Sunday, January 30, 2005

came online cuz some thoughts suddenly crossed my mind... and i felt like blogging..

time check.. 21 17...

sumtimes i realli wonder... betrayal.. lies.. deceptions.. why izzit tht although everyone clearly noes tht they exist.. why do everybody get so pissed when they noe someone lied.. someone faked.. or worse come to worse.. someone betrayed..

hrm

why do such situations occur so frequently yet no one noes the pattern well enuff...?:

A tells B sumthing abt him/herself.. and tells B not to tell anyone abt it... and den B tells C abt it and tells C not to breath a word abt it to anyone.. and den C tells another one.. juz so tht when B finds out.. he or she gets angry at C for breaking the promise.....

when B is the one to break his or her promise first...

-sigh- poor A

how are ppl supposed to hav the mutal trust among each other when lies appear so frequently in all of our lives.. as frequently as we eat rice.. or read books.. or pick a flower... who could assure anyone tht he or she hasnt lied to anybody for like, one month?

sad to say.. perhaps the onli ppl tht doesnt lie are the children.. or babies for tht matter.. or those special ppl like the deaf and mute ppl.. or the blind.. it juz seems so to them dat nth else matter in this world.. even if wan to... it wun seem as easy as us anymore...

why do ppl always say they feel like going back to the past.. or sumthing like re-live his or her childhood.. when we all noe tht it is impossible.. and tht it onli happens in doreamon shows where Doreamon travels back in time in his time machine.. lol.. maybe tht's juz wad others feel.. the feeling of wanting to live through all the happy moments.. all the happy times again...

but come to tink of it.. if one day a fairy godmother or w-a-d-e-v-a walks into ur life and wud grant u ur wish of travelling back in time.. will u go?

rite.. give u some time to tink...
















tot? lol

for me.. i dun tink.. i will hav the courage to...

even though i wud noe exactly wad things will happen next if i travel back in time.. i wun hav the courage to do so.. becuz... along wif the many many many many happy memories that happened... are the misery, anger, despair, helplessness and more.. wad's more.. knowing it's going to happen soon and cant do anything to help.. (which so happened frequently..) that sense of helplessness... ihateit

hrm

of cuz.. another reason why i wun... is like most ppl i tink... becuz we are all curious of the future.. both you and i wish to noe wad interesting things wud happen tml morning when we wake up.. different things happen everyday.. the same-old-boring-day u and me always mention arent as same or boring as we tink it is... yes, same procedures.. same lessons.. same flag raisings.. same teachers... but wad comes along are always different.. it's juz the way we choose to look at it...

and den back to the topic of betrayal.. why are humans such complicated creatures.. even as i'm saying all these now.. i'm wondering why i am wondering abt such things... -.- lol.. why izzit that everyone noes no one in this world could be fully trusted yet everyone overlooks them.. and den get so fcuking pissed when he or she has been kept in the dark/betrayed..?

so weird..

and now i'm wondering why i'm typing all these.. and it seems as though i'm using a language alien to me... weird

-clears head- back to usual blogging..

erm.. hi -.-

lolz... parents went to fly kite juz now.. weird..

so weird lahhh... tink i slept too much this afternoon.. causing the subconscious mind to be tinking abt such chimology when half the times i cant find the answer to the question i juz asked myself..

weird -.-