Tuesday, August 30, 2005

I can barely keep my eyes open.

Firstly, I shall commend myself for staying AWAKE in all lessons today, except maybe 5 minutes of Geography. I tried very hard, and I managed to nap for only 5 minutes. Great accomplishment!

I'm hearing all sides to the story. It doesn't concern me, actually. But I just got to hear the first ugly side, and then I heard the other ugly side, and then I heard the third side. To add on, I heard the bystanders' side and I heard more about the characters rather than the matter itself.

Life. Confusing. I see all question marks in my mind, so much that I can't sort out which is which and why all the characters overlap that much.

Should I type them out? Okay, here I go. No offence to all reading this. Perhaps it's just me that's getting confused, I don't know.

Erm. Sheryl talked bad about Ann about some stuff I can't recall, on Youth Day or something, in the library, and some other times elsewhere. Bad, as in, very extreme. But she agreed with James that Ann's character changed for the better after the breakup. From what I recall, since as far as I can remember, Sheryl has never really fancied Ann, but she shielded Ann over the keyboard matter. From that, the only conclusion I can draw is that Sheryl really disliked Layjia.

But then again. Sheryl lunched with Layjia and Jody and me often. And it's not as bad as putting Ann and Jody at the same table. And it's not like Layjia and Sheryl are really arch rivals with each other. Why then?

On the other hand, Ann don't really fancy Sheryl either. Because of many many reasons dating back to long long time before, Ann always had some difficulty bringing herself to accept Sheryl wholeheartedly. From Sports Day and how Anson, Jiahao, Ann and I sat around, I can tell, very obviously that Ann isn't that ready to be Sheryl's good friend yet. I can't state what but Ann should know what I'm talking about if she reads this.

But then again, they do hang out together. Perhaps just as aquaintances, I don't know.

Doesn't make sense, does it?

Sheryl dislikes Meiching, really. Meiching dislikes Sheryl, really. Both know it. But they laugh, they joke, they go out together like it's only natural. Meiching shows her dissatisfaction from time to time. Sheryl knows. But then? They still go for recess together. They do talk to each other, they seem like friends to each other.

Huh?

I stood neutral. But if this is to continue, I don't know what'll happen in future. Maybe I'll just glue myself to Sokmui. -_-

The Keyboard matter.

James' side stated that he had nothing to do with the matter in the first place. It was Ann who went up to Miss Yeo and he got dragged in for no rhyme or reason.

Ann's side stated that Ann only said Layjia didn't sound very friendly. It was James who went up to Miss Yeo, twice even.

Layjia's side stated that well, she don't know. But she thinks both did, in some way or the other.

Sheryl in support of James/Ann. Meiching in support of James/Ann.

Which is, Ann who went up to Miss Yeo, and James who went up to Miss Yeo. Which is, both went up to Miss Yeo. But it's Layjia fault in the first place because she pushed her weight around when she's the one out to borrow stuff. That is what they think.

Layjia thinks it's a small matter and she don't understand why they kicked up such a big fuss, got the teacher involved and caused everyone to be so pissed. That is what Jody thinks too.

Getting confusing? More confusing things to come.

Sheryl said that Layjia comes over often and seem as though they were friends with each other. And then the next day she's at her seat bitching about her. Therefore, she thinks she's hypocritical.

Layjia said that Sheryl dislikes Meiching but still hangs out with her that close, and the same applies to Ann. Therefore, she thinks she's hypocritical.

Meiching dislikes many of Layjia's character traits while Layjia dislikes many of Meiching's character traits. When Meiching mentioned Layjia's in front of Sheryl, Sheryl agrees. When Layjia mentioned Meiching's in front of Sheryl, Sheryl agrees. Thus I concluded that Sheryl agrees with Meiching that Layjia sucks and agrees with Layjia that Meiching sucks. And at the same time, Meiching dislikes Sheryl and Sheryl dislikes Meiching and Layjia dislikes Sheryl and Sheryl dislikes Layjia.

Huh? All three dislike each other? Then why the fuss? Just leave each other alone and get on with your lives? Won't it then be simpler?

If you dislike a person, leave the person alone. It's like the punchbag. You hit it hard, it'll swing back just as hard and hit you in the face. Be on average terms with everyone and you'll be widely accepted and happy. If you aren't perfect, how can she be?

This entry probably helped a little to my understanding.

Layjia - She just wants to get on with life. But the minute you do something to anger her, even if it's just one small bit, she'll bite back, twice as hard. And then you'll bite back, and she'll bite back again. If she agitates you, leave her alone. It makes your life simpler by saving the brainjuice needed to come up with vulgarities on her. And it makes hers simpler too. If she agitates you, which I believe she won't, tell her nicely and she'll be pissed enough to leave you alone from then on. Fair enough?

Meiching - She thinks, and she talks harsh. She likes to slang, a part of her already. If you think she's annoying you with her slang, tell her nicely and she'll be pissed enough to stop talking in front of you altogether. Makes life easier for you no? In the first place, if you disliked her slang that much, you wouldn't be anywhere near enough to hear her speak. Even if you do, like in class or something, where you have nowhere to hide your ears, you aren't hearing it for 23 hours out of 24. So take it easy and just brush it off with the thinking "That's her way of speaking", okay? If she annoys you by making comments directed only at you, don't talk back. What for? Silence silence a person. Isn't that what you all want, silence? (That is what I want, at least.)

Sheryl - The only thing I can say is that she follows too simply. When one hates another, she decides which of the two she hates more and she follows. She'll be around when all turn tables on one particular person. But Sheryl, it's not helping when you are seemingly friends with everyone. Even when you're talking bad about that person behind her back, you think that she doesn't know and so it won't matter. But others watch and see that you're two different persons in front and behind her back. And then it matters. It's not wrong to dislike a person. But do it openly. Why hate a person only when all the others are doing it? It's not wrong to be friendly and respect others in front of them. But it'll only seem too far-fetched if you can accomplish that so well and respect them so much in front of them. What about it when you're away from their sight? I'm not asking you to go all out and throw stones at those you dislike whenever you see them. But not to the extent of best friends in front, and arch rivals behind. Maybe that's already part of you, I don't know. I wrote to you about it before, you know what's wrong, and I don't know how much you're trying to change it. Whatever it is, have some identity, stop following, and others will look up to you like they should.

Ann - Seriously, you know I can almost read what you're thinking most of the times. There's nothing much I can say. But if you leave her alone, she won't find trouble in you. If you hate her so much, and you're nowhere near her, not reading her blog, not knowing any information about her, her actions won't bother you at all, since you see none. So if you hate her, leave her alone and there'll be peace. If you don't, be her friend and there'll be peace too. Cheers to world peace.

I find myself speaking up for A when B speaks bad of A behind her back. And then I find myself speaking up for B when A speaks bad of B behind her back. Whatever it is, I hold myself true to what I've said above. Those were all the thoughts that were running through my mind, confusing thoughts. And all contradict one another that much that perhaps it's true to say everyone on Earth are round people, quote Mrs Lee. Both a good and a bad side to each. Seriously no offence to all aforementioned.

You must have read a long and crappy post and you deserve a pat on the back on having reached here. I'm very sleepy. TataZ.