Friday, March 31, 2006
♥ My Fuck Teacher

Term 2 Week 2 is over.

I'm not going to zi qi qi ren anymore. This week's been the worst week ever. From Monday to Friday, it's been the worst week I've ever had in my entire life. All that shit about being positive and cheering up and tomorrow will always be a better day didn't work this week, not at all.

No matter how many times I remind myself how today will be like depends on my own attitude towards today. No matter how many times I remind myself today will be a nice day as long as I think it is a nice day. No matter how many times I remind myself that I'll be able to live through worse things and I'll only feel happier after everything is over. Nothing changes.

That same fucking feeling just grows and fester.

For 5 days, I dragged my feet to school. I climbed the stairs so slowly by the time you finish reading every entry on this page, I would still be halfway up the 3rd floor. I walked through the dark corridor which used to be the Humans Room every morning, telling myself not to think about the past days, to move on, to move on, to move on. I would walk into the toilet and wash my face, and stare at myself in the mirror, and tell myself to smile, and that smiling is the first step to convincing yourself today will be a better day. And then I would take big strides towards 4/1 classroom, and I'll enter the classroom energetic and rombust. I would YO at every incoming fouroner, and scream WHY SO SIAN! TODAY'S A NEW DAY! CHEONG ARH! at Weixin and Huiming when I saw them looking tired and worn out.

But the days just get worse, and worse. Schoolwork is hectic enough, with all the extra lessons crumbling down like nobody's business. Having a fucking irritating form teacher doesn't help at all. Rolling eyes aside, I can't stand her domineering character. No wonder she's also being ostracised.

Get it clear lah, balding auntie, I'm 4/1's chairman. I'm not YOUR chairman. Stop making it sound like you own me or what fuck can. Yea, I left the school early on Wednesday. Not because Jiaru made me lah, hairless faggot. I left because I couldn't care a fuck about you saying NO when I asked if we can leave school early. Understand or not? Cheebye prick, I left because you said no.

And nabei, NAG ALL YOU WANT LAH. We're used to noise pollution anyway. And 4/1, being the usual selfish, self-centred, cynical, judgemental lot, we don't give a fuck how you're worsening the pollution problem by creating more noise. If not because of Geography, I might not even be interested in an insignificant, pollutive you. Fuck off.

Oh, before fucking off, please accept my utmost gratitude for filling the blanks in the time slots after school for my following Monday, Wednesday and Friday. With extra lessons on Tuesday and Thursday ONLY, I've been soooooooooooo troubled how to spend my extra time after school on the other three days. Thanks arh. Thanks so much arh my dearest fuck teacher Angelic Heng. (I can't spell 'form'.) Thanks for the DC man. You're the best. Muacks. Okay now fuck off. -wipes mouth frantically-

So much about my fuck teacher. Miss Fuc-Angelic Fuck Heng. I can't seem to find my ice cream scooper. I need them badly for her eyes. Very badly. Stop rolling your eyes each time I tell you something. EVEN WHEN I REPORT ATTENDANCE TO HER. SHE CAN FIND THE CHANCE TO ROLL HER EYEBALLS AT ME. FUCK.

(AH = Angelic Heng)
Me: -walks up to her front- All here.
AH: Who?
Me: All here.
AH: WHO??
Me: NO ONE. ALL HERE.
AH: -head slightly cocked to the right, reproachful look in her fuckface- If everyone's here, just tell me no one is absent.
Me: I said All here.
AH: -rolls eyes- No you didn't. You said a name.
Me: -attempts to roll eyes but failed- I. Said. All. Here.
AH: -rolls eyes- Okay.

Didn't she hear Mr Ang's announcement?! No playing of balls are allowed in school other than the basketball and netball area! Stop playing around with your eyeballs lah kan ni na.

Nabei.

She's twice our age but I swear she's at least 10 times more irritating than anyone of us. Even Aaron. I can't believe I'm saying this but yes, she's more irritating than Aaron.

May she and the noble man who could actually stand her marry soon and she leaves the school, leaving a trail of peace and harmony in class 4/1 in the rest of the year to come.

Sorry for all the vulgarities. I just can't stand many things this week. Many many many things.

On a brighter note, I finished the Geography holiday homework. (laughs at Aaron) Thanks Sandy for being my pillar of strength and support. Why can't we have her as our fuck form teacher instead?

Tuesday, March 28, 2006
♥ shuo hao po xiao qian wang diao

Wo hui ji de zhe duan sui yue

Hooked onto Hua Tian Cuo by Wang Li Hong.

I still can't stand the rolling-eye creature. Man, what happened during English today gave me the ultimate chance to ROLL MY EYES at her. Ask me if you want to know, I'm lazy to blog about it. It's just, very dumb.

And I had a frightening nightmare last night. I woke up shivering, partly because it was fucking cold, but mainly because of that dream. The whole dream was about me killing people I know. I killed Weixin, Haobo, Sashti, Meiching, Brenda, Mdm Wong, Kakei, Huabin, many many more. And the whole dream was bloody, flesh spurting here and there, red all over. Very gross. Very very gross.

I woke up and when I saw ham sandwich in the kitchen table, I almost vomitted.

PE was painful. My muscles are tight now. I guess they'll start hurting on Thursday. One lag day mah. Not good to wear flat soles shoes and run. Very bad for the heels. My heels feel like I've just stepped on Sokmui and she's done something to my heels.

Kudos to my homework. Piles and piles of homework. Geography essays. Not. Done. A. Single. One. -Salutes myself- ALL THE BEST! (Deadline's 3 days away...) And I don't even want to mention Maths. :D

Today's not been a nice day. But tomorrow will still be better. (:

Monday, March 27, 2006
♥ Take all those electrons from me

There are just too many reasons why I should be happy today:

1. Today's blue Monday. And blue is a nice colour.
2. It rained this morning and we didn't have to go for assembly.
3. 4/1 moved back up.
4. The first lesson today was Geography. Yipee!
5. Today's first and second lessons are both in air-conditioned classrooms, Humans room and AVT.
6. Maths today was funny, as usual.
7. My group was the first to reach for Geography lessons, therefore earned 4 points for my group.
8. Nobody was absent today.
9. Amazingly, I didn't hear Haobo shout at all today.
10. There are no tests today.
11. We received back no tests today.
12. The Maths files checks are postponed.
13. There's no English homework today.
14. All our lessons seem to pass exremely quickly today.
15. I could do my Physics worksheet.
16. There are no homework to be handed in today.
17. There are no announcements today about chairman having to go collect anything.
18. We realised the pledge is being said over PA when whoever saying it is at the last line, thus 4/1 didn't take the pledge today.
19. No assembly = No hair check/socks check/belt check = Less nagging
20. I paid attention in all lessons today.
21. I did not sms at all during lessons today.
22. Haobo helped me stick up two Jay Chou posters this morning.
23. The noticeboard finally has extra space.
24. The noticeboard no longer says ThreeOne.
25. We have two clocks now. But we're still not on time, because we can't sit on any of the two clocks. Okay never mind, ignore me.
26. Vanessa sat with Son in the AVT today.
27. I told Mdm Wong a cold joke. No, two cold jokes.
28. Honey Heng didn't change mine or Gillian's seats.
29. Honey Heng changed Sumaiyah's seat.
30. My Literature group for the groupwork are nice people.
31. There are no extra lessons today.
32. I had breakfast this morning.
33. I got slapped for the first time in my life.

Haha. The slap was from Huiming. Real slap okay. And she was smiling when she slapped me. Which Huiming? 4/1's Spastic Huiming lah. Still got which Huiming. First time somebody slap me okay. Haha. The reason arh... Ask her yourself lah! =P

You can always find a reason to be sad, anytime, anywhere. But for every reason to be sad, there're always three reasons why you should be happy.

1. You should forget the reason to be sad because it's a reason to be sad.
2. You should take ther reason to be sad as a learning point and you've just enriched yourself.
3. Today may not be a good day, but tomorrow will always be better.

So although today may not be the best day ever, it's not the worst. And whatever that doesn't kill me only makes me stronger. (:

I'm going to have to stay positive. Take all those electrons from me. Haha! :D

Thursday, March 23, 2006
♥ Level

I'm feeling kind of, sad.

They're at it again. I don't know who to side this time. I don't even know what's the problem this time. It just blew off, some time last night. And no matter how loud I blast the music with the earphones plugged in my ears, I can't block out the fiery images behind my chair. And I'm beginning to hate interludes. I can hear them so clearly.

I can't lock myself up in the room, in the dark, and pretend I'm sleeping. Because I'm not. I'll still hear the shouts outside. I'll still hear the vulgarities, picture the expressions, understand abit here and there, but I won't block out all these. I can't block out all these. That's why I'm online, to blog, to read blogs, to chat on MSN, to pretend like it's not bothering me.

And although I tell myself, I don't want to care, I'll just sit on the fence, it's impossible to do so unless I'm not in the house.

I can't leave the house now because I'll end up slamming the door. And I'll probably not return till tomorrow morning. Spend the night in Vista Park or something. They're still at it now, it's been hours already. They just start and stop and start and stop. It'll go on till late at night, and everything ends when my brother finally slams the metal gate behind him.

I'm waiting till I feel sleepy. So that I'll just fall asleep once I touch the bed.

So it's not true that I've no family problems. They may not care about me, don't give a damn about me. I don't understand why it can't be the same with my brother. They give him the same freedom, but it just ends up different. And the two males in my family never stops getting pissed with each other.

And I hate feeling helpless. So fucking gnawing on my nerves.

♥ Honey Heng

You know, 4/1 is a nice class and I like it very much. And I enjoy being the chairman and everything. BUT.

I seriously don't like our form teacher. Really.

I was placing my bet with Huiming, Chunying, Gillian how our Literature lesson today will go. My guess was:

20 mins - nag about the classroom thing
10 mins - nag about the not-handing-in-forms-on-time thing
5 mins - nag about the wastepaper basket
5 mins - nag about our tables and chairs being crooked
10 mins - nag about us not showing respect for her
And when she finally decides to start on the lesson...
20 mins - nag at us when she discovers three quarters of the class didn't give a heck about her literature homework

The actual:

40 mins - nag about the classroom thing + nag about us not showing respect for her
5 mins - nag about the not-handing-in-forms-on-time thing
(No time spent on wastepaper basket because some good soul emptied it knowing she'll start nagging. No time spent on tables and chairs being crooked because our tables and chairs are in straight rows today.)
15 mins - lesson

No, it's not the nagging that makes me dislike her so much. It's the naggingly-naggish-nagging-nags that are so fucking irritating. And they don't make sense! Isn't the principal always saying things like "If you've any problems you can always approach me or VP anytime you wish..." in the most caring and sincere tone?? Then what's the problem of Hanhui going forward to talk to Mrs Poh when we aren't getting the replies from her?

And I bet one lollipop that she was procrastinating. Really. I smsed her n times during the holidays asking her about the classroom. The first reply was, "I'll talk to Major Chong about it." The second reply was, "I'll talk to Major Chong about it." And the third, she didn't even reply. The first thing she did on Monday morning was to remind Major Chong about it? She did? The first thing in the morning?? Then how would Hanhui get to speak to Poh before Chong did?? Doesn't make sense right!

She's just upset that we're speaking to Mrs Poh directly, indirectly saying our form teacher is void because she can't speak on behalf of us. But we didn't mean that what! And what about all the 3/7 internal problems? Tell us lah!!! You expect us to tell you everything, even if we're having a flu or we fell down during PE, then why can't you tell us something when we ask you?!

Remember the previous incident about the handbooks? She smsed me "Mrs Poh is not in school now. I'll ask her about the handbooks when she returns." when Mrs Poh is just standing outside our classroom. And then? I ran out of the classroom to ask her about the handbooks, and she returned them at 5.30pm that day. By the time Heng bothers to ask, Poh had already returned all the handbooks to us. This only shows one thing, you want results, get it yourself. Your form teacher is not going to give half a fuck about you.

So we did the same this time. And then she starts telling us this is not the way things should work, and blah blah blah dee blah dee dee dah. That there's a procedure to follow and dah dee dah dah dah blah blah blah. And because of our impulsiveness, we've caused alot of trouble for alot of people. (We seem impulsive only because she's procrastinating.) And now she wants us, led by Hanhui, to apologise to Mrs Poh, Major Chong and Mr Yoong.

Walao!

If our teacher wasn't half as void as Jiahao, do we need to find the principal ourselves? You think Hanhui loves tucking in his shirt all the way early in the morning? Okay that's beside the point. But it's not like we haven't spoken to you beforehand about the matter. You practically rebutted every single point we made. You talked to us like we've committed crimes. You just want us to cringe and hide in a dark corner and go unnoticed like you.

So now "all the teachers know 4/1." 4/1 is famous. Thanks to our greatest, dearest, bestest, beloved Miss Angelic Heng.

Another thing is. I can't stand it when she keeps rolling her eyes at me. It went like this.

(sensitive issue)
Me: Er, Miss Heng. Our class now is freaking out because there are things in ********'s hair. Things, like, er, headlice.
Heng: *rolls eyes* You mean, you can actually see it?
Me: Yah. C****C**** and H**** were even counting how many there were during assembly.
Heng: *rolls eyes* How freaked out.
Me: The people sitting behind her are talking about it already. Because she's always letting go and retying her hair in class. And W***** is very freaked out. The whole class knows about it already.
Heng: *rolls eyes* So someone has to tell her to wash her hair.
Me: Yah.
Heng: *rolls eyes* And that person has to be me.
Me: Yah.
Heng: *rolls eyes* Okay.

HOW DOES SHE DO IT MAN. TRY ROLLING YOUR EYES THAT FREQUENT LAH. DON'T YOU FEEL DIZZY?!!

-_-

Enough about her. We're still moving up next Monday. After hearing her drone for 45 minutes non-stop about how bad our behaviour, how lousy our attitude, how impulsive we were, how much trouble we've caused, how she's gone about trying to salvage the situation, basically how we're nothing but trouble. Nabei.

Aye. Got to go. Bye.

Rewind to the future. Forward to the past.

Monday, March 20, 2006
♥ Heart Wrenching

This feeling...

is called heart wrenching.

"Heart wrenching" was used before in one of my very very very very past entries. But it's still past. That same emotion kind of rekindled. Perhaps it's because I've been listening to too much Jia Gei Wo by Alex Toh.

And it's sort of, no idea how to say. Like a long route I've come by, and when I turn to look back, I thought of all those times I've fallen down and how I've stood up, alone or with help, all those laughs and fun and joy, all those tears and sorrow and unhappiness. I wonder how strong I stand now. Somehow, the worst things that can happen now don't seem as impactful as the past. This feeling keeps coming back. What's bad will pass, and tomorrow will always be a better day.

But, sometimes when thoughts just come, this heart wrenching feeling always reminds me how I used to feel, how things used to work, how we used to be like, how everyone used to treat each other. And I can't help making comparisons. Past and present. And present and future?

(At this point in time, I realise I should not continue blogging this entry....)

:)

Sunday, March 19, 2006
♥ Homework?

This morning afternoon I woke up, the first thought that came to my mind was:

Enjoy today man. Today's the last day of your first holidays in Sec 4. Enjoy today because you know you're not going to do a single mili mili piece of homework, whether it's Chinese or Maths. You know you're not going to finish them. You know you're going to find excuses for yourself and you'll end up packing nothing but a pencilcase to school. And then you'll start questioning why did you bring all those books home in the first place.

Man, I can become Cassandra or something. Haha. I can predict the future. :D

I have god-knows-how-many Maths papers to do. And not all I've brought home in the first place. Besides, my calculator is in school. Haha. And of course, all those Differentiation 8, 9, 13, 15 blah blah blah. I've no idea which was the last one I did. (Haobo just smsed me to "remind" me that Differentiation 15c is due tomorrow. Riight.) And the mentioned-before IT assignment. No intentions to download the software whatsoever, and no intentions to find the worksheets amongst all others pieces of paper called homework.

And Geography. I just heard the deadline's 31st March. Good news for me huh? I've till 31st March to complete all those 10 essays! (Not like it made a difference...) Oh, and we're supposed to do a mindmap or something? I feel bad letting Mrs Lim down. :(

Then there's Chinese, which I tried doing yesterday while Fiona was here. I did like, one page? And I went to sleep, while Fiona continued struggling with her logarithms. Anymore homework? Chemistry and Physics? I have no idea what homework we have. I bet we have some for each. Just that I don't know what. And English? We're supposed to complete the Preston Vocab book. Haha! Plus the library essay on how reading library materials has influenced my life. Literature? What quotes shit?

Hahahahahahahaha!

Sorry. Can't help laughing at myself.

And the conclusion I've drawn is, I'm not going to touch any homework. Kill me, burn me, pour worms on me, I'm not going to do anything. Tomorrow morning when I go to school I'll probably see lots of people around me trying to finish up the last bit of their homework. I think I'll just sit there and stone. Sorry arh, I don't know why I'm so demotivated. Must be because I shine. I'm a diamond, with L1R5 21. So saddening huh. Haha.

Yesterday was the band concert. Fiona came to my house at 11 plus to do homework. She managed to finish some, I think. I managed to finish one page of the Chinese book. Great feat liao okay. Then we left home and met up with Jeremy and Spiky. Headed to school to watch Ambience.

Sorry Waiwan! Haha. Budgetted concert I know. =X (The third fan on the right had three shuttlecocks in it... And third row's second and fourth light can't be switched on... And the first "T" in "Institution"... And the droppable "e" in "inspire"... And the chairs...) But at least the floor is mopped! No dust okay! And the windows on the right are cleaned too! Remember the layer of dust there before? Hahaha.

Then the four of us had dinner. Fiona, Jeremy and I headed home while Spiky stayed at Snookerium.

Bye! :)





















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Friday, March 17, 2006
♥ My holidays :D

Look at the time! It says, 12.51am! Haha! And I'm awake?! I'm just back from the chalet, mah. Haha.

This week's been hectic. Really. And it's holidays?! Okay lah, at least this week's been enjoyable, so far. No lessons mah! Haha.

Monday. Woke up at 7am. March games from 8am to 1pm. Lunch with Jeremy, Fiona, Joan and Weeyang till 2pm. Went to support Joan's Pilot pen match with the Tampines Sec girl at ACS. Saw two seniors, now in Innova. Headed home on bus from 5 plus onwards. Reached home at 7pm. 11 hours out.

Tuesday. Woke up at 7am. English lessons from 8am to 10.30am. Had breakfast with Priscilla till 11am. Headed home, reached at 12pm. Nap for two hours. Met Fiona at 2.40pm, Spkiy at 3pm. Sakae treat from Spiky from 3.30pm to 5.30pm. Watched Dorm at Yishun GV from 7pm to 9pm. Headed home. Reached at 10pm. 12 hours out.

Wednesday. Woke up at 7am. March games from 8am to 1pm. Lunch with Joan, Haobo, Aaron, Anson, Jiaru till 1 plus. Went Grassroots with gang without Jiaru, plus Chunying till 5pm. Bowled two games, watched them played pool. Headed home, reached at 7pm. 11 hours out.

Thursday. Woke up at 9.30am. Met Haobo, Joan and Aaron at Ang Mo Kio MRT at 12.30pm. Took 73 to Jiahao's house, meeting up with Anson and Chloe. Went SGCC, supposedly to bowl. Had lunch, Void's treat! Bowling lanes all booked. They went bowling at 3.30pm. I went to school at 3.30pm. Reached school at 4.30pm. Handed in English file, waited one and a half hours for SSSF. Some dumb leadership camp. Took 265, then 88 to Pasir Ris. Met Waiwan at 7.30pm (He waited for one hour... Sorry!) Had mocha, chatted, till 8.30pm. Took 358 to chalet, reached 9pm. Lots of laughter for two hours. Hardly anybody there. Cabbed to Woodlands with Fiona and Dua Tao. Overshot one stop in 962, had to walk long long way. Reached home 12am. Out 14 hours.

Woah! Not done any homework! Friday and Saturday is going to be busy too. I've Sunday left? Who wants more homework to do? Find me!!

Sorry to be blogging in chopped sentences. I'm tired mah! Haha. Got to sleep! Bye! :D

Monday, March 13, 2006
♥ The burnt charsiew with mustard running on a beach

To Fiona, please skip this entry. Please please please please skip this entry. I'm blogging about the running burnt charsiew with mustard. Skip this entry NOW. Okay fine, I know, this will only make you want to read on more. But then, I must also warn, RUTH! If you're reading this now, please finish whatever you're drinking and keep all drinks 2km away from you before you continue reading the entry!! HAHA!

To Jiaru, this is the picture of the running burnt charsiew with mustard I've successfully found. Oh my god. Never make me do this again. I did a search on Google and many results came out. I click on the first one, and it showed not one, not two, not three, but eleven pictures of that running burnt charsiew with mustard. OH MY GOD. And I haven't gone to bed. I'm getting nightmares this time, for SURE.

Oh my god... I can't believe I'm going to do this. This is ALL for Jiaru. Jiaru, this is to let you better understand what I meant by the burnt charsiew with mustard running on the beach. And to all others, if you haven't already watched Big Momma's House 2, I advice you not to see the picture below. I know it's supposed to be a comedy, and the picture below depicts nothing like a comedy. More like a horror show, in fact. But I swear that picture was a scene off the show. And if after seeing the picture, you have to change your plans this Saturday about going to watch Big Momma's House 2, I'm very sorry. Like I said, the show's very nice. You just have to cover your eyes in that scene...

Okay. Are you ready? Okay wait wait. Before we start, have you worn your safety goggles? Yes? Okay... WAIT WAIT! Are the St. John's people ready? Okay fine, not like they're of much use. Erm erm. Wait wait. I'm still not mentally prepared yet... Are you? Mentally prepared enough? Come on, calm yourself down... Eh, it's me that needs calming down. Haha. Take a deep breath... And here we go...























For a bigger, clearer, scarier, more disturbing, more disgusting view, click Here

I doubt anyone will want to view it in full size. I shall not hold responsible for the following things:

1. Ruth for spitting out the 1 litre of fruit juice in her mouth.
2. Fiona for dying of laughter in front of her com.
3. Jiaru for the great disappointment that the running burnt charsiew with mustard is NOTHING CUTE.
4. Anyone else reading this who has just sworn never to watch Big Momma's House 2.
5. Anyone else reading this who has just sworn never to visit my blog again.

I'm sincerely sorry for posting this entry. I know I've just done the most sinful thing ever in my life. Sorry to everybody! :(

My. That picture is going to be on the main page for the next 7 entries. I must blog as much as possible!! To rid that out of my blog! Jiaru! See lah! This is to show you the running burnt charsiew with mustard is not cute!

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March games. HAIZ. Nevermind! I kind of enjoyed the 4/1's class spirit today. We may have lost the games, but we won the spirit! :D And there is class spirit in 4/1. I'm not saying this just because I'm the chairman, really. In fact, I'm beginning to think Haobo's not that irritating afterall. If he's quieter, he can be quite nice. And today's March games is where people scream and shout and cheer for the class. So Haobo was nice and being himself today! Haha. :D I actually spoke nice of him in front of Joan. Lol.

Bye! And have a nice day! :D

Sunday, March 12, 2006
♥ Movie! :D

It's holidays!!

Okay, not really lah. It's just one week without lessons. But there's still n number of homework for us to complete in one pathetic week. I've all those Emaths and Amaths test papers to complete. (I haven't done a single one ever since the first time she gave out those papers.) And I've lost count how many already. And then there's Differentiation (8), Differentiation (9), Differentiation (13) and many many many more differentiation worksheets. Haha. Plus the online assignment. Okay, that's all for Maths.

I'm not going into the other subjects. :(

Yesterday. Met Fiona at Admiralty MRT station, and the rest, Jenna, Jaslyn, at Orchard MRT station. Joan was being herself, late. So the 4 of us went for lunch first. Saw Gordon (the stone) from OBS. Joan had no idea where Food Republic is. And she has difficulty finding her way from Orchard MRT to Wisma. HAHA. So we went to Orchard MRT station to fetch her. That tootface.

And then we walked all the way to Cine. Bought tickets for Big Momma's House 2. We had 45 minutes to slack away, so we went to take neoprints. But tootface die also don't want to get into the neoprint machine. She says she's taken it once before with Perlin and gang, and she "doesn't like the feeling of taking neoprints". -_- Tootface.

We took once, forgot to choose the neoprints before coming out of the machine, and ended up with 42 screwed ones. (We chose 42 so that the neoprints will be the smallest...) Wanted to throw them away but Jaslyn thinks it's too much of a waste. So she kept it. -_- Took again. It was 3pm sharp when we entered the cinema.

The show's bloody funny. Hahahaha. And I didn't get nightmares of burnt charsiew with mustard. HAHAHAHA. That scene on the beach with the burnt charsiew running around was so funny lah! Haha. But I can't bring myself to watch it, it's the scariest thing I've ever seen in the cinema.

The time was still early after the show. About 4.50pm. Went Heeren, Jaslyn was searching for a birthday pencilcase. Great honour okay. This is the second time tootface has ever stepped into Heeren. The first was with Perlin they all. And I video-ed Joan walking into Heeren for the second time in her life. Hahaha.

Found no pencilcase that Kingkong liked. Walked around abit more. Then Joan had to go. So we walked to Somerset MRT station (Joan doesn't know how to walk there...) and took train home. Alighted at Sembawang with Fiona where she had her dinner and we successfully pian one Sakae each from Spiky. And then we went to Sembawang library to borrow some books. Took 962 home with Fiona. Reached home at 8pm. End of the day! :D

Ruth and Charmaine couldn't come because they were busy. :( Lol. Nevermind. There's always a next time.

Tomorrow's the day! Haha. I don't know why I'm so excited over March games. Must be the $49. 4/1 spent a total of $49 on all the games okay! Haha. And our captain's ball game! Must win the cocky 5/1!! :D

Bye! :D

Thursday, March 09, 2006
♥ Look up

I am so dumb.

I saw "Look up" in Ankita's MSN nick, and I looked up. Stop laughing moron.

Update another time. I don't feel like blogging. Haha.

Sunday, March 05, 2006
♥ huanhuanpiaoluodefengyexiangsinian

Friday, Badminton outing. Absentess, two, Ruth and Charmaine. Extras, one, Falalalaface Hahaha.

Can just summarise that day. Been really fun lah. :D Haha. Although the badminton dinner turns out to be left with 4 people. Hahaha. But bowling with them was fun, so damn funny! Soonkiat can't bowl! =X Haha. But I'm his standard too. LOL.

Saturday, flag day. Started off so high and enthu. And then a auntie spoilt my mood in the MRT. Walao! Weixin was holding onto Gillian, Gillian was holding onto me, and I was holding onto the pole. And then the train jerked forward and I steadied myself. Then that auntie who was standing THREE STEPS away from me turned and scolded me! SO DUMB RIGHT. She said I was trying to play in the train! AUNTIE! YOU STAND SO FAR YOU THINK I CAN FALL ON YOU MEH?! -_- DUMB AUNTIE.

Then comes the can-not-heavy-cannot-submit-can crap! So crap can! I was so pissed off I just grabbed the stickers and turned away with a loud Fuck.

Been sleeping the whole of today. Really, whole. I woke up only to eat breakfast, dinner, and bathe. And now I can't fall asleep. Haha. I haven't touched my homework. =P

Zhi sheng hui sa bu qu de nan guo

Friday, March 03, 2006
♥ Sandy

COUGHS. (literally)

Badminton outing today! :D

Been fun, although f.face was there, but he left early, and his waterbottle ended up in the bin. Which makes up for any other unhappy things that happened today. Haha.

But Friday, haiz. I'll blog about the outing tomorrow, because Saturdays are nicer than Fridays. No matter what Sokmui says.

Sandy: Why? I love Fridays! I always love Fridays!

Me: That's because you're dumb, stupid, brainless and Sandy.

Sandy: Don't be so mean. :(

Me: *grabs Sandy by neck and flings her out of window*

Sandy: This is the 2461356173856th time you've attempted to kill me! And just to disturb you again and to irritate you again and to annoy you again, I've to remind you that as your imaginery friend, I can never die! One alternative will be, however, to send me to Paraguay because I've been dying to go there again. Another alternative will be to send me to Uruguay. The third alternative, one which I strongly discourage, is to rename me Ali.

Me: I choose the third option.

Sandy: Is that your final answer?

Me: Yes.

Sandy: Eh hey. Don't let you choose.

Me: Ali.

Ali: I HATE YOU!

Muahahahahaha. Okay. Stop being retard. I've to wake up extremely early tomorrow at 5am. I'm doing Differentiation with Weixin and Gillian at AMK Macs at 6.30am. I know I'm crazy. LOL. Bye!

Thursday, March 02, 2006
♥ Think too much

Blasting Feng.

I'm getting one of those thinking-too-much brain waves again. Those type where I just sit in one dark corner and can't stop thinking about everything under the sun, from flag poles to Geography to Differentiation to Sandy to why to how to this to that and then I get headaches from thinking too much and then I finally fall asleep.

-_-

I've done the talk about have you ever wondered how your life will be like 10 years from now, remember? The blah blah blah crap that I typed an entry about some time back, about how we see ourselves 10 years from now and how true that can actually become? About how we always talk about different routes to take in the future but when the time really comes, none of us will actually take that route, even if we're given the chance? Haha, yah.

But, what about your life tomorrow?

You'll know what lessons there are tomorrow. You'll roughly know what's up tomorrow, you'll know what tests you have, what activities you have after school, whether you're going for a movie, what movie you're going to watch etc etc. Some of these may come true, some of these may not. But roughly, roughly you know what you're going to do.

But why is it that I never have a clue about how I'm going to feel about tomorrow?

Okay wait. Tomorrow is Friday. Oh, I know how I'm going to feel. -_-

Okay, that's beside the point. No matter how sure I am that tomorrow is still going to be fucked up, since it's a Friday, I'll still choose to start the day fresh and happy because I STILL believe that whether a day is beautiful or not depends on how you want to look at it. Yes, I know I'm dumb to still believe that after so many damned Fridays I've had. And I still believe that in my whole life, there has to be ONE Friday which is not as bad as the others. And that Friday might be tomorrow, who knows?

And then I wonder how fortune tellers work. I've been to a fortune teller once. Primary 6, with a friend. Lol. I paid $5 for one sentence which is obvious but I didn't want to believe, and left the place because my friend dragged me away. -_- Fortune tellers are interesting huh. But how do they work?? Who taught them to read palms and tell futures? Who taught the person who taught the fortune teller how to read palms and tell futures? And so on and so on and so on. Who was the first person who found out how to tell fortunes? Weird huh.

Anyway, why have your fortune told? For fun? To see if he's accurate? To know, roughly, what your life is going to be like? For what? If he's really so accurate, and your life is going to be like that, then what for have it told and then you can't do anything about it?

Why do we always have to care about what's going to happen tomorrow? Just like right now, I suddenly recalled I have a Literature test tomorrow which the rest of the class has taken last Friday. And I'm thinking, I remembered close to nothing about TET. But, why should I care?

Shouldn't tomorrow be left for tomorrow? Why do we always have to be prepared? Will what we are preparing for always come? Are we preparing because we have to be prepared for anything that comes our way? Why do we have to be prepared for something we don't even know will occur for sure? Why are we preparing our thermometers when we do not know for sure if the Bird Flu will hit Singapore? Because, if it does, then we won't panic? But that's "if it does", what "if it doesn't"?

Better to be safe than sorry? The best we can do to prepare for the worst?

But, why?

Why care to care about things you won't know for sure? If no one invented the word "if", will people still care? Trying forming a sentence about something that might happen and its consequence without the words "if", "might", "may", "whether" and it sounds like it may or may not happen. Impossible, right? So if no one invented those words, we wouldn't care, will we?

...

No headache yet. Wow.

Alright. I'm not going to type more. It's so crappy that I think your screen has started walking sideways. HAHAHAHA.

This Saturday flag day! Anyway, do you realise most flag day's flags (the stickers) are round? Almost all that I've come across are round leh. Why arh. No one creative enough to print square or triangle stickers meh. LOL. Think too much. =/

Bye! :D (And congrats for having survived that long a crap.)

♥ BORING

Nothing much happened these few days. Just usual school, teachers, homework, extra lessons, blah blah blah, don't even have CCA these days. I really don't know how to spend all these extra time. Seriously.

I missed school on Tuesday because my fever came back when I reached school that morning. So I took a cab home. I got into the cab, told the driver Woodlands Dr 16, and he drove me into Woodgrove Sec, which is just next to my block. -_- I was asleep mah, and when he woke me up I was in the school's carpark with people lining up just beside the cab. So malu lah! LOL.

Wednesday. Boring day. Tuitioned Spiky Chinese after school. Almost vomitted blood. He takes 30 minutes to read a short passage. Two short passages take an hour. An hour means one ice cream. Easy earn huh. NO LAR. Tuitioning him is like reading the passage for him without the simple words like ni wo ta which he can read. His Chinese is worse than Aaron's. Can you believe it, worse than Aaron's. He can't even read sui ran. LOL.

Today. Lessons till 4pm. Went home at 5pm with Zhiwei, Fiona and _____. Lol. (_____ is Weihao's nick.) Zhiwei took train from the other direction. I don't feel left out, lah. Just feel damn extra. Lol. (And seriously, Weihao is the best-behaved Weihao I've ever seen in front of Fiona...) Haha.

AYE. VERY BORING. AND JOAN. STOP SAYING I'M SMART. REALLY IS YOU TOOT. Hahaha! =P Even the Sec2s badminton juniors know she's tootface. Hahaha!

Bye! :)