Wednesday, March 02, 2005

hi.. back.. to blog.. duh

past two days din come online.. feel realli tired..

yesterday.. we went to send felicia off.. nth to say larZ.. all of us said wun cry de.. in the end one cry, den another one cry.. den another one see the two cry so she oso cry... den in the end all the girls cried.. i controlled liaoZ.. but cannot larZ.. see all of them cry juz felt.... very... very.. sad...

when felicia waved.. in the departure hall.. carrying her luggage.. juz seconds b4 she goes in... waved to us.. through the glass... cant bring myself to wave back.. waving to someone knowing u might never see her again felt so pain... waved back.. din cry.. held tears.. den saw sheryl.. saw her crying.. aiseh... cannot take it arh... turned to another side.. ann crying.... turned away.. head low.. walk walk walk.. raised head up, saw meiching crying... sitting on the chair.. cannot take it le.. cry.. den cry lar..

when we stood outside the glass pane.. everytime we watch chinese dramas... scenes in the airport.. the ppl leaving always take very long time b4 they disappear out of sight de.. but in reality... why so fast... so fast gone.. xiang kan duo ji yan dou bu xing....

when she's gone.... felt like... lost on an expressway with all the vehicles rushing past u.. tht was wad i felt.. took me awhile to swallow the fact.. tht yes.. felicia has migrated.. she wun appear in skoo tml morning anymore.. tht type of.. u-know-it-so-u-have-to-accept-it feeling..

hav to be strong anywayz... wan others to be happy i muz be happy first.. you muz be the change u wan to see in the world.. sounds familiar? lolz... more so.. many others are so much sadder than i am... meiching.. sheryl.. ann.. ankita.. naomi.. dun need to add me in.. i'm ok.. they are the ones who are not...

hav to learn.. to cheer ppl upZ...

sigh

onli wednesday.. but feel so tired.. tht type of feeling i wud experience onli on fridays....

ann........ tink........ wad...... iz....... the....... best........ for....... u....... get ur true happiness back..... time to choose.. either....... or........ my first time not telling u to jian chi dao di..... how i'm feeling nowZ....... iz..... how he's feeling nowZ.....