Tuesday, October 31, 2006
♥ At least she's truthful

Ah hello. Stopped watching Goong at Episode 20 (total 23 episodes on Youtube), because there are no more episodes with English subtitles. :( Nevermind, my brother saw me watching Goong last night and he said he actually had the VCDs, just that they're with his friend, and I asked him to get it back from his friend. So yay. (:

Anyway, it's another paper down, so FOURTEEN more papers to go. :)

Intended to study in school after Chem prac with Chunying today. But somehow we decided to come over to my house to watch Goong a little then study. Haha. We would have gone on and watched more if not because we ran out of episodes to watch. Lol. So yah, did abit abit of AMaths and watched Yu Le Bai Fen Bai on Channel U. Then Chunying headed home and I feel like blogging so here I am. -_-

Uhhhhhhhhhhhh. Okay, actually I thought of lots to say, but right now, I just got reminded of something and perhaps I shouldn't do it that blatantly. Tsk. Nothing much, so maybe I should just forget about it.

Going school has been weird for the past two days because there's no flag raising and the school's empty except for the Sec4s coming back for Onana. And also because suddenly everything just feels weirder than before. Maybe it's just me feeling like usual, weird. Ah nevermind.

Graduating from Sec four soon huh. Maybe I'm growing up. Ah shut up Chunying, don't argue. Obviously I'm not 3 years old, stop saying I can't play the Egg-flip because it's for Ages 4+. Haha. Anyway, I was saying maybe I'm growing up. Yah, and when you grow up you have to put up with things that you don't usually put up with just for the sake of it. (Okay, other than Haobo...) Like, when you can't stand someone or something someone did, you just appear okay with it so that he or she won't feel that you're being rude or anything. Just, just, just for the sake of it.

Even when you don't feel like being friends with somebody, even when somebody has done things that you can't stand abit, even when you're bitching about somebody behind their back almost every other moment, you still appear to be friends in front of that person. Yah, that was what I'm talking about.

And sometimes the person may not even know you dislike him. He may go off thinking that they're great friends with you and that you rock the socks out of their lives but actually, actually, everything's so broken up inside. Actually you hate him to the core, but for some reasons, which I'm still considering what, you just don't want to appear to be so.

I don't know what exactly is that called. Back in Primary Four, when something like that happens, even when the bitching is just about saying her hair is ugly, or her last finger is too dark, we'll flare up right away. Because back then, friends aren't supposed to talk bad about you. Friends aren't supposed to speak ill of you behind your back. And friends are supposed to be your best buddies, and best buddies don't act differently when they're not with you.

But right now, no. The people I used to call Two-facers are everywhere. And yet I don't know what to term them now. There are people who told me not to meddle with these stuff because it's how they choose to lead their lives, and just so long as we don't join in, things will subside and things will turn out just fine.

Perhaps as you're reading this now, you're wondering if I'm talking about you. If you aren't sure, ask yourself Why not. And if you can find a reason why you're not a hypocrite by nature, then you're not. If you can't find any reason for that, maybe you are, or maybe you just don't have a brain, or maybe you just aren't thinking.

Uh oh. I guess publishing this entry would mean I'm meddling in these stuff huh. Why don't I feel like caring. Even when the stuff I'm talking about is more than one, two or even three seperate matters. I'm not going to care what you're going to say behind me because trust me, I already know what you're saying. Yes, I don't need you to tell me what you've been saying because I know. I know all so well. Just from the way you react to things. I know already what you're thinking, and what you're going to say to him/her/whoever.

I'm not thinking too much. I know your negative feelings all too well. But if I'm going to spell it out it's going to spoil everything. Even the friendship that's not so friendshipy actually. Guess I'm still childish, stuck at the Primary Four thinking that if you're going to be my friend, you've got to be the best buddy and won't pretend in front of me just. For. The. Sake. Of. It.

I'm sick of people bitching to me about people, then turn around and talk and laugh and joke with the same person they just bitched about 2.70 seconds ago. I feel like walking up to them and remind the person what she's just said. Simply, I still feel that, if you don't like the person, let him or her know. Don't let him or her be an idiot, telling your more things and being him or herself in front of you, only to create more topics for you to bitch about him or her.

In many of these, I still feel neutral regarding the stand to take. Unless you've a great reason why you can't just tell him or her off straight, then that I can understand. There're such instances and I would have done the same thing.

I'll rather you come straight to me and tell me what's your problem with me than to go on and on behind my back, where I can't speak up for myself. Or at least, at the very least, don't go on pretending to be friends with me and let me be the idiot. Show that you're not happy and I'll scram. Really, I've better things to do than to waste my energy thinking what you're thinking.

And there's no such thing as I'm-your-friend-but-I-just-can't-stand-you-this-minute, so-I've-to-bitch-about-you-to-let-off-some-steam. Show that you're not happy alright. Go on like this and you'll end up with no friends. No true friends at least. Because those friends you have talk about you behind you too. It's just that you don't know about it. And too many times you've been the idiot around, and yet you're totally clueless. Think about it.

No need to read between the lines, there're no lines to read. Sometimes I don't know why everything's so obvious right in front of our eyes and we fail to notice it. It's like, right there, and either we choose not to see it, or we're just plain stupid.

If you're thinking, "God, she's talking about me, ah whatever. Not like she has the right to care." Yeah, I'm talking about you. Yes, YOU. The one thinking you don't have to bother what I think because at the most you just have one friend less. I'm telling you now, carry on thinking like this and you'll have no friends in the end.

Be true to others alright, and be true to yourself. That's all I wanted to say.

Jiayou for the rest of the papers. :)

Gone for dinner.

Monday, October 30, 2006
♥ Killing the com that's never alive

Whatever's wrong with the com or Youtube. Everything loads like per normal just now, and then just suddenly Youtube refuses to load. :( So I restarted the com but it's still like that, only on Youtube. Blogger's loading perfectly well. Ah damn Youtube is depriving me of Goong.

Uh, anyway, HMT today. FIFTEEN more papers to go. Yay yay yay.

Okay. So I'll go on blogging until something comes up at the Youtube browsers. But I don't really know what to blog about because I feel like watching Goong. -_-

Uh, so today I got scared by a piece of tissue paper flying across the floor. Uhhhh. Sorry, I can't think of anything right now. Yah, I got scared by a piece of tissue paper, the way I got scared by the big Mickey Mouse balloon and the way I got scared by my house's standing fan. Stop laughing, moron. It's those "Woah!" kind of scared, just for a moment or some moments, not those that I'll go running "WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" from the thing. Uh huh, I don't make sense. Nevermind.

Youtube is still not loading. I feel like killing the com that's never alive. Er, that phrase sounds so familiar. I think I said something about feeling like killing the table that's never alive during a AMaths test, and then you get sued by the table anyway, and you end up in jail. Yah, something like that. And then you go mad in jail because you don't believe you can be jailed because of trying to kill the table that's never alive, so you end up in the mental hospital. And then you're surrounded by imaginary AMaths papers that say DO ME PLEASE I BEG YOU. And you go crazier because you can't do AMaths for nuts.

Haaaaaaaaaaa. Yah, I can still remember what I blogged.

Ahhh. Youtube's not loading on Firefox. Youtube's not loading on IE. Youtube better load because I'm really going to kill the com that's never alive. And I'm going to be sued by the com anyway, and then I'll sue Youtube which is actually in the com. So basically the com's sueing me and I'm sueing the com. Which doesn't make sense because you can't sue someone, or something, because he or she or it is sueing you. Yah, anyway, nothing I said makes sense from the part of killing the com that's never alive. So, aren't you glad you just wasted your time again.

Yah, why are you bothering yourself reading my blog. You must be really dumb.

Okay, I find joy in scolding people whom I imagine are there dumb. So, hello dumb. Woooooo. I feel high after scolding you dumb. So high that I feel like killing the com that's never alive.

Great. IE loaded Youtube. Loaded. The. Freaking. Title. Of the browser. Yah, so the page's still blank, and I'm awarded the honour of imagining what's going to appear in that white space. Wheee, so fun.

Okay, now I really feel like an idiot. After that long a time, all the browsers are only going to show the "Page can't be loaded" thing. And I'm going to get so fed up I'm going to feel like killing the com that's never alive. Alright, I think I should stop going on and on about the killing the com that's never alive thing. It's getting to sound not so funny. And I want to blog funny. So I shall tell you a funny joke. Not just a joke. A joke is a funny story. I'm going to tell you a funny joke. So that's a funny funny story. So funny right. I know you agree. Nod your head alright, righhhhttt. I can see you nodding your head. So here goes, the funny joke:

Youtube's still not loading----- No that's not the joke. I'm just trying to be funny. I've to be funny first to tell a funny joke. So now I'm done with being funny, I shall tell you the joke.

Once there was a little yellow bird that goes round telling people it feels like killing the com that's never alive. And then one day a person asks the little yellow bird, "Why are you a little yellow bird and not some big blue bear (alliteration!)?" The little yellow bird replied, "Yah, that's exactly what I'm wondering too, I wonder why the person who created this joke named me, the main character as a little yellow bird and not some big blue bear!" So this little yellow bird came to me and ask me, "Why did you choose me to become a little yellow bird and not some big blue bear?" And guess what I replied!

You thought I aren't going to tell you? Nah! I'm going to tell you! Isn't that just wayyyyy surprising!! Are you ready? Here it goes!

...

Why!! Did you think I'm going to say "Eh hey, don't tell you!!"? How could you have that little trust in me! :'( I'm so sad I feel like killing the com that's never alive. Hahahahahahha. Okay, anyway, I'm going to tell you what I told the little yellow bird okay. I'm not that mean. I'll tell you what I told the little yellow bird. Just have more faith in me alright? (I know you don't, but ah nevermind...)

I told the little yellow bird, "Because the big blue bear won't feel like killing the com that's never alive. Duh." And the little yellow bird felt so stupid because it didn't realise this fact earlier. And it became so depressed it really felt like killing the com that's never alive. So it did, and you know what happened after that (refer above). So yada yada. This is a joke because I'm hala-ing you since there's no little yellow bird that feels like killing the com that's never alive nor some big blue bear that doesn't feel like killing the com that's never alive too.

Okay, now I'm downloading Goong. =/

Bye bye.

Sunday, October 29, 2006
♥ Still goonging

Ah I'm so hooked onto Goong. Have been watching it on Youtube since 2++, which is 4 hours ago, when Chunying was still over at my house. And she got distracted from the table of books and we started watching it together, supposedly to stop watching at 3.30pm and go back to studying, but 3.30pm became 4pm, and 4pm became 5pm and now it's 6pm already. Ah I should kill myself.

Uhhh. Wanted to blog this morning but Firefox screwed up in my com and I can't open a browser just when I want to go to Blogger. Haa. And I had really been studying. Been fruitful yesterday when Chunying was at my house as well. Studied loads, and this morning too, until I on the com and went to Youtube. Tsk.

Haha. Back to com. Onana's tomorrow! I can't wait!!! Let's get it over and done with! :D

Bring it on! :D I can't wait to throw give all the books away to dearest Fiona aka Toa Payoh goggles muaha girl! Hahahaha. :D

Thanks for all the good lucks for the Onana, I'll do well! (I hope)

:D

Uh, back to Goong. Just till 7pm. XD

Thursday, October 26, 2006
♥ Goonging

Ah shit. I'm hooked onto Goong. That Korean show on Channel U 7pm. I watched 3 episodes of it and now I'm hooked. And when I'm hooked onto shows I finish watching them on Youtube within record time, the way I did for Initial D anime. Initial D anime was of 4 stages, average of 13 episodes per stage, and I finished everything in a week.

BUT IT'S ONANA NOW. AH.

Uh huh. Just one episode won't hurt huh?

Blame the com man. Why must it be so not-lag. Otherwise I would get tired of waiting for it to load. =/ Alright, two episodes, then I'll go to bed and then school to study tomorrow. I won't come home and get tempted by the com. :D

:D

Bye! 17 papers to go, I think. Counted during Physics Practical today. Was so bored I made a mini snowman out of the Blu-tack. I wonder which suay-kia from 4/3 or 4/5 got my seat. Hahahaha. ALL THE BEST PEOPLE!! :D

Going... going... goong. HAHA. Uh, sorry.

Monday, October 23, 2006
♥ Purest of Pain

Now playing: Purest of Pain --- Son of Four

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice

I know how many times I said I'm gonna live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Cariño mío, my world becomes so empty
my days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Cariño mío, my world becomes so empty
my days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
Cariño mío, my world becomes so empty
my days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice

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Vida means "life" and Cariño mío means "My affection" in Spanish. Wait for the song to load. Took me ages to find this damn song.

Home an hour ago from gillian's house. Slept over, with Chunying, Gjiahao, Spiky and Eh-ren. Studied more than I would if I've been at home. Function room's pretty good for studying. Like gillian's light teddy bear given by some China girl. Slept a couple of hours. Gjiahao, Spiky and Eh-ren helped to cook Campbell soup which gillian and I drank. Was salty and gillian insist that if electrolysis is carried out, we'll get chlorine gas. Haa.

Woo I can't wait for Onana to come, and go. Haha. I can't wait to give those books away.

By the way, this morning I had breakfast with my parents and sister at the hawker centre along Ang Mo Kio St 22, Blk 226. My mother, sister and I had noodles from this stall called Hock Lee Noodles or something like that. So we had wanton noodles and it sucks so much so much. It costs $3, which is considered expensive for noodles at hawker centres. But that's not the point. The point is the food sucks. There's not one, not two, but three ants in my soup.

If it's been one ant, maybe I can argue that the ant crawled in accidentally and drowned itself. But no, there's three, and it's not because ants are especially attracted to my bowl of soup because there's two in my sister's bowl and four in my mother's. So we complained to the auntie at the shop. And guess what she said.

"Nevermind one lah. Eat a few ants also won't die right."

!!!

THEY GOT AN A AT THE SHOPFRONT. THE BLUE PIECE OF PAPER SAYING THIS SHOP IS CLEAN. AND THE AUNTIE WANTS US TO DRINK ANTS.

So we stopped eating the noodles, after my mother took a bite at the vege and said that it's uncooked. I look at the noodles and I felt like puking. How can they allow ants to swim in the soup?!

We paid $9 for three bowls of wanton noodles. Which we didn't eat. But today's Monday and most of the shops aren't open. So we ate otah for breakfast. -_- While my father happily ate his noodles bought from another shop. All 3 of us hated that kind of noodles lah, so we didn't opt for it.

Uh, so remember not to eat from that shop. And yes, I still remember, do not order a cake from Four Leaves. Lol.

Today's Monday! Don't you feel happier than other days? The sky's clearer, the roads are cleaner, the air fresher and you don't have to wait for the lift today. Today's a happy day because, because, because it's a day nearer to whatever you're waiting for! Woooooooo.

Anyway, Fiona, I'm not crazy. -_- I'm not over stressed from studying because I can't be since I'm not really studying anyway. Lol. Sakae on Wednesday. :D

Should get some sleep. I miss Bed. I want to go Disneyland. And I hope Monday never ends.

Enjoy your Monday, and we can always pretend Tuesday is Monday in disguise, and Wednesday is actually Monday by character, and Thursday is considering for a surgery to transform into Monday, and Friday is the big bad day that is conquered by Monday eventually, and Saturday is only two days away from Monday, and that Sunday is very very close to Monday. Now don't the week seem so much better ahead.

And while you're tearing yourself apart because you can't understand Chemistry for nuts, you may want to try this.

CLICK

Lol. Okay I was saying about getting sleep. So why am I still here. Promise not to blog/come online/ play imaginary games/ play with Sandy/ stone anymore. I'll try my best to study, and stop thinking about what movies to watch.

OH OH. I wanted to watch Death Note anime on YouTube. Yay! =X Just 3 episodes will do. :D Be back later.

>>>>>>>>

Only have until Episode 3 so far. :( And I already watched Episodes 1 and 2 on Spiky's Mp4. Lol. I want watch the anime! Much nicer than the movie, really. Guy acting as Light in the movie is so not Light. The anime one is so so much better. Haven't seen L anime yet. Ahh.

Yawn. Okay. Sleep! :D

Saturday, October 21, 2006
♥ PINKY DINKY DOO

Hello. I'm here just to say Hello. Because I don't really have anything in mind that I can blog about.

I dreamt of gowns last night. Must be all the gown seeing. I dreamt of gowns floating in mid air and gowns forcing me to try them on. Then I dreamt of one huge black gown calling all the gowns to assemble in the gown hall. And then the huge black gown talked to the rest of the gowns, and it said something about evolving the world into a gown.

My god. What sort of dream is that. Why can't I dream of something like, a huge Jay and many mini Jays and saying something about evolving the world into one whole Jay. Then I'll never want to wake up. :D

Uh huh. Why don't you suggest something for me to update on. Like, "Hey, blog about the last time you went scuba-diving and a sea elephant took hostage of you!" or "Hey, blog about the pink giraffe you painted in the colouring book and came alive!" or something along that line.



By the way, PINKY DINKY DOO TOTALLY ROCKS OKAY. Screened every Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday at 9.30am on Kids Central. It rocks really. Watch it once and you'll die laughing on the floor. At least that was what happened for me. It rocks almost as much as Spongebob okay. I wish I can show you the funniest episode I watched but there's no results on YouTube under Pinky Dinky Doo. :(

"If I had a problem
Don't know which way to go
I think and think and think and think
And suddenly I know"

IT'S SO CUTE LAH.

And then there are games after each story (two stories per episode). Which are so easy to play but the main thing is to see how retarded Pinky's brother look when he say Yay.

CLICK

:D:D

Okay that's all. Bye.

Thursday, October 19, 2006
♥ Hello

Meigui says she can't be bothered to blog anymore, because she doesn't like the name Lonehearter anymore. She says she likes the name Heartloner more. So she's moved to Heartloner.blogspot.com, and she's given Lonehearter to me, her best friend, but I shall not disclose my identity yet. I'll keep you guessing and tell you in the next post, or the next next post, or the next next next post. I know you're curious, but sadly, this is what she wanted me to do. To keep you all guessing my real identity.

Actually, I think it's rather obvious who I really am. But she said you are dumb, so I need not worry. I shall be nice though, I'll continue blogging so that you'll have some clue who I really am. But I can only tell you who I am tomorrow, so you can check back for a new post tomorrow.

Oh, by the way, Heartloner.blogspot.com is not set up yet, because Meigui says she's lazy to create a new blogsite and do up the template and everything else, and that besides, no one will bother to read it now that it's nearing Onana (her word for O'Levels). But she said she'll get someone to help her create that blogsite and that if she's bored or not feeling so lazy she might go there to publish a post "once in an orange moon". I'll let you know when there's such a site.

Meigui says I'm blogging too dryly. And that I should include some jokes in my blogpost. But I'm a really boring person who doesn't know how to joke at all. So now she's telling me a joke so that I can post it here.

The joke goes like this:

One day, the brocolli said to the carrot, "Hello carrot." and the carrot replied, "Hello brocolli."

Yes, that's the joke. I don't see why it's so funny but she's laughing like mad right now. She says I don't know how to appreciate such a funny joke. But I really really don't get why it should be funny. So I've decided to come up with a better joke myself.

One day, the cat said to the dog "Hello doggy." and the dog replied, "Hello Kitty."

Now at least that's funnier. I know you agree with me, come on, laugh.

Alright, this is getting retarded. Why should I have a blog in the first place.























































Imaginary friends are not supposed to know how to blog. Oops, I just told you who I am. And Meigui just slapped me. And she says she's taking Lonehearter back from me, because I belong to the beach. Yes, I'm Sandy.

I've had enough of this. I'm putting myself up for adoption. Will any kind soul take me away from the big bad monster MEIGUI?

... That was retarded. I mean, very retarded. Must be the AMaths, MUST BE. WHAT HAS AMATHS DONE TO ME?!!!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006
♥ The headache

Don't really know why I'm here. Ah, here to blog so that you have something to read. I feel happy when I see updated blogs, lol.

So, this is an update. I can sense your joy from here, really. I know you're so happy to see an update.

Actually, today sucks due to 701 reasons. I don't know what are the 700 reasons but I think I know the last one. The bloody headache. Just. Won't. Go. Away. I can't even go to sleep. I'm super sleepy you know, this is really killing me. Tsk.

Alright. So much for the update. Ah Lian says my entries are too long, so I've to keep it as short as me. Eh no, that's not a good metaphor. As short as Hanhui then. I'm freaking 180cm tall. (Yes I'm being delusional so shut up because I can imagine myself killing you.)

Sometimes when I look out of the window at 9th storey, I wonder if the ground I'm seeing is considered 1st floor or should I take my height into consideration. But since I'm so short, no wait, I'm 180cm tall. Alright then, I should take my height into consideration. So whenever I'm looking out of the window at 9th storey, I'm actually looking down ten floors to the ground. Haa.

I'm 180cm tall. I'm 180cm tall. They say if you keep thinking about yourself being somebody, you'll become that somebody eventually. So why is it that I keep thinking I'm 180cm tall but I'm still... 179.999999cm tall only. Where did that 0.000001cm go. Forget it man, since I'm already so tall I'll be nice and donate that 0.000001cm to Hanhui.

Alright, I'm back. At 157cm. There's a drastic drop isn't it. It's like turning from 10th storey to 9th storey. Sobs. Oh wait, I think I'm at 2nd storey only.

... Nevermind. There's always Jiahao remaining at Basement Level.

Yawn. I'll try to catch some sleep. Tell sleep not to run so fast. I never seem to be able to run fast enough to catch it. Haaaaaaaaa. Not funny. This post is so metallic-blue. I ran out of adjectives, lah. Don't give me that look.

By the way, I still want a chauffeur for my birthday.

Bye, and while you're mugging hard for Onana, please bear in mind not to order a cake from Four Leaves. Thank you.

Crap. Why did I say thank you for? Ahhhh. Blame the headache. It's making me 2.44% more retarded. SLEEP.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006
♥ Casual Friday Tsk

Dan wo jian yi ni xie ma ma wo hui yong gong du shu
Yong gong du shu zhen me hui chong wo zui ba shou chu
Bu xiang ni shu Shuo yi jiao ni yong gong du shu

Hello, I'm back again. I'm here to blog because suddenly there seems like nothing else I can do at home, except staring at this computer. Yes, I should be studying but uh huh, I'm taking a break from... from... my imaginary mugging. Haa. No lah, I'll study in school tomorrow. Uh huh, I say that because I know tomorrow never comes. Haha.

By the way, I guess I've changed my mind about going SAJC for the first three months. Having gone there on the openhouse, I realise how ulu a place it is and how I'll start cursing and swearing everyday when I've to take bus home. I want a chauffeur for my birthday. Tsk.

So anyway, I've decided on Innova for the time being. But since I'm always so fickle-minded, I'll probably decide on some other JC again. But Innova's so near, lah. And I'm very tempted when gilian says go IJC for the first three months and join Bowling. Haha. Imagine having free bowling sessions, just for the fun. Woah. Yay yay yay. Besides, Woodlands is a nice place, haha. Causeway Point has everything. :D But the most important thing is still, taking less than 15 minutes to reach home everyday. Woooooo. Very tempting.

Really, I'm very sick of having to walk from school to MRT station, then taking MRT followed by bus and then walking home again. It takes me at least 50 minutes to reach home from school each day. And I'm super lazy, and the MRT's always so full that I can imagine it vomiting people. Yah, so if I continue whining about the pain of having to take public transport, it'll go and on and on and on and on and on and on and on, so much so that your com won't be able to take it and auto-shutdown.

Ah, and I almost forgot, another reason why I hate MRTs so much is because I'VE SEEN A WORM ON MRT BEFORE. Tssssk. That super scary incident when Fiona and I were on train. I totally stunned there when the man (?) swept that that that that that THAT onto the floor. And I watched it crawl towards me... towards... towards me... And I couldn't move at all, until Fiona came to my rescue and pulled me away.

And that THAT was not one of those usual looking ones that I usually scream at. It's far more disgusting than the usual THAT. It's beige in colour. Can you imagine a beige worm. AH. And it's really a worm, and not a wormy millipede or anything. It's those WORMS that crawl by sliding their body upwards, forward, upwards, forward, upwards, forward... You know what I mean.

There's a disgusting worm on the MRT. Worm itself is defined as a "disgusting creature". So a disgusting worm is worse that a worm. It's a disgusting disgusting creature. That's twice as disgusting okay. So I hate MRT. I really really hate MRT.

I want to play 7 Hand Poker.

By the way, I realise how short my attention span is. Uh, so is my patience. I'm very impatient, I don't know why. Sometimes I think I'm very hard to please, but then sometimes some very small things can make me very happy. So I'm still confused because I don't know myself. Like sometimes I know I'm very ridiculous and I hope I'm a little less ridiculous, but yet I don't want to do anything about it.

Sidetrack. Fiona just told me Mrs Poh allows ankle socks. Casual Friday is back and starting from next year, they can make class teeshirts and wear them on Fridays. What the hell. I thought she so nice come say Hello to me. So is to show off lah. Kan ni na, stupid goggles girl. One day I'll make you wear a hot pink pair of kiddy goggles and take a picture of you and post it on Anderson portal. Muahaha.

Yawn. Sleep, eyebags are back.

Note to self. Bring Lit Elec and SS paper for Chunying. Bring gillian's polo tee. No more studying overnight, rest well. Feed the starving Jay.

Bye.

Jie guo wo mei le zhi jue Jiu lian tong dou xian lang fei

♥ Jay's MINE

Hello. I don't know what to blog about actually. Feels weird not having to go to school. Almost thought I was sick that's why I'm staying at home. But ah no, I'm in the final stage of preparing for Onana. Yada yada. No wonder no one's online. Everybody's either in school or busy chionging for the O thing.

By the way, if you haven't already seen, take a look at Tui Hou's MV.



Seriously, I can't understand how anyone can be so Shuai. He's so cute even when he's posing as an Ah Beng. Alright, this time gillian's really lucky. Jay's an Ah Beng in Tui Hou (she's Ah Lian) and Mickey Mouse appeared in Ting Ma Ma De Hua.



I totally love his songs! AND AND AND. How can I forget, BEN CAO GANG MU. Watch this okay. You've got to watch this, even if you hate Jay (then you shouldn't be here, get out), even if you don't understand what the hell he's singing, even if you're rushing for time to go catch a helicopter, YOU'VE GOT TO WATCH THIS. Just enjoy the visuals alright. It's really damn nice, trust me.



Alright, and there's still Bai Se Feng Che MV. But it's actually quite meaningless because it's one of those rare MVs where there's really nothing much into it. But anyway, you may want to watch it because you get to see Jay in 219872 different positions.



Ah. I feel like watching Ting Ma Ma De Hua again. The MV's so cute so cute. :D

Bye! :D

Sunday, October 15, 2006
♥ Happy birthday Ah Lian!

Uh huh. I'm back home after out eating dinner with my parents at Vista Point. It felt weird because it's 8++ at night and the people there are mainly ah bengs and lians who're drinking beer with their legs propped onto chairs.

Yah, so my father ordered food. We had claypot seafood meehoon, and my favourite hotplate tofu. And then because we didn't spend $20 and above, there's no free jug of lemon tea that we usually drink. So my father asked what I wanted to drink, and I said "Anything". Then he told the waitress "Anything". -_- Then the waitress asked if he wanted beer. So he said okay, and asked for three cups.

...

It didn't occur to him then that I'm his 16-year old daughter and I shouldn't be drinking beer, at least not in front of my parents.

-_-

So anyway, after the waitress left to get the order, I reminded my father of my age and that it'll make me look Ah-lianish to be drinking beer there, and that er, gillian's the Ah Lian, not me. No duh, I didn't say the last part. Lol, so my father asked for a straw. So that I will "look like I'm drinking gassy chrysathemum tea". And then I told him I didn't want to drink beer. So he gave me the just-drink-lah look and said I was the one who said Anything.

So I drank it. Half a cup, and I look like I'm going to collapse. Lol. It's not even wine. And it tasted so bitter I wouldn't have drank it if not because I'm awfully thirsty.

Oooooohhhh. 9.33FM! :D Hahaha. I'm so glad I didn't miss it. I finished dinner at 8.50pm, that's 20 minutes past the radio show. And YAY that I didn't miss it. :D

Uh, gillian and gang (sounds very very gillian, I mean, Ah Lian) are studying at Macs tonight again. I'm not going because I want to sleep. Haa. And anyway, I'm going school early tomorrow morning. After breakfast with my parents again. :D

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Sorry, I'll tell you why I laughed tomorrow. I didn't know I wrote THAT retarded stuff. Hahahahahahahaha.

But I may not be here tomorrow. So, before I forget.


- Get Your Own

Yay yay yay. I seriously think I'm drunk. MISSION COMPLETED. Can sleep already! :D

Ha. Bet you don't know what I'm talking about. Okay Chunying knows. But she says she can't access my blog. So since she cannot access my blog, I shall blog about... THE LOVE LIFE OF SOONKIA* AND CHUNYIN*! Hahahaha. No lah, they prefer to maintain a low profile. Hahaha. And whoever has the Fourone pics we took on the last day of school, or any other day, please send it to me! Post me an offline message to tell me when you'll be online. :D

Zzz. Damn the beer. Now I feel so gillian (Ah Lian). Hahahaha.

Create Your Own!

Also on Fourone blog.

You'll never know what I want. Even if you do, you'll never know how.
Everything's different. You used to know what I'm thinking.
Why do I know everything you tell me already.

Would you draw a rose on the wall, and with sheer magic turn it into a real one for me?

Thursday, October 12, 2006
♥ Failing memory

Scanning in papers for can't-remember-who. Memory's failing like anything. Sometimes I can't remember why I'm at some place. I feel so dumb sometimes I feel like slapping myself.

So, I've decided to try for SAJC for the first one and a half months since 966's direct bus from Woodlands interchange. If fail to get in, then second's choice will be Innova. It's so near and since I hate to take public transport so much, I can even walk home after school. Haha. But I still want to get into NJC. Because the red tie still amazes me. Lol. So I've got to study harder. I know I know. I will try to make use of the non existent attention span that I have.

I tried to do AMaths in class this morning. I sat down, and in order to clear myself of all distractions, I sat facing right in front of the whiteboard. And then I took out my AMaths TYS and attempted the first 8 questions. Then I started feeling sleepy so I took a short nap. 15 minutes later I got up to stretch myself and then realise I felt like running. So I walked around the classroom and watched Weixin do maths. Then I sat down and watched Chunying do her work. And then I realised I should be with AMaths and not Chunying so I went back to the table. To pack my stuff. Haha.

When it's 17 days to Onana I really should get down to serious studying. Which I half did in Bishan library today until the headache came and spoiled my day. Ah and the headache's still here even after Panadoling. I really hate headaches.

Mindblock. Back when mind's cleared. Bye bye.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006
♥ Ting Ma Ma De Hua

Now playing: TING MA MA DE HUA - JAY CHOU

Everything's driving me crazy. This pain at the backbone just won't go away. It's there when I stand, when I sit, when I lie down and it's worse when I start walking. It just keeps coming and going; just when I thought the pain is finally easing, it starts all over again.

And I'm in a bad mood because as much as I want to believe tomorrow can't possibly be worse, things just keep getting from bad to worse, from worse to even worse.

I can't bear seeing all these. The last two I saw, and I created a three.

Was sleeping just now, and I had a bad dream. I dreamt that I was walking in the rain, drenched and all, and I just keep walking, and walking, but I never reached the place where there's no rain at all. And I still keep walking and walking and walking, until it got dark and I can't see where I'm going. But I kept walking. Then I walked into a river and drowned. And even when I was drowning my legs kept moving, walking and walking and walking.

I know I shouldn't be affected by a dumb dream. But I'm really quite afraid of drowning. Imagine what will be going through the mind in that one minute plus when you're about to drown. And it's always these thoughts that make me so. I don't know, weird?

You know what I know and you think what I think. So why do you keep doing it?

Don't know what else to say. I'll be better after some sleep.

♥ Hold hands and say, We're still friends anyway

When you thought nothing could possibly be worse; you turn around and are proven wrong rightaway.

Official last day of school for the Sec4s. So, saddening. I cried for at least 3 times today. Lol. I cried when gillian gave me marshmellows. Really, I don't know why I did, maybe I find giving marshmellows a sad thing to do. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I'm crazy.

And then I almost cried when singing the national anthem. I must really be crazy. I was thinking to myself, "Last day of school and we don't even get to hear Mr Ang nag." Ah, today's not Friday huh, why am I feeling like that?

So anyway, first lesson's Chinese and I cried again, -_- after hearing Mr Ng and his listen-to-the-seashell-for-fourone's-laughter speech. On purpose one lah, he. Want to make us cry only. Anyways, we had the gift exchange thing and I got Pamela's perfume. Haha. I'll remember to spray it right before the O's. At the air around me, I hope I don't get disqualified for that. Lol. Mr Ng got my summit Toberlone. Crap lah, eh-ren took my reason before I get to say it.

Didn't get gillian's drum though. It's so cute. =/

And then we had Maths. I didn't cry lah. How to cry when everything just seems so funny suddenly. Lol. Mdm Wong still rocks, so do Mr Ng. But since Mdm Wong is short shorter, Mdm Wong rocks abit more because I'm biased against tall people. Okay wait, I'm biased against Son too, and Son is not tall people. So I'm biased against tall people plus Son. Haa. She gave us this smiling ball because we're smiling people. Lol. And she got me Playdoh! Hahaha. So easy to earn huh. Pick up phone calls also can get Playdoh. Lol.

And then and then. What did we do? Some survey thinger at the lab. Then we got back our report books ---------

Why did I remind myself of that. TSK TSK TSK.

I didn't win Haobo. I'm utterly dejected. We got the exact same marks, exact same percentage, exact same class position and exact same L1R5. I'm. So. Sad. Sigh. I'm so angry with myself too. Why can't I just get one more mark, ANYWHERE. Maybe if I've drank a little more Nespray it wouldn't be that bad. SIGH.

Maybe that's what they meant by that darn feeling called What-if. What if I read one more page of the Physics textbook before the Physics exam.

Anyway, we took lots of photos today with all the teachers and among ourselves, since it's the last day officially. Haha.

But today's still not a nice day because it's October 11. Which is one month after the aniversary of September 11. Which goes to show it's a very very sad day. Haiyah no lah. Today's just been a bad day. Not only for me.

Cheer up Toa Payoh goggles girl. Your Deepavali card fucking costs me 90 cents. I've never bought a more expensive Deepavali card before okay. You better treasure it. And if your Milo doesn't treasure you, you should try looking for Milo that has Nespray in it. I bet it'll be 10 times better. But nothing's confirmed so maybe you can try making Milo better by adding Nespray in it.

Oh anyway, to Lyna, the link to the Countdown Timer is HERE.

Have to go school tomorrow for English extra lessons. Seriously, shouldn't she just stay at home and rest and make sure her baby turns out pretty and cute and cuddly and doesn't nag as much as her? Kay fine, babies don't nag. But in any case, she should be resting at home, and take good care of herself and her baby. And not come to school and run about and make everyone panic when she looks like she's going to fall. Tsk.

I'm feeling sleepy. Eyes are closing and-- and-- I forgot what I wanted to say already. So thanks everyone for a wonderful four years in secondary school. For just being there and filling the space. Or for crossing my path and made it more special somehow. I just got souvenirs for gillian, Chunying and Weixin, since I figured we'll see less and less of each other very soon. And--- ah, I'm really falling asleep.

Update again when I'm more awake. And--- Ah forget it. Bye.

We'll all go seperate ways one day. Why don't we smile and wave. Why do we watch it slip away. Why don't we hold hands and say, We're still friends anyway.

Monday, October 09, 2006
♥ The end is near

Bury me with everything else so that I won't realise I'm missing

Ah. School's almost over. Lessons were okay, pretty slack because there's really nothing much we can do already, isn't it?

The end is near.

Hahahahahahahahahaha.

Okay sorry for being gillian. 20 days to Onana and I hope the counter at the side is driving you crazy because we all ought to be chionging like mad now, which I think I am doing because I'm doing AMaths papers like I used to do Geography groupwork in the past. With that same fervour. Haa, I must be going mad. Or maybe I'm just starting to become sane. Lol.

I'll go back to work later, maybe. By the way, I'm drinking this apple and aloe vera juice but there're no aloe vera cubes inside. Lol, maybe they forgot to add that in when manufacturing it. Haha.

Anyway, to Sarah, your guesses are half correct. Yes, I don't read the Street Directory and I can't walk in high heels. Lol. But I do count my toes. -_- And of course I love salmon sushi!! That's the thing I eat the most whenever I go Sakae. Haha. And the other two that weren't true were #5, that thing about hating Jimmy Neutron because he uses too much gel and #15, I talk to my printer. I am retarded but I don't do that, god knows why.

Okay wait, I'm not retarded. gillian's the retarded one, and I'm accelerated. Chunying wants to be at constant speed and we concluded that Weixin is at rest. Hahahaha.

Ah, I'm very sleepy. Maybe I should just catch some sleep, and maybe wake up at 4am tomorrow to do AMaths, or Physics, or read Geography. Seriously, I can't believe what studies is making out of me. As compared to my Sec1 to 3 life, school life now is totally crazy. There's no such thing as homework in the past, and Sec2 and 3 life is three quarters slept away. Chunying watched me sleep last year. I would have died if we slept studied without a table.

People, please update your blogs because I'll stop coming online if there are no updates for me to read. And that means more work, which is good supposedly but uh, I just want the excuse to come online? :D

7.30pm. Bedtime! Wake up at 4am tomorrow, promised. And NOT go back to sleep, I hope.

They say people have their ways And people stay the same Accept the way it is Accept that things don't change
Some people make it worse Some people don't want to listen
What if I do nothing? What if I just turn my back on you? If I say nothing What if I just walk away from you?
Walk away I could never walk away from you
They say people have their ways And people stay the same Accept the way it is I know that I can change.

Sunday, October 08, 2006
♥ PSI 27

PSI dropped to 27. Ah. Today was supposed to be a fine day.

Okay. Back to books. I'm actually studying at home. Though my eyes hurt like mad. No idea what's wrong, maybe some haze got in there yesterday.

I so don't want to go back school for the rest of next week. Maybe I shouldn't.

♥ Tagged

Tagged >>>

1. how old do you wish you were?
65, then I'll die. Ha no. I haven't enjoyed myself enough yet. Uh, 17? So that Onana's over. And I can give all my textbooks away, and laugh at Fiona, and everything else, haha.

2. where were you when 9/11 happened?
I was at home, watching TV, and suddenly there was an emergency news break about that and I thought that was in Singapore. Come on lah, I was only 13 then. I'm very dumb at that age.

3. what do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Beat the vending machine and see if the money is stuck or something.

4. do you consider yourself kind?
To people who deserve it, yah.

5. if you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
On the ankle. But I'll never get it, lah. It's so painful. I can't even stand piercing my ears again.

6. if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Japanese. I like watching anime.

7. do you know your neighbours?
Not really. Oh wait, Junjie is my neighbour. So okay, I know my neighbour, not neighbours.

8. what do you consider a vacation?
Going somewhere totally unfamiliar and doing crazy things there because no one knows you. That'll be so fun.

9. do you follow your horoscope?
Sometimes, when I come across them and I'm bored. But I read all the horoscopes because I keep reading the one that's not mine. -_-

10. would you move for the person you love?
Move where? Overseas? Uh, maybe, depending where.

11. are you touchy feely?
You mean emotional? Not really. I don't cry watching Korean dramas, said that before already.

12. do you believe that opposites attract?
Uh, we learnt that in Physics what. The north and the south poles thing. Okok, I can't be lame today, no idea why, maybe because I didn't get enough sleep. Not really, because Haobo and I are so opposite of each other and I find him very repulsive.

13. dream job?
Astronaut. They said to Dream Big what.

14. favourite tv channels?
Central. Cartoon Network in the past but cable TV got cancelled. :(

15. favourite place to go on weekends?
Everywhere. Singapore's not really big. But past few weeks have been all about studying during the weekends, and movies of course.

16. showers or baths?
Showers.

17. do you paint your nails?
No, I'll never finish a bottle of nail paint in a year.

18. do you trust people easily?
Not really. And don't trust me that easily too. I'm really good at hala-ing people.

19. what are your phobias?
The W thing.

20. do you want kids?
7. But now that so many people tell me it's far too many to be possible, ah heck, I still want 7. Test-tube babies? I don't think I can bear giving birth to 7.

21. do you keep a handwritten journal?
Many since a long time ago. Have 6 or 7 in total.

22. where would you rather be now?
Spain. Ha. Or Japan, in some hot springs.

23. who makes you warm and fuzzy?
Sleep. -_-

24. heavy or light sleeper?
Heavy. Though I'm losing sleep like mad these few days. Eyebags are out, again.

25. are you paranoid?
Maybe. I don't know. Oh, I'm very paranoid about worms. So, yah.

26. are you impatient?
Very. Evidence as of me playing mahjong. Look at how stressed Junjie is.

27. who can you relate to?
Uh. Another me? I can't think.

28. how do you feel about interracial couples?
... It... Depends who.

29. have you been burned by love?
if burned mean hurt?
Guess so.

30. what's your pick-up line?
Hello, your mother's not free today and I'm here to pick you up. (Then I go on to kidnap that poor little kid. MUAHAHA.)

31. what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
Pu Tong Peng You by David Tao.

32. what were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping. Or maybe dreaming. Or maybe I was wandering into another world.

33. what did the last text on your mobile say?
From Priscilla, telling me her mother's down with food poisoning too, and that we can't go out to study today. :(

34. whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.

35. what colour shirt are you wearing?
Blue.

36. most recent movie you watched?
Miami Vice. Don't watch it.

37. name three things you have on at all times.
Spectacles, clothes and er handphone?

38. what colour are your bedsheets?
I actually can't remember. Haaa.

39. how much cash do you have right now?
Can't remember too.

40. what's your favourite part of the chicken?
Wings.

41. what's your favourite town/city?
Uh, I don't know.

42. i can't wait till:
28 April 2008. When I'm eighteen and can watch the first M18 show.

43. what did you have for dinner last night?
Meehoon in soup, with Fiona who's over at my house.

44. how tall are you barefoot?
157cm.

45. do you own a gun?
Watergun, gift from Ann on birthday.

46. what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Warm water.

47. where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
Ten years means, 26 years old? Uh, I think I'll be married by then, and probably in some foreign land watching Cartoon Network everyday.

48. last thing you ate?
Nasi Lemak.

49. what songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't.

50. last thing that made you laugh?
Fiona. Uh, she's not a thing huh. Then Fiona on that swinging thing at Vista Park. I'm sure she's dizzy now.

51. worst injury you ever had?
Fracture on right arm.

52. does someone have a crush on you?
Guess so.

53. what's your favourite candy?
Mentos mint. Actually I like all candy. Strawberry and cream lollys especially.

54. what song do you want played at your funeral?
Uh, all the Jay songs? Haha. Wait, why am I laughing when I'm talking about my funeral. -_- Play Ye De Di Qi Zhang, haha, and I may just wake up again suddenly.

1.Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true. 2. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
3. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
4. let people guess which the five false ones are!
5. Get 5 others to do the same.

Start:
1. I think that the cutest tile in Mahjong is Yi Tong.
2. I used to think vending machines are alive.
3. I enjoy watching Hindi shows.
4. I count my toes.
5. I hate Jimmy Neutron because he uses too much gel.
6. I love colouring books.
7. I read the Street Directory.
8. I read Chinese dictionaries.
9. There are 14 people with names starting with A in my list of contacts in the phone.
10. I cut my nails at least once every week.
11. I've never climbed a tree before.
12. I own three penknives in Primary Five.
13. I like to eat salmon sushi.
14. I enjoy playing Playdoh.
15. I talk to my printer.
16. I took my height against the fridge when I was young, sticking fridge magnets at my height to see if I'm grown.
17. I can actually walk in high heels.
18. I was afraid to climb the stairs of the overhead bridge when I was young.
19. My friends play with fire in Primary Six.
20. I am 180cm tall.

Okay the last one was a giveaway. Try finding four other things that are untrue about me in the list of 19 other things I've typed.

This is a pretty long quiz. So I'm not tagging, do it if boredom's killing you and you have to kill time as a result. (:

It's about time to go back to the right people.

Saturday, October 07, 2006
♥ Uh huh

♥ Friends?

It's 8am in the morning and I'm here because I can't sleep anymore. I'll try do some AMaths and Physics later.

Okay that doesn't sound like me so I'm going to restart the post.

It's 8am in the morning and I'm here because I can't sleep anymore. And I'll try to get some sleep later on. Ah, no. I feel like doing homework. Maybe subconsciously I AM feeling a bit stressed. Okay no, for some reasons I am feeling stressed because of the Onana, maybe not so much but it's still there. That's not the reason why I'm not sleeping well though. I woke up because I'm hungry, but I know I'm not going to eat much later on still because I can't seem to find the appetite that I used to have. Haa. I'm really losing weight, I feel so thin now. Where's all the good food?!

Alright, so I woke up and decided to give myself half an hour online and afterwards I'll wash Jay's cage (I haven't done it for the whole period when I was sick) and feed it and then I'll start studying. Maybe I'll ask Fiona over, or I'll go Fiona's house, or we'll meet at Causeway. Oh wait, today's Saturday, maybe she's out drinking Milo Dinosaur. Ah. Find Priscilla or Sokmui then, they're the closest around.

13 more mins till I go offline. I had a bad dream last night and I really want to forbid those negative can't-stand-its I've been having these few days, over some people. It seems like there're more and more people I can't stand. Uh, okay, not really. There's only Haobo. The one whose voice I couldn't stand isn't that bad actually, when she's not er, talking too loud.

Sometimes I wonder whether I truly has any friend in the school. Sounds weird saying this because I always felt all my friends around are truthful and fun and yada yada. Some just drift away slowly and soon after, it seems like we never crossed paths. Some lingered around for awhile but still drifted in the end, till the point I can't guess what they're thinking anymore. Some changed but insisted that's their true selves and as much as they consider me as a good friend still, I hardly talk to them at all.

...

Those three "some" in the last paragraph actually refers to three specific people. Why don't you guess?

But there're still some around, I think. Perhaps one, two, three, and maybe four.

Maybe that's why they say Friends are everywhere but true friends are only that few. So saddening huh.

2 more mins. I'll go sms Fiona. Doubt she's awake already. Maybe I should call and wake her up. Oh, since I'm so bored, might as well morning call Spiky and wake him up to wake Ruting. My, did I just type RUTING. The whole world's not supposed to know they have some Chemistry going on between them. Oh, so pretend I didn't say anything :D

8.30am. Bye.

Friday, October 06, 2006
♥ Nespray

Oh crap. I vomited again. And it's that dark green thing again. I took a closer look, yah just to better describe it to you, and it looks like dark green gruel that the big bad monster made and forced the little girl to eat. Uh huh, I know there's no such fairy tale but who cares. I'm feeling so thrown up now. Ah.

So anyway, I'm here to blog because I feel a little better after throwing up. (I always feel better after throwing up.) Anyway, I hasn't eaten much today. Didn't eat anything for breakfast, recess, and ate half a plate of chicken rice for lunch. Dinner's untouched because I felt like vomiting already. So uh, I vomited the chicken rice? -.- Or maybe there's still some carrot cake left in me. Or maybe I ate a fly (Chunying?) in my sleep and now it's coming out in installments. Okay that sounds really scary and disgusting, so let's stop talking about it.

Uh huh. So yah, I got back my prelims results like everyone else. Score 14. CCA's B3, plus Higher Mother Tongue so I can only deduct 3 points, and that leaves nett score 11. It's neither here nor there, so I'm still thinking where to go. Perhaps trying for SAJC, or ACJC. But I remember having to walk a long way to get to ACJC, although the school's pretty nice. If all fails it's IJ since it's so damn near and I can go in to find my seniors. Haha.

So sadly, dear Ronghua, it's not that I don't want to go VJ (okay actually I don't want to because it's SO far), it's that I can't get in. Yah, and you totally overrated me since PSLE score is very deceiving. PSLE is chicken lah. Lol.

Results as follows, for those I can remember. In order of merit >>>

Chinese Language (taken last year) -A1
Combined Humans - A1
EMaths - A2
Geography - A2
AMaths - B4
Higher Chinese - B4
English Language - B4
Physics - C5
Chemistry - C6

Yah. And I'm very glad I met all goals I set a few posts back. To beat the three aforementioned people and to attain at least a C5 for AMaths. B4's moderated, lah. So that's nothing to be extremely proud about. And I actually passed Chemistry with a super tyco score of 50. Lol, and Weixin's so angry with me because I gave up on Chemistry and didn't studied for the exam.

Today's haze is terrible. Felt like I was breathing in dirty air just standing on the platform waiting for the train. Maybe it's the haze that's making me vomit. Ah doesn't make sense. So many things don't make sense today anyway. (Like I still can't figure out why Chunying is so sad today, and why "Tonight's full Moon will be almost 12 percent bigger than some of the full Moons this year, according to NASA", actually according to Anson who actually reads Science news from the net everyday.

By the way, if you haven't already known, the secret formula to achieving the same level of intelligence as Anson is a cup of Milo every morning. Don't belittle this cup of Milo okay. It's a very special cup of Milo which is prepared by mixing Milo powder with guess what! NESPRAY MILK POWDER. Yes, so that's the secret to the holy brainpower. But that has been taken since he was very very young. So, blame him for not sharing the secret earlier. Otherwise all of us may just become smartasses that can afford to play Pangya one night before AMaths exam.

Oh, so just to add on to the not-so-long----yet list of things to do to become as smart as Anson, we have to read Science news on the net everyday. Ah. Now I'm even more sure I need super large doses of Nespray milk powder. I really want to be smart, lah. Imagine not having to study and getting a score under 10 for you L1R5. Life's always so unfair.

I've got this weird mosquito bite on my left hand that's been there for the whole day. I even drew a smiley on it. And it's still here now. -.- Okay nevermind, that was very random.

Okay I got to go. I want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Haha.

Like a candle, it's always bright though one day I know it'll just burn away.

Thursday, October 05, 2006
♥ Damn the food poisoning

This dumb food poisoning almost drived me crazy.

Didn't want go school on Tuesday because I was feeling so super tired, and wanted to just stay in bed and slack my day away. But uh huh, towards the end of the day I just felt worse and worse, and I started vomiting and having the runs. I couldn't eat anything because I throw up all I ate less than 15 minutes after swallowing the food.

So I took some Chinese medicinal powder dissolved in hot water, something that I took each time I had diarrhoea. It was supposed to work because it always work in the past. But no, this time it didn't and I vomited those too. So at 9.30pm on Tuesday night, I decided I should go see a doctor.

But the three clinics at Vista Point close at 9pm and the nearest still opened clinic is at I-don't-know-where. So I followed my brother's instructions and walked a bloody long way to this clinic near Admiralty MRT station. I walked like at least 3km, before reaching this super ulu clinic under a flat whose signboard didn't even had its lights on. So anyway, I went in to see the doctor, and the doctor concluded that I had food poisoning and since I didn't eat much for the whole of the day, the problem most probably lies with the carrot cake that my mother bought from a hawker centre in Yishun for my breakfast.

Uh huh, so I paid $28 for the medicine and left. Took a cab home because I really couldn't take it anymore. So I reached home, took the medication and went to sleep at around 11pm. At 3am, I woke up and threw up all the medicine. And it was so super disgusting I felt like I'm better off dead. Really, the vomit was dirty green. It's ew, I don't know what else to say. So I washed up and tried to go back to sleep but I couldnt' sleep at all. I kept tossing and turning in bed and keep waking up to vomit. That was the worst night ever in my whole damn life. I vomited till I went pale white, and I couldn't even drink water because whatever went down came back up again. Totally terrible.

So at 8.30am on Wednesday, I went to see the doctor I always go to at Vista Point. And man, I really love the doctor. It costs only $22 and his medicine works wonders. I'm so much better already. So I've got MC for the rest of the week but since I'm feeling better already, I would most probably go school tomorrow.

Mdm Wong came over to pass me papers last night. Lol, she said I look weak. Uh huh, I look weak, feel weak and sound weak. Imagine having eaten nothing for like three days straight. The only thing I ate and didn't come back up was porridge which my mother cooked for my lunch and dinner yesterday, and half a sausage bun I had for breakfast today. I can't believe I can go without good food for that long a time. Ha.

Spiky got 34 points for L1R5, and so according to our bet he has to go 2/8 and shout some things in the class. Haha, but he suggested treating me to some good food when I've recovered. So, I'm still considering. Lol.

Alright. Got to catch some rest. I slept for like 22 hours in total in a day. Lol. And I could have slept even longer if not because of the smses and calls that woke me up once in a while. Haha. Thanks everyone for your concern, I think I'm finally getting well. Yay.

Bye. (:

Tuesday, October 03, 2006
♥ Yo mama > Weilong is an idiot

It's 10.24am and I'm not in school because I decided to skip it because of the dumb headache that's practically frying my brain and the dumb gastric which comes and goes and comes and goes and comes and goes.

So yah. I'm here at home facing the dumb com and being dumb, as usual.

Actually, I'm well enough to go school, with some Panadol and Actall. But there's Geography. (Yes, I can't believe I'm saying this but, I can't stand Geography.) I think gillian osmosised some of her thoughts to me, and I really couldn't stand Geography yesterday when she just went on and on and on and on about Development and yada yada and how she just refused to let us out of the damn place.

Uh huh. If it's been some other teacher like Mrs Ryes or something, I would have just stood up and left the class. Alright, so at least I still like Mrs Lim more than Mrs Ryes. But no, I don't think she's my favourite teacher anymore. How can anyone be so anal about a dumb file. Tsk.

AHHHHH. I think gillian possessed me. Did I just say that Mrs Lim is anal about a dumb file?! No, I didn't mean it! (Okay actually I did...) Ah nevermind.

And gillian thinks Chinese lessons aren't that bad afterall. (See, we're influencing each other like crazy. At least it's good influence, is it not?) Yah, Mr Ng's so nice, and tall. Uh, that's not the point. Not all tall people are nice, take for example, 672 worms. Alright fine, he's down with some eye allergy so I shouldn't be so mean to him. Alright then, just for today he's 671 worms, that's one less worm than mighty 672 worms okay. Oh wait, I think he may want to be many many many worms, since he's always competting with others to see who is better and stronger and whatever. Lol, so I'll let him be 673 worms today.

In any case, I hope 671/672/673 worms attain enlightenment through his little allergy which brushed him so close to death. And know how not to shout as much, talk as loudly, scold vulgarities like anything, talk crude things and of course, keep that hand around five one boys to himself. But that's impossible, because he's 671/672/673 worms. And that's very wormy.

Alright, I think I'm being very mean. Okay, I'll try to be mode then. HAHA. Er, not funny.

I've got new YO MAMA jokes, told by Weilong who's just returned from Thailand. -.-

Yo mama so fat, she was mistaken for god's bowling ball.
Yo mama so fat, she was born with a silver shovel in her mouth.
Yo mama so fat, her favourite dress is a tent.
Yo mama so fat, she left home with high heels and came back with flip flops.
Yo mama so fat, she has to iron her pants on the driveway.
Yo mama so fat, she needs a hula-hoop for a belly button earring.
Yo mama so fat, she has to put lipstick with a paint-roller.
Yo mama so fat, she sat on a rainbow and Skittles came out.
Yo mama so fat, when she sat on a $10 note, blood came out of Yusof bin Ishak's nose.
Yo mama so fat, when she fell over, she rocked herself asleep trying to get up again.
Yo mama so fat, people jog around her to exercise.
Yo mama so fat, I swerved to avoid her in the road and ran out of gas.
Yo mama so fat, a picture of her fell off the wall.
Yo mama so fat, she wears a watch on each arm, one for each time zone.
Yo mama so fat, she was floating in the ocean, and Spain claimed her as a new world.
Yo mama so fat, all her clothes are custom made by a contractor.
Yo mama so fat, she got a smaller fat woman orbitting around her.
Yo mama so fat, she makes Big Bird look like a rubber duck.
Yo mama so fat, when she goes to the restaurant, she looks at the menu and said "Okay".

Yo mama so stupid, she tried to wake up a sleeping bag.
Yo mama so stupid, she looked at a can of juice for days because it says "Concentrate".
Yo mama so stupid, she tried to put M&Ms in alphabetical order.
Yo mama so stupid, she asked me what type of jeans I had on and I said "Guess" so she said "Levi's".
Yo mama so stupid, she put lipstick on her forehead because she wants to make up her mind.
Yo mama so stupid, she sat in a treehouse because she wants to be a branch manager.
Yo mama so stupid, her latest invention is a glass hammer.
Yo mama so stupid, she yelled into an envelope to send a voice mail.
Yo mama so stupid, when the judge said "Order in the court" she said "I'll have a hamburger and a coke".
Yo mama so stupid, at the bottom of her application where it says "Sign here" she wrote "Sagittarius".
Yo mama so stupid, she got hit by a parked car.
Yo mama so stupid, she got fired in the M&M company for throwing away the Ws.

Yo mama so ugly, when she was born everybody said she was a treasure and her father suggested to bury it.
Yo mama so ugly, they push her face into dough to make gorilla cookies.
Yo mama so ugly, it looks like her neck threw up.
Yo mama so ugly, when I took her to the zoo, the guy at the door said "Thanks for bringing her back."
Yo mama so ugly, her shadow quit.
Yo mama so ugly, her pillows cry at night.
Yo mama so ugly, instead of putting the bungee cord around her ankle, they put it around her neck.
Yo mama so ugly, she had to tie a steak around her face to get the dog to play with her.
Yo mama so ugly, people go as her for Halloween.
Yo mama so ugly, she threw a boomerang and it wouldn't even come back.
Yo mama so ugly, when she was a scarecrow, the corn ran away.

Hahahahahahahahaha.

Got to get some sleep. While you people are having Geography in school. HAHAHAHA. =P

Sunday, October 01, 2006
♥ Mind unblock

Alright I cleared my mindblock. So I'm back to blog a proper entry because I feel like blogging suddenly. Yes, I know I'm weird, you don't have to remind me, really. I know how weird I am, and sadly, there isn't much I can do about it. I seriously think I'm born like that. Weird, I mean.

Eye of gold
Thigh of blue
True or False
Who is who?

I've been having weird thoughts lately. Maybe it's because of the dreams, or maybe it's because I'm growing up (I hope), or maybe it's because I'm beginning to become weirder and weirder by the day. One of the weekdays I was on my way home, and I kept thinking what if I just disappear and everyone else's memories of me are erased. You know that show called what's-the-name. Where memories of a certain person are erased from everybody's minds and the faces of the person are erased on every photograph.

And then maybe I'm still alive but I'm invisible to everyone else, that's why I went crazy and imagined a world of my own. Or maybe I'm simply just some crazy person living in the Institute of Mental Health and all that I'm living now is a part of my imagination.

Uh huh, and maybe I had a friend but my memory of him or her got erased, just like everyone else. And suddenly in my primary school's autograph book there's a space under Best Friends which used to be his or her name, just that when I see it now, it seems like a space I left for stickers but the sticker dropped out or something.

And who knows, maybe there're millions of dimensions of people living on the same earth. Just that people of different dimensions don't see each other. And we walk through each other, yada yada, and all our buildings overlapt, just that we see only our type.

Or maybe the earth is not round afterall. Maybe the alien manipulated our minds. Maybe we're just the aliens' toys. Maybe we're just living on a small globe of plasticine that the alien moulded when he was young, and chucked into a dark corner of his alien home. And we're the little particles that live on it, and we already think so highly of ourselves.

Maybe we're all part of somebody else's dream. And when he or she wakes up, poof, all of us will be gone.

Yah, these thoughts. And more. Which makes me so affirmative I'm going crazy, or am already crazy.

Maybe we're all part of somebody's story. And the end comes when the story ends. And we'll all disappear, without even knowing why, perhaps without even knowing we ever existed, or did we? I am so not sure I exist, are you?

Masquerade
Paper faces on parade

And so many times I wondered if what I'm holding in my hands is really there or I imagined myself to be holding it, or am I just holding an image and not an object. I wonder if I really lie there when I go to sleep, or did I wander somewhere else and reached this world, this dimension, and my previous world is still puzzled at my disappearance.

Sometimes I wonder if there're two me in this world. Maybe another me had wandered here, or I had wandered into another world.

I am getting so confused with myself, so questioned with all the facts that the big men laid down. I wonder if I'm the only person in this world, or worlds that think like that. And I wonder if this is how people go crazy.

I'm feeling so. Tangled. Tangle > n. A confused, intertwined mass.

Right now...

I think I'm better off with a mindblock.

May my mind be blocked.

♥ Mindblock

I left the cursor blinking for a long time because I can't seem to find anything to blog about. Uh huh, today's one of the weird days even though it's less than 5 hours to my favourite day of the week. Today's almost as weird as yesterday, which is almost as weird as the day before yesterday. Actually the whole of last week has been rather weird. Okay nevermind. I've always been weird, so it's normal to have weird days and weeks and months. So it's been a normal week for me.

Alright. I just asked Anson what I can do to kill time and he said I can blog since I hasnt' blogged today. So I told him I did, just to kid him. And he believed me and said his browser shows yesterday's post as the latest. So I told him some coms doesn't show up some of my posts and there's nothing he can do about it. And he totally took it for real and switched browsers just to see if he could see my posts.

And then I told him I was hala-ing him, but he thought I was only joking about the some coms don't show up some of my posts thing but I wasn't joking about the new posts thinger. Until I told him I was joking about both. Then he realised how dumb gullible he is.

Lol. In less than 10 minutes later, I bluffed him into thinking my previous layout had a secret message which will show up only if you highlight the entire page. Which of course there isn't any. I'm so prone to lying sometimes I think it's an innate capablility. Really. I find joy in doing stupid pranks on people.

So anyway, when I couldn't think of anything to blog about just now, Anson suggested to blog about him. And yah, I just did. To say more, he's the guy I always talk about whose pen you will want to use when you're doing the most important AMaths paper in your life. But all AMaths are useless, so there's no such thing as the most important AMaths paper in your life. Haa.

I hope it rains tomorrow so that I don't have to source for a tie. Uh, no. I haven't seen Mrs Koh not knowing how to sing the school song for two weeks already. So, I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow, and blind everybody else so that no one realises I don't have a tie. -_-

I've ran out of things to blog about again and he-who-fell-for-all-that-I-said suggested a topic called Food. I gave him one dot and he decided to change his mind, but he's taking forever to come up with a decent topic. So meanwhile, I'll just go on blogging about everything under the sun, just to entertain myself, a little.

Alright, forget it. Mindblock. If this happens during Onana I'll bang my head on the table and shout AGAGATATAU. So if during the exam you hear me banging my head on the table and me screaming AGAGATATAU (which doesn't mean anything by the way), you'll know I'm feeling weird, which is normal for me, which is weird because it's normal for me, which is again normal since I am me, which is again weird because I am me who's weird and it goes on and on.

Yah. So bye. I'm off to eat Prima Deli's D24 Mooncake. GO GET IT IT'S SUPER NICE. $6.90 for one. It's durian inside the mooncake. And remember not to order a cake from Four Leaves.

Bye.