Thursday, September 16, 2004

speechless.. i dun noe wad else could i say..
rite ppl... i guess my resolution din work very effectively after all.. i hav been blogging everyday... but at least i hasnt played any gunbound for like quite long..? wadeva it is, at least i still quite hav the urge to study.. the reason why i decided to cum online is becuz i feel like reading others' ppl blogs.. but it seem that no one else blogged so i hav nothing to read.. and so i am blogging.. cuz i cant tink of anything else that i feel like doing now..
i juz realised that i hasnt disclosed much abt wat happens everyday in skoo.. reason being it seems to be repetitive and i c no point in saying the same old things... anyway.. i had juz taken up the habit of taking sleeping pills these few days.. i hav been losing slp.. yes, me.. losing slp... i slept at 11+ for the last two days.. and i took two sleeping pills from my sis who kept them in her cupboard.. i took them out at first tinking it's panadol, becuz it looks exactly the same as a normal panadol.. but i saw some weird words at the back of the packaging.. and finally knew dat it's slping pills.. din noe my sis takes them.. anyway, i ate two, as instructed on the box.. and i fell asleep.. it din hav much effect like unable to wake up the next day or wad.. but there's this constant headache bugging me and my brain.. i'm beginning to feel different.. i dunno why..
wadeva it is, i cried in cls today for some reasons.. i noe wad they are but i dun feel like recalling them.. i dunno how am i going to look as if nothing has happened tml.. mayb i wud try.. but why are there suddenly so many ppl i dun wish to c in skoo? i'm beginning to dread skoo.. there are some ppl i wish to c but there are others i wish could disappear..
ppl reading this, dun jump to conclusions and categorise urself under any of the two groups mentioned above.. i dun wan more misunderstandings and more sleep gone..
shall end here then.. i'm feeling a bit robotic.. i wonder wad's wrong wif me.. hav the urge to jump out of the window.. forget it.. i can feel myself becuming paranoid.. i realli wonder wad's wrong wif me.. did sumbody put a spell on me or wad...