Friday, March 04, 2005

feels.. so.. pain....

dunno how to say... still refuse to accept the fact.. still believing this is the worst nightmare ever.. and i will wake up soon.. mayb it's april's fool.. or mayb they are all lying.. mayb i'm hallucinating... i still refuse to believe...

all the prep talks abt cherishing ur life.. abt not to take ur life lightly.. abt living ur life to the fullest.. abt growing up together.. whether me to her or her to me... all.. seem.. so.. meaningless.. all.. of... a... sudden...

-still crying-

still dun believe.. all the 4 ppl who smsed me muz hav ganged up to bluff me.. even her mother lied when i called her hse.. becuz.. i still dun believe..

why..........

gone.. juz liddat... and never back again... why do i hav to experience all these in the past month...

first the aunt.. den coach... den felicia... now u...

why.... why could u endure the past two months plus... why... why now not......

-unbearable headache-

165.. stupid holy number... why.....

cum back and tell me why......

-unbearable headache-

the first sms i received.. wo niu being played... `wo yao yi bu yi bu wang shang pa... zai zui gao dian cheng zhe ye wang qian fei...

zai zui gao dian wang qian fei... my heart almost flew out of my mouth... "kip ur cool kX.." how.. u tell me how..

-blardy headache still..-

one word to describe current mood.. haunted... two words to describe current mood.. very haunted.. three words to describe current mood.. very very haunted... four words to describe current mood.. wants to wake up...

-highly disturbed-

u tell me how to keep my cool.......`