Sunday, September 12, 2004

sad.. or mayb i can say my mood now is damn damn bad... today is sunday... the reason why i'm not using my geocities site is becuz i dun feel like it.. guess this site will be for those entries i dun wish many ppl to c bah..
juz read mc's blog.. abt that thing we did on thursday nite.. it didnt occur to me then wad i had said wud cause all these things to happen.. i'm sorry, although i noe it wud help anymore.. i feel like smashing myself in the face telling myself wad i always told myself... things said are like poured away water.. mayb it's time to reflect on my happy-go-lucky manner.. it doesnt seem so good to take everything simply as it is.. it doesnt seem good to treat everything as a joke.. rite, saying sorry seems to be the least i could do now? i noe mc is angry, ok, mayb not angry.. i noe i'm in the wrong.. i hope if she was to hate anyone for this, do it on me, not ann or feli.. they probably joined in becuz i started it.. yes.. I... noe wad? i hav the sudden urge to cut myself up.. .. dun wan end up in the hospital or anything.. at least that proves that i hav not gone all crazy yet..
hafta go ann's hse later to finish up on the lit project.. my right eye is still swollen.. less swollen mayb.. but it's still swollen.. i feel like crying