Monday, March 07, 2005

you lai... everytime xin qing bu hao feel like blogging.. blogger shows me a blank page.. Zzz.. notepad.. againZ.. =/

-_- 3 things i hate when toking to ppl.....
1. ppl saying Nvm or nth to me...
2. ppl toking to me but looking at the person there..
3. ppl starting a conversation happily.. and den sudd mood swing.. den sad all the way..

becuz it makes me wonder.. whether did i do sumthing wrong.. without me knowing it.. whether i've actually offended the person or wad.. =S

`wo zhi dao shang xin bu neng gai bian shen mo.... na me... rang wo chen shi yi dian...

[[zhu wo sheng ri kuai le]]

weird things kept happening today...

early in the morning... this man.. cant tell ard how old.. cuz it was dark.. walked up to me.. and started mumbling.. -_- tried to san3 lar.. duh.. walked the other way.. den he walked away to block my way.. den i was like er.. eXcuse Me... and den i looked up at him and he was looking at me wif tht sad look in his eyes -___- errr... den i tried to walk away again.. and den this time he din move to block me.. he juz stood there.. head low.. shoulders hung.. sad look on face.. while i walked away..

when i turned and look.. he was still there... same position.. head low.. shoulders hung..

weird

sounds so.. -_- drama -_-

in the morning came to skoo books fell on me from the top of the lockers.. -_- not mine.. someone else.. suayed...

sumthing tells me... today.. is a sad sad day.......

dreamt of two worms fighting last nite... -_- yar.. two worms.. but scene.. is damn.. bloody... dunno where all the blood came from.. maybe from me -_-... cant believe it.. i was acutally enjoying the dream.. didnt seem like a nightmare despite the worms and the blood..

i tried typing the word WORM onto words, enlarging it.. and den staring at it for a long time.. dunno why.. i get the SCARED feeling.. even when it's juz a word.. the word itself.. gives me the creepy feeling.. fine.. i'm crapping again.. why am i scared of a word.. -_-

someone do me a favour.. bring me a worm on my bday.. i wan scream.. too long time din scream liaoZ..

-try screaming-

ah.

=S see wad i mean.. my scream comes out as ah. yes.. ah. tht's all.. =/

suddenly realise.. if u bring me a worm on my bday.. i wud not onli scream -_- i wud most probably cry -_- or run 1 round around school compound, overcome all the benches in the canteen, climb all the trees in our school, try hiding under all tables and cupboards, or worse come to worse.. make myself blind so tht i wun see tht horrible, disgusting, heart-wrenching, scary, frightening, amazingly-untolerable, squiggly, BLEAH thing.. urgh.. tht's how much i hate, no, HATE tht horrible, disgusing, heart-wrenching, scary, frightening, amazingly-untolerable, squiggly, BLEAH thing.. -_-

why am i toking abt worms all of a sudden.. -_-

and i sudd wonder.. why do i always ask whys.. =/

`shi wan ge wei shen me

hao lei.. wan slp dun wan wake up.. how.. wan slp forever.. -_-

hav this crazy thought of passing my 15th bday.. den go to slp forever.. -_- b4 tht make a wish wishing no one will be sad if i die.. and den test it out whether the wish will come true.. -_- gou diao..

printer seems to be telling me something.. although it is more like a vegetable printer nowZ.. cant print anything.. put there for show.. wasted piece of plastic wastingly sitting on the tabletop.. wasting tht space and the energy for ppl to look at it.. wad a waste.. -_- riteZ.. back to wad the printer was telling me.. ok fine.. i forgot -_-

there are times when i sigh and den i ask myself why did i sigh.. like.. i sigh le den i thought to myself.. wad was tht sigh for? over this matter? or over tht one?? or tht tht one?? and den the answer always comes out as.. you are sighing for All These..

and den there are times when i luff at something and den forgot wad i luffed abt 3 seconds later.. yes.. it happens.. and rather often too.. see how unimportant things seem to us sometimes.. -_-

i wonder.. who invented sighing.. i mean.. no one was born to noe how to sigh.. it's becuz u heard ppl doing it, understand tht u sigh in wad circumstances.. and den u sigh when u feel like it in future.. i wonder.. if a baby born has never heard an adult sigh in all his or her life.. will he or she sigh? come to tink of it.. i've never heard of kids ard the age of 5, 6 or 7 sighing.. mayb becuz they havent understood how to? lolz.. wad weird thoughts...

ya.. back to weird.. weird day today.. a butterfly stopped on my hand when i came out of the bathroom after i bathed juz now.. i juz froze there and watched the butterfly on my hand.. quite a long time i tink... i dunno.. dunno how long it was before it flew away.. and it flew upwards.. across my face.. from the chin to the forehead.. and i watch it fly upwards.. b4 it overtakes my head and den flew out of the window.. weird.. but nice..?

and i suddenly realise.. i shld be sleeping...

stopped for now.. tell me if u tink i'm writing in the blog too.. er.. er.. dunno how to say.. ya.. like this.. ok wadever -_-

choZ