuz most of the pictures were blur.. and those that were not blur was not nice de.. hahaz..

yar, and speaking of our dearest form teacher, mr lim.. i sill remember how BHB he was when he said in one of our CI lessons... using three words to describe himself.. he said he was handsome, short and one other thing which i cant remember.. the short is a fact lar.. but the handsome is a bit to the *ahem.. u noe i noe lar hor...

and abt mr lim.. yar, our maths lessons.. the financial transactions part where he got four ppl to 'sell rice' and ppl go round the class to buy rice.. -.-" the sell rice ppl happened to be those wif register numbers ending wif '2' and so they happened to be me, meiching, xinwan and chaitanya.. lol.. and his maths lessons.. lolz.. wif all those solve the questions-get the answers-write the alphabet thingy.. solve the thing and solve the code thingy.. lolz.. our maths file was full of that.. and our maths file den was soooooooo much thinner compared to ours now.. -shakes head- lolz...

english lessons.. mdm liau.. i remembered her telling us we wud somehow get invovled in some sort of road accidents when we grow up.. as in witness or literally get involved urself.. i remembered how the whole class immediately shouted CHOI... hahaz.. but she still protested "realli..." she always side track one lar.. hahaz.. and the way she gave us our oral exam.. lolz.. not scary at all.. compared to mrs goh now?? hahaz..

erm.. who else?? our geo teacher.. mdm hasnizah.. wahh.. the geography notebook.. she flash all those things so fast.. we din even hav time to properly copy out all the things.. and she juz said we should learn to copy faster.. how borrring her lessons were... lolz.. and our history lesson, mr neo.. lolz.. the stories he side tracked until.. haizzzz.. hahaz...

our chinese teacher.. remember the first chinese teacher that came into our class..? mr ng.. or sumthing liddat.. his lessons was realli boring man.. wif the chi yu shou che.. tok and tok non stop.. bleah.. and den mr tok came to relieve him for a few lessons.. all of us tot mr tok sounded a bit sot sot de at that time.. cuz he kept on telling us abt Ji Mi and San Mao.. -.-" and so we called him the "San Mao Lao Shi" lolz... after dat mr ng came back to teach us for a while and den he told us he will be leaving and another teacher will cum and replace him.. and so we asked him who and he said the teacher is the one that came to relieve him the last time.. the whole class HARH at him and all of us DID NOT WANT THAT!!.. lolz.. we were like..er.. that weird weird sot sot person cum teach us chinese...?? DIE LE LARRR...

speaking of mr tok.. i guess we realli took a long long time to realli learn to appreciate him.. time realli helps in almost everything.. i remembered how rebellious jody and layjia were in 1/6 against mr tok.. they even wrote in their journals how much they hated him.. now?? c for urself... we couldn't hav liked any other teacher more than our dearest mr tok.. *sob sob* so touching.. lolz..

as for our science teacher(s) last year.. there are so many i can hardly remember who came first and who came later.. was the first one miss lim?? we like her though.. young wad.. no generation gap... the second one i remember is mr sumthing... i am sorry i cant remember the name.. let me noe if u noe the name k... i am toking abt the damn thin until like bamboo that one.. *wonder wonder* lolz.. yar.. i rememeber i dun realli like that teacher at the start.. lolz.. and jody and layjia luv him... i dunno why.. but i guess he turn out to be quite nice too and so i din mind him.. lolz..

let me now fill u in wif the teachers that came and went.. NIE trainees i mean.. miss siti.. remember? the history teacher.. the pretty girl.. i remember how my history grades soared when she was teaching us.. later when she went and mr neo took over again.. HAIZ.. not saying mr neo is not a good teacher.. he is.. ok, to some extent.. his lessons ARE interesting.. [yar rite, so interesting dat i fell asleep last lesson].. but juz dat he side-tracked too much until the original syllabus cant be covered and he had no choice but to rush through... lolz..

another NIE trainee dat i cant possibly forget.. who else~~ MR PHUA.. hahaz.. i need not say more.. tink for urself.. i am sure all of us hav PLENTY of memory regarding him.. hahaz..

remember how we first reacted to ms kc lau? i guess as time goes by, we sort of got used to her way of teaching.. the first time we saw her we realli were like... o.O.. hahaz.. she made us sing one of the verses of the skoo song in front of the class for our assessment in the first term.. hahaz.. i remembered how i was scolded for luffing at myself... -.-"

and now more abt the class.. i remembered our IPW lessons wif mdm teng.. how much we hated those IPW lessons becuz we all felt that she was very fierce.. and nigel being the one always kanna scolded by her.. dunnno why.. lolz.. do u guys still remember the 1/6 classroom?? how nice...

believe it or not, i could still vaguely remember our IPW projects of last year... our group, wif the ppl me, feli, ruth, shuling and naomi did the thing abt pets.. sumthing to do wif helping to deliver the food and all the accessories to the doorstep.. sokmui, jody, layjia, huabin and sheryl did the three in one or sumthing liddat.. wif the stapler, puncher and the ruler all together.. ann, ankita, sortcheng and two other ppl did the tee-shirt dying thing.. sorry i cant remember who else is in the grp.. meiching, suyi, yanyu, and two other ppl did the thing on file.. oso sumthing liddat lar.. add a lot of ja-parang things together.. hahaz... nigel's grp of chaitanya, anson and two other ppl.. sorry i cant remember who again did the game-in-a-cd thing.. kakei's grp of ben, pris and two other ppl (sorry again) did the damn pathetic shoe thingy.. wif kk wearing the cardboard and walking ard.. hahaz... junjie's grp of weihao, minghui and two other ppl again did sumthing abt a spectacles wif torch..?? lolz.. full of weird stuff..

lolz.. now tok abt class outings bah... the very first one.. at pasir ris park.. bbq.. lolz.. that was the first time i ever saw the whole class bonding as one.. although not as much but is good enuff for a start... i remembered how we said we wanted to invite mr lim but in the end no one asked him.. hahaz.. how late we went home... and the big damn ice box me and sokmui carried.. lolz.. all the crabsticks that nigel ate... and the half-cooked-half-not-cooked chicken wings.. *bows*

the second one.. westcoast~~ the damn damn ulu place where we cant find bicycle rental shops... where we played and played non stop at the playground... and sang the bday song to mr lim becuz we cant tink of any other better song we could possibly sing since it is meant to be a farewell party.. lol... and how we plotted to pour water on mr lim but he saw through our plan and stopped us.. and that little boy.. how he terrorised all our class boys.. lolz...

remembering all the good old times.. how i wish we wud never sepearate.. learn and go forward as one... *sob sob*

these were all onli last year stuff.. remember how we hated ms thoo.. how we toked abt her hairstyle and all tht stuff... and how mr ng always helped us do our d&t practical we dun hav to care much at all... all these and more and more and more...

2 years.. not considered a long time.. not short either... enuff to get us all to noe each other well... enuff to make us bond as a whole class.. but not enuff for us to enjoy our class spirit.. -sigh-

shall end here then.. this entry is like so long and i hasnt finished putting up things that happened last year... and this year.. so so much more.. bad things good things.. they happen.. they changed us in one way or another.. they made us realise things.. helped us grow up.. and more bonding.. and small seperatings in between... there are so many things dat i couldn't possibly say them all out.. and i wan.. i badly wan.. 2/6 spirit to stay on forever.. and ever.. and ever... *smile*

promise to post another entry on this year's stuff... promise never to forget 2/6.. promise... i hope i dun break it.. *haiz*

erm.. hi again.. din blog yesterday cuz wasnt in particularly a proper mood at nite.. was quite sad actually.. so i cried.. no point holding back my tears since i am at home and no one wud realli question me abt the reason why i cried.. so heck lor.. feel like crying den cry lor... =S

erm.. anyway.. abt the reason why i cried.. simple.. it's over.. those who understand den good.. those who dun, well, try discussing it among urselves during ur free time and then u may try observing me like ppl always do and den mayb u wud cum to some conclusion.. but at tht point of time pls cum and confirm it wif me so that no one goes off getting the wrong idea.. k.. i noe i may sound a bit ironic... but seriously no offence..

today came to skoo wif a sad face.. -.- i slept at 3am yesterday anyway.. i was reading the history tb from the back.. i read the last three chapters dat were not tested.. dun ask me why.. i dunno too.. guess i realli went a bit sot sot as described by ssssokmui.. anywayz, this morning was listening to yuan you hui.. kept on repeating the song over and over and over and i never get sick of listening to the song.. i dunno why.. i juz like it so much.. like i mentioned in the previous entry.. i realli felt that the lyrics were realli meaningful and i luv the song a lot a lot.. -sigh-

cried in cls early in the morning today.. guess onli sssssheryl and sssssokmui saw bah.. doesnt realli matter anyway.. i had said that i dun wan hold back any tears dat feel like falling.. it is a difficult thing to do and the person can onli feel worse by holding back the tears.. wad's the big deal of being seen crying.. at least nowadays my frens understand that i dun wan be asked why i cry.. let me cry finish first den try asking me few days later.. at least by then mayb my mind is in a clearer state and i could tok in human language.. wad i toking.. nvm..

as for today's lessons.. i did not pay attention in either chinese or d&t.. i rather say i paid more attention in PE.. =S.. played bacdminton wif class ppl.. play play play.. agree wif wad weihao said.. this is probably the onli PE lesson where i realli sweat... *raises eyebrow*

damn bored at home rite now.. yea.. i agree wif sokmui.. i luv blogging too...

my current mood is fine... at least i am alive, and i am neutral.. not particularly sad.. not realli very happy either.. juz neutral.. i luv such weather.. no sun, no rain.. mayb a little rain wun hurt.. but not too much lo.. i am feeling weird.. slight headache at my left brain.. mayb it's trying to signal to me that i should find sumthing to eat.. but haiz.. tell me where i am living.. u hav two options.. a) a cave.. b) a cave in ice age.. i tink both suits.. but of cuz the second one suits more.. >_<

i juz realised potato is a nice thing to eat.. was eating potatoes last nite.. ok.. i was meant to be drinking potato soup.. but i dun like the soup as much so i onli ate the potatoes.. =S.. and i went to ask my mum does she noe how to grow potatoes.. she gave me the weird stare and den answered very seriously "no".. i stared back at her and den said "who noes how to grow potatoes?" she answered very seriously again, "I dunno.." and she gave me the innocent look as if growing potatoes is a crime and she wasnt the one who did it.. =S.. yea i noe.. some ppl are going to say i hav a cute mum.. i noe sssssokmui is gonna say that.. yea yea.. =S

seen the cls photos today... ok overall.. sheryl hated 3 out of 4 of the photos becuz she doesnt look like herself in the photos.. i look so different too.. so girlie.. yea yea.. who ask me to be short rite.. kanna seated in the first row... muz put the hands on the knees.. and kanna seated beside form teacher oso.. candid foto turned out to be me and meiching so centralised... =/

end here then.. choz ppl..

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

yea... hihi.. lookie who's here.. yea.. it's me... *bows* thank you thank you.. yes, i am back AGAIN.. dun hav to remind me.. lolz..

i luv the song yuan you hui.. track 9 of Qi Li Xiang.. ~ÎÒ顶着大太阳，只想为你撑伞~ 你靠在我肩膀，深呼吸怕遗忘~ 应为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈~ 多希望话题不断，圜游会永不打烊~ 气球在我手上，我牵着你瞎晃~ 有话想对你讲，你眼睛却装忙~ 鸡蛋糕跟果酱我都想要尝~ 圜游会影片在播放，整个世界约好一起逛~ i luv the music i luv the lyrics.. i practically luv the song... *我悄悄走到你身旁，你慌乱的模样，我微笑安静欣赏* meaningful lyrics.. nice song.. wad else can i ask for.. =)

nvm if ur com cant read chinese.. lolz.. it's nice enuff... =D

suddenly so high now.. i dunno why.. currently toking to junjie online.. not much ppl online anyway.. guess everyone is busy preparing for exams except for me..? i dunno.. lolz.. will go do the 2002 paper 1 later.. =)

yea ppl.. i changed the layout yesterday.. but few ppl cum online nowadays... and so? the tagboard is cold and the status remains unchanged.. zzz.. exams sure hav a impact on us all..

abt the book i reading now.. gap creek.. up till now.. the girl's father has died and she is the onli one the whole family could depend on.. her name is Julie.. and den she met this guy called Hank and the guy proposed to her one week after they met.. and den they married a month later.. and den they went on a sort of honeymoon in a place called gap creek... it's a hse that is beautiful.. but the landlord is a old man who makes Julie cook and wash his clothes for him as the pay for the rent... -.-'' and den the bed Julie and her husbang were sleeping on broke on the first nite while they were u-know-ing... lolz.. nice book... although not as nice as Cherry Ice still.. but the language is simpler and easier to understand.. the adjectives were also very vivid and real... why do i feel as if i'm doing some sort of book review here..? lolz.. juz ignore me.. i'm juz trying to type more crap.. increase my speed of typing.. lolz.. crapX

tok more abt today's lessons then.. cant tink of anything else to tok of.. first period was... eh.. let me tink... music, yar music.. the test.. should do ok.. not very good but wud pass, since she said nobody failed.. -.- eh...

den was... english... eh, same old lessons lo.. and den chinese... as boring as ever.. and den maths.. =S wad else can i say? and den... science... experiment so fun.. lolz.. play wif test tubes and all tht... hahaz... ta dah.. the end of my lessons.. so INTERESTING hor?

yay... sssssssssssokmui is sssssssssick.. hahaz... she is also ssssssssoggy and ssssssssalty.. lolz.. ask her urself if u wanna noe the reason.. and sssheryl is oso sssick.. hahaz... but hers is shorter becuz she is not as sssssssssick as sssssssssokmui.. lolzzzz...

ciao ppl...

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

yea yea.. i am back again.. yes.. here i am AGAIN... lolz...

currently blasting my speakers wif Qi Li Xiang.. anywayz ppl, it's 67 more days before Jay Chou's concert arrives.. and it is 14 more days before the horrifying day arrive... yes yes.. exams.. no need to remind me.. i noe i should be revising now.. but... heh heh... juz updating blog checking mail and den i go offline le lar.. =)

currently feeling.. dunno how to describe.. wasnt practically in a veh good mood today throughout... even until i reach home.. had the bath and i felt better.. the cold water helped in bring my temperature down, sort of.. and anyway.. i still believe that there is always sumthing to hope for in a new day.. even if that thing happens to be exams.. eh come to tink of it.. i cant wait for it to cum.. juz wanna get it ALL OVER AND DONE WITH.. bleah.. hafta go through it every year yea... so why not sooner..?

finished Cherry Ice.. currently reading Gap Creek.. as far as i had read, nothing romantic has appeared yet, as it has been promised on the book cover wif the words "story of a marriage".. up till now it's abt this young girl who has been helping ard in the hse becuz her other sisters are rather useless, her father has some lung diseases and is bedridden.. the mother is weak.. and her youngest brother had juz died becuz of some rare diseases where he start throwing up white worms... gross..

speaking of gross, lolz.. dUn ReMinD Me~~ today's science lesson was grossed out man.. digestion.. it's a subject meant to gross all of us out.. mrs lim went on abt how her doctor fren helped digged out feaces and ended up in a state of torn gloves wif gross things at the fingers.. and then his wedding ring is lost.. in.. god-noes-where.. hahaz... and during the lesson, me sheryl and huabin had been discussing the best way possible to torture a person until he or she dies.. lolz.. i came up wif the idea of using the peeler where ppl use to peel cucumber to skin a person alive.. sheryl toked abt the chest-like thing where one side of the casing is full of needles.. and den the person lie flat inside and u close the case.. and so HUA-LA.. there goes~~ huabin came up wif mainly the gross-est ideas which mainly implicate the private parts of the body.. gross isnt he.. =S

some ppl had their oral exams today and i had been disturbing jiahao at the window by doing the moronic banana man stunt.. he joined me later when he came in and we did that together on huabin... and den huabin joined in and we did that on layjia.. lolz.. some sort of trend..

sian dao pengz.. anyway, man u won liverpool wif a score of 2-1.. both were goaled by mikael silvestre... weird name i noe.. he is french i tink.. and the most amusing thing is he is a defender~~... lolz.. wad is tis world cuming to...

end here then.. will be back soon.. dun worry.. lolz

Monday, September 20, 2004

choz ppl.. i am back.. my internet connection sux rite now.. as it is so damn slow.. maybe it's trying to punish me for having deserted him/her for the past two days.. but hey, c'mon.. it has onli been two days.. eh hello?? lolz.. it's taking years to even load my blog.. bleah

eh.. anyway.. i am supposed to be studying rite now.. but i juz tot i wud cum online for a while juz to check the mail and c if others had updated their blogs as well.. zzz.. wud go back to the books later.. juz giv me a hour or two to at least spice up this blog.. lolz..

today's lesson was thrash man... a mere look at the time table and anyone could scream I DUN WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!! lolz.. wad do we hav on today's menu..? science? does not sound very appetitising... especially so when it's meant to be the first period of the day.. electricity, power, voltage, resistance, circuit, watt, kilowatt bleah... i almost tot the blackout this morning is trying to tell us NOT to study more abt eLeCtRiCiTy~ but.. lolz.. sheryl had been fanning herself beside me throughout the lesson and i tried to help fan wif my hands.. not that it helped though.. lolz..

next on the list... art.. it turns out that mrs kamal chose to be absent for today.. all the preparation done the day b4 was wasted.. not that we put in a lot a lot of effort.. but at least we tried.. lolz... one hour of free period.. ann was busy trying to figure out the science stuff while sheryl tried out her maths exam papers.. me? i shrugged off the initial idea of studying and plunged rite down on my table.. scribbling lyrics of jay chou songs... after which a nice long nap on the table.. such weather, such temperature, how could i not sleep??

after which was english.. as always, i paid some attention here and there, other times i was busy drawing cartoons in my notebook and crapping wif the so-called-zhou-jie-lun-aka-mushroom-head-aka-idiot-of-the-world JIAHAO.. lolz.. together wif sheryl of cuz.. lame jokes.. wad did the light bulb say to the lamp when it disturbed it? answer..? ''watt'' =S luff ppl, becuz u r supposed to.. HA HA HA

and den.. SRP.. bLeAh~ crap crap and more and more crap... zzz.. and den mushroom jie jie came into our class and went on to crap abt more symmetry stuff.. couldnt concentrate.. mind was on many other things.. started drawing cricles using the compass and making patterns out of it.. perhaps onli mushroom didi could understand the mushroom tok of mushroom jie jie.. lolz...

went straight home after lessons.. wif sokmui... was hungry so went to vista point to settle my lunch.. and den i reached home and here am i.. typing entry..

g2g now.. byeZ

Friday, September 17, 2004

erm.. hi..? yes yes, i noe.. i am blogging everyday... juz felt like it.. anyway, there's no harm in doing it... yea?
tis morning started off rather badly.. i had stomachaches during science lessons and i wasnt in particularly a good mood.. erm.. towards the end of the day, i guess i felt better..? though there were times in between i felt a sudden surge of sadness.. tried to push it aside but it came bugging me a few hours later.. especially so on the bus towards science center later that day.. dat's why i was like acting like a moron for some time and den suddenly dropping to slp after dat.. hmmm...?
as for this layout.. i dunno why i like it though.. it is not jay chou, it is not black.. but i juz like the attitude the layout sort of portrays.. exactly the reason why i am mermerised wif jay chou.. i like his style, his attitude.. and his talent in music juz perfect everything else.. i like the way he seem to respect but is not afraid.. i like the feeling he gives others.. not friendly but not unfriendly either.. somewhere in between.. the type that wud rather go unseen.. dun need the very nice packaging and everything and he could stand out alone.. unafraid and undaunted by anything in his way.. i like this attitude..
hmm... as for today.. there is more hw for me to do.. which i had aimed to finish during the weekends.. except that i still hav to go to skoo tml to support the team in ngee ann poly.. nevertheles... i will do my best..? lolz..
-sigh- seriously, i feel dat ppl in this world act.. there is no clear difference between wad's rite and wad's wrong, wad u like and wad u hate, who to trust and who u could not trust.. and of cuz, wad ppl say and wad ppl realli tink.. many many things cum into my mind these few days.. involving a lot a lot a lot of ppl.. i wud like to observe more.. and even if i do cum into conclusions, at least those were my interpretations.. call it my set of seeing things lo..
end here then.. dun miss me, i wud be back by tml.. lolx

Thursday, September 16, 2004

speechless.. i dun noe wad else could i say..
rite ppl... i guess my resolution din work very effectively after all.. i hav been blogging everyday... but at least i hasnt played any gunbound for like quite long..? wadeva it is, at least i still quite hav the urge to study.. the reason why i decided to cum online is becuz i feel like reading others' ppl blogs.. but it seem that no one else blogged so i hav nothing to read.. and so i am blogging.. cuz i cant tink of anything else that i feel like doing now..
i juz realised that i hasnt disclosed much abt wat happens everyday in skoo.. reason being it seems to be repetitive and i c no point in saying the same old things... anyway.. i had juz taken up the habit of taking sleeping pills these few days.. i hav been losing slp.. yes, me.. losing slp... i slept at 11+ for the last two days.. and i took two sleeping pills from my sis who kept them in her cupboard.. i took them out at first tinking it's panadol, becuz it looks exactly the same as a normal panadol.. but i saw some weird words at the back of the packaging.. and finally knew dat it's slping pills.. din noe my sis takes them.. anyway, i ate two, as instructed on the box.. and i fell asleep.. it din hav much effect like unable to wake up the next day or wad.. but there's this constant headache bugging me and my brain.. i'm beginning to feel different.. i dunno why..
wadeva it is, i cried in cls today for some reasons.. i noe wad they are but i dun feel like recalling them.. i dunno how am i going to look as if nothing has happened tml.. mayb i wud try.. but why are there suddenly so many ppl i dun wish to c in skoo? i'm beginning to dread skoo.. there are some ppl i wish to c but there are others i wish could disappear..
ppl reading this, dun jump to conclusions and categorise urself under any of the two groups mentioned above.. i dun wan more misunderstandings and more sleep gone..
shall end here then.. i'm feeling a bit robotic.. i wonder wad's wrong wif me.. hav the urge to jump out of the window.. forget it.. i can feel myself becuming paranoid.. i realli wonder wad's wrong wif me.. did sumbody put a spell on me or wad...

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

i dunno why reading other ppl's blogs could hav such a big impact on me..
i always tot reading blogs of frens wud most probably help me understand frens better.. i hope i do now.. and it seems like there is much more to noe.. facts and things cum crashing down on me like a thunderstorm.. why does it seems like no one else in this world other than me is enjoying life as it is?
some questions came to my head while going through mc's blog anyway.. they came and go and were left unanswered.. perhaps sumtimes it wud be best to let the bad memories fade as time passes and leave the good ones behind.. it keeps u happy.. and remember, there is always something in this world u could hope for.. it may not be sumthing big.. but sumthing, sumone in this world, could make you happy.. and anything is always worth waiting for.. i suddenly feel grown-up.. i seem to finally understand the meaning of "Live life to your fullest".. and i suddenly understand wad it meant by to forgive and forget.. it seems to be punishing one self when he or she remembers all the bad things, bad past of life.. doesnt it?
anyway, i juz found another meaningful quote from Cherry Ice.. "Enjoy life. There's plenty of time to be dead." it may sound funny, amusing, wadeva u call it.. but it's true.. wad does it realli mean by enjoying life then..? living happily? do things dat u want to do.. or otherwise regret it later.. rite.. i dunno why, but i actually feel happy to say all these out..
believe it or not, i actually hav a goal in my life rite now.. the first time.. lolz.. guess many things changed me lately.. i hav no qualms of hiding wad i realli feel to anyone.. i onli feel that one has to live openly to realise the happiness of not having to hide.. the things dat happened recently.. abt mc, abt ann.. they changed my perspective, and i sort of realised a lot of things from there..
toking abt my goals.. i hav a short term goal of achieving good results this year.. mayb that's the goal of everybody.. but i seriously told myself i should study becuz i want to.. not becuz of the results.. results is juz a way to show how much i hav succeeded in studying efficiently.. i wun be too affected by the results still.. so long i hav done my best, i had done all i possibly could, i wun regret.. as for my long term goal, i guess i wud most possibly change my character.. i dunno how my new self wud be like.. it wudnt happen so fast.. let's see abt that..
rite.. while typing this entry, i'm at the same time reading Cherry Ice.. and another quote "Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow." hmmm..
and another.. "Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself" it's interesting seeing so many meaningful quotes.. and i enjoyed it.. i wonder wad caused the change in me.. yar, like i said.. perhaps it realli was abt those things dat happened.. dun be surprised if u suddenly see me crying.. cuz i do not hav the urge to hold my tears back like i used to becuz i want to put up a strong front or anything.. when u r sad, u cry.. that's logic.. i tot anyone wud noe that.. i learnt that in kindergarden.. and it's natural.. and so it will happen.. hmm...
and another quote... "What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us." they are all said by a girl in the book named Ella Feast... meaningful.. alright.. and more quotes...
"The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."
"Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep."
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars."
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe."
"Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important."
guess i should end here.. i hope i dun sound too naggy or anything.. after all, i'm still 14.. cant expect me to act like an old granny.. lolz.. c ya then..

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

erm... hi..? yea... back to blog.. seemed almost natural for me to log on to blogger instead of geocities.. bleah.. wadeva it is.. i seem to suddenly like this blog better than the geocities site.. wadeva it is.. i will one day change the layout for the geocities site and den perhaps i wud move over once again...? bleah.. wadeva...
currently listening to Qi Li Xiang.. believe it or not, i'm alreadi dreaming abt Jay's cuming concert.. and for our DeaR sokmui's info, JAY in my opinion IS THE ONLY ONE with real talent for music and his style his looks his everything, juz practically charmed me.. the sorta heck care attitude that he has.. the kind of respect but not afraid attitude that he always had.. i admire him, ok.. I ADMIRE HIM.. bleah
erm.. anyway.. at the same time i'm sending sheryl some pictures of Jay as i had promised... shauiiiiii... i guess i'm juz going crazy abt him again... lol... careful ppl.. i wud be like so excited on the concert day.. i wud go round hugging ppl.. perhaps even ppl i dunno.. at least dat was wad i did the other time... >_<
and hmmm.. exams are.. round the corner?? i dunno.. time seems to be literally flying.. hahaz...
and yar, i juz finish uploading pics of jay and sent them to sheryl... lolz... i hav 328 of them stored in my com!!! lolz.. i am crazy yar yar i noe.... but i CANT HELP IT!!!! hahaz.. 27 November... i'm almost willing to do anything to go watch the concert... even if it means i will hav to save on every single cent and start saving like crazy... JIA YOU
now do i sound like some crazy girl who has juz unscrewed her own screws?? mayb... lolz..
been reading on the book i borrowed today.. wonderful book.. finished half of it today.... title huh.. let me tink.. oh yar, it is named Cherry Ice... lolz.. starting is abt this small girl dat went to buy ice cream and got cheated.... becuz she tot cherry ice cream sounded like some fairies' food, since it cost a lot more than normal vanilla ice cream.. she's been like dreaming, seeing this big ice cream in a cone, with the ice cream all pink and delicious, bits of cherry here and there... and den she went to buy it.. and the uncle gave her a vanilla ice cream by mistake.. so she protested to the uncle that she wanted a CHERRY ice cream.. the uncle said OH and den took the vanilla ice cream back... the little girl was so relieved becuz she was afraid of getting disappointed... and den the uncle put a small red cherry on top of the ice cream and handed it back to the girl.. VOLAH! the so-called cherry ice cream.. the girl was so sad and disappointed... she felt cheated and did not feel like eating the ice cream.. so she burried it in pebbles with the cone sticking out of the place to remind ppl not to be cheated by the ice cream man.. LOL... luv the book man.. recommend it to all out there.. interesting realli... =)
~Yu xia zheng ye Wo de ai yi chu jiu xiang yu shui
Yuan zi luo ye Geng wo de shi nian hou hou yi die
Ji ju shi fei Ye wu fa jiang wo de re qing leng que
Ni chu xian zai wo shi de mei yi ye~

Sunday, September 12, 2004

sad.. or mayb i can say my mood now is damn damn bad... today is sunday... the reason why i'm not using my geocities site is becuz i dun feel like it.. guess this site will be for those entries i dun wish many ppl to c bah..
juz read mc's blog.. abt that thing we did on thursday nite.. it didnt occur to me then wad i had said wud cause all these things to happen.. i'm sorry, although i noe it wud help anymore.. i feel like smashing myself in the face telling myself wad i always told myself... things said are like poured away water.. mayb it's time to reflect on my happy-go-lucky manner.. it doesnt seem so good to take everything simply as it is.. it doesnt seem good to treat everything as a joke.. rite, saying sorry seems to be the least i could do now? i noe mc is angry, ok, mayb not angry.. i noe i'm in the wrong.. i hope if she was to hate anyone for this, do it on me, not ann or feli.. they probably joined in becuz i started it.. yes.. I... noe wad? i hav the sudden urge to cut myself up.. .. dun wan end up in the hospital or anything.. at least that proves that i hav not gone all crazy yet..
hafta go ann's hse later to finish up on the lit project.. my right eye is still swollen.. less swollen mayb.. but it's still swollen.. i feel like crying