Wednesday, September 15, 2004

i dunno why reading other ppl's blogs could hav such a big impact on me..
i always tot reading blogs of frens wud most probably help me understand frens better.. i hope i do now.. and it seems like there is much more to noe.. facts and things cum crashing down on me like a thunderstorm.. why does it seems like no one else in this world other than me is enjoying life as it is?
some questions came to my head while going through mc's blog anyway.. they came and go and were left unanswered.. perhaps sumtimes it wud be best to let the bad memories fade as time passes and leave the good ones behind.. it keeps u happy.. and remember, there is always something in this world u could hope for.. it may not be sumthing big.. but sumthing, sumone in this world, could make you happy.. and anything is always worth waiting for.. i suddenly feel grown-up.. i seem to finally understand the meaning of "Live life to your fullest".. and i suddenly understand wad it meant by to forgive and forget.. it seems to be punishing one self when he or she remembers all the bad things, bad past of life.. doesnt it?
anyway, i juz found another meaningful quote from Cherry Ice.. "Enjoy life. There's plenty of time to be dead." it may sound funny, amusing, wadeva u call it.. but it's true.. wad does it realli mean by enjoying life then..? living happily? do things dat u want to do.. or otherwise regret it later.. rite.. i dunno why, but i actually feel happy to say all these out..
believe it or not, i actually hav a goal in my life rite now.. the first time.. lolz.. guess many things changed me lately.. i hav no qualms of hiding wad i realli feel to anyone.. i onli feel that one has to live openly to realise the happiness of not having to hide.. the things dat happened recently.. abt mc, abt ann.. they changed my perspective, and i sort of realised a lot of things from there..
toking abt my goals.. i hav a short term goal of achieving good results this year.. mayb that's the goal of everybody.. but i seriously told myself i should study becuz i want to.. not becuz of the results.. results is juz a way to show how much i hav succeeded in studying efficiently.. i wun be too affected by the results still.. so long i hav done my best, i had done all i possibly could, i wun regret.. as for my long term goal, i guess i wud most possibly change my character.. i dunno how my new self wud be like.. it wudnt happen so fast.. let's see abt that..
rite.. while typing this entry, i'm at the same time reading Cherry Ice.. and another quote "Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow." hmmm..
and another.. "Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself" it's interesting seeing so many meaningful quotes.. and i enjoyed it.. i wonder wad caused the change in me.. yar, like i said.. perhaps it realli was abt those things dat happened.. dun be surprised if u suddenly see me crying.. cuz i do not hav the urge to hold my tears back like i used to becuz i want to put up a strong front or anything.. when u r sad, u cry.. that's logic.. i tot anyone wud noe that.. i learnt that in kindergarden.. and it's natural.. and so it will happen.. hmm...
and another quote... "What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us are tiny matters compared to what lives within us." they are all said by a girl in the book named Ella Feast... meaningful.. alright.. and more quotes...
"The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."
"Life is like an onion: You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep."
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars."
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe."
"Love is like pi - natural, irrational, and very important."
guess i should end here.. i hope i dun sound too naggy or anything.. after all, i'm still 14.. cant expect me to act like an old granny.. lolz.. c ya then..