Thursday, March 31, 2005

hrm

feeling er.. weird.. came online wif some things to blog abt.. den read ann's blog.. so made mental note abt more things to blog abt.. den read meiching's blog.. den made further mental note cuz things were rushing through my mind as i read.. but i logged into lonehearter.. and i started off wif hi.. new paragraph.. and den i realised i dunno wad i wan to blog abt..

ok crap.. ermZ.. thing by thing.. -_-

went to school today.. had a hard time understanding the maths juz becuz i missed one lesson yesterday.. Zzz.. wad's more.. the maths teacher seated beside me no license one.. -_- teach halfway start screaming.. diaoZ..

anywayZ.. lessons were er.. boring.. especially physics.. Zzz.. the onli thing tht interests me during physics lessons is the clock.. cuz i realise i've been keeping track of the number of minutes i can stay awake in his lessons.. lolz.. diao

tml's talentime!! sheryl and jiahao jiayouZ!! ... jiahao made a bet wif me tht if he and sheryl could get into the top 3 he wud give me 5 lollipops.. for no reason.. he juz started a sms saying "if me and sheryl get into top 3 for talentime i give u 3 lollipops.."den i said "3 so little.." so he said "ok.. 5..." lolz.. good luck to angelyn, seowhui and jinning too =)

ermZ.. and.. tml's april fool.. haZ.. dunno why i mentioned it.. juz tot abt it.. cuz i bluffed nigel tht no periodic wud be provided for the chem test.. lolz.. and he believed.. -_-

arh yar.. juz eaten quite alot of food for supper.. so wun slp so early.. ya.. i've had supper.. one packet of carrot cake.. plus 1/5 of those popiah.. and a bowl of beancurd.. my brother bluffed me into eating the popiah.. he knew there were beansprouts in them and he knew i dun eat beansprouts.. and he purposely gave it to me.. Zzz.. i almost dropped the plate when i saw a beansprout on the plate and felt a Crunch! in my mouth.. Ahhhhhhh

i din flare up at my bro immediately.. i waited for him to go pour water.. and den i rushed to pour lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of chili inside the popiah.. heh heh.. he CANT take chili.. LALALALA

and like duh.. he was stupid enuff to not realise tht there was chili inside the popiah.. he took them by then fork, aaarrrmmm..

and there goes.. hahahahahahahahha

shant continue.. the later part is much grosser wif lots of spitting.. hahahahhahahha =PpPp

hrm

my eldest sis got a letter from MOE recruiting her to be a NIE trainee for secondary education.. eldest.. not the one who got 28 points for o'levels.. the one who was teaching at the daylight-robbery japanese tuition center.. teaching all those infants who onli noe how to cry how to develop their left and right brains.. like i said.. it was a boliao job anyway.. hahaz.. anywayZ.. she is going to be a NIE trainee in subjects english and english literature.. lolz.. wud pity any student under her.. she is... er.. fierce.. -_- and crappy.. -_-

uh huh.. wad else to blog abt..

arh.. mind has alot of things.. thinking and thinking non stop.. nvmZ..

today during lunch played the staring game wif meiching.. lolz.. i kept winning... until i told her the secret of winning the staring game.. tht is to keep on thinking in ur mind.. If i luff i like syn y***... and she tried it.. and she won me.. hahahahahaz... never try to play this game wif priscilla koh... you'll never never never win... cuz her face almost has the words.. DUN LUFF U LIKE SYN Y***.. hahahaZ... u get wad i mean.. lolz..

dunno wad to say.. deep inside sumthing telling me i need a rest.. back of mind says hav alot of things to do for the time being.. finish them den u can rest.. Zzz...

deeeeeep deeeeep inside has a feeling.. cant say it out.. to anybody... dunno.. seems like i might regret it someday if i'm to say it to someone.. Zzz.. seems like.. how shld i say.. dunno who to tok to anywayZ.. ok.. very complicated inside.. scared those kind of things like i tok to this person then tht person thinks i dun wish to tok to her -___-... seems like.. sheryl meiching and ann arent on very good terms...

even today.. at the lunch table.. where all three of them were seated.. wif me and priscilla.. something tells me i cannot stop luffing.. cuz then it'll be.... er.. leng chang.. -_-

seems like.. i shake my head more often nowadays... not those type where u respond to a question and u say no.. those type where i shake my head to mean i hav nth to say.. or i dun wan say anything.. Zzz...

abit lag lar.. term one has passed.. -_- ok.. term one dun sound long? ok look.. term one is 3 months.. 90 days.. 2160 hours... 129600 mins.. 7776000 secs... ha.. now look... since the start of the year.. since the day we dread going to school... since the day we went for the 3 days sec 3 camp.. it has been tht long.. wow...

and within these 7776000 secs.. so many things hav happened... we went for our sec three camp.. we got to know our sec 3 class... we started school.. got to see all the teachers.. we got our lockers.. did all our minor and major tests.. we passed our chinese new year.. did our first piece of sec 3 homework.. learnt abt physics/chemistry/biology for the first time in our life... did the first scary A maths homework... went through lessons after lessons.. worked through PE after PE.. carried on our lives like normal.. have our meals during recesses and after school.. flag raisings in the morning.. national anthem.. pledges.. school song after school song.. hair check after hair check... assignment after assignment.. we carried out the usual routine in each of our lives... no matter what.. time has to go on...

these 7776000 secs.. we watched our fren go.. we cried at the airport.. we hugged, we consoled.. we watched her leave the departure hall.. in these 7776000 secs.. we met up during every recess at the 2/6 recess table... we watched kakei bend his fork.. we watched nigel luff at everyone.. in all this time.. we seen through ppl quarrell.. we quarrelled wif ppl.. we watched ppl patch up.. we patched up ourselves.. we luffed.. we cried.. we said hi-s everyday... we said bye-s everyday... although when the time comes and we realli mean it.. everyone cries when we said the last bye...

in the 7776000 secs of the last term... we smiled, we luffed, we cried... there were times when we were realli sad and depressed.. there were times when we were realli happy and luffed... no one could be sad and depressed for long if there's always someone there to cheer him or her up.. mayb tht's wad i've been trying to do.. cuz i wud rather ppl luff.. den cry..

after all the cries in the departure hall on 2nd march... and den we left for home.. tht night many of us cried.. the next day and the next too.. but by 6th march.. no one forgets felicia.. no one forgets how sad we were... but we werent as sad as we were tht day... cuz we had each other... once in awhile.. when we suddenly think of her.. we saddens.. she wun be a fading memory... she'll always be a smiling one...

today i helped ann do her concluding paragraph for her chinese compo... lolz.. i wrote it from her point of view... tht part abt "hui dao jian dan shi jie li... zhao zi ji.."... wad she always say... tht she dun understand herself and she sees herself as someone very complicated now as compared to last time...

for me... somehow i feel simpler everytime i think..





"IF I'M NOT SIMPLER I LIKE SYN Y***"

nah... juz jk... hahahahahhaz.. to lighten the mood up.. hahahaz.. but it's not a bad idea oso lar hor.. hahahaZ...

haZ.. for me.. lolz... can onli say.. do what i feel like doing every single second, every single minute of my life... if i feel like breaking a bottle of ketchup to get ketchup.. i do... if i feel like tearing my A maths worksheet.. i do.. if i feel like sleeping in class.. i do.. if i feel like toking to someone.. i do.. if i feel like crying.. i cry... if i feel like luffing.. i luff... i dun regret anything i do becuz tht was wad i felt like doing... tht is me.. and tht is wad I did...

it's never too late to do anything u feel like doing... if u think it's too late and u dun wish to do it.. den dun do... if u think it's too late but u wish to do it.. do it.. at least u live to answer up to urself...

i'm not the girl wif the attitude tht does anything i wan... (quoted from ann when she wrote my autograph book last year...) i'm the girl who doesnt want to regret anything i do in my life... maybe tht's why i'm happy.. even if i'm not happy.. i wun regret being sad... becuz tht was wad i wanted.. i wanted to tong tong kuai kuai de ku yi chang.. so cry.. dun deprive of urself the chance to be urself.. u are u... so u are u...

ok.. i noe i'm lag again... hope everyone can have a new start in term two... may the remaining 2 months plus.. 79 days.. 1896 hours.. 113760 mins... 6825600 secs of the remaining term be fruitful.. be happy.. cuz i'm happy when u are... =)