Thursday, March 02, 2006
♥ Think too much

Blasting Feng.

I'm getting one of those thinking-too-much brain waves again. Those type where I just sit in one dark corner and can't stop thinking about everything under the sun, from flag poles to Geography to Differentiation to Sandy to why to how to this to that and then I get headaches from thinking too much and then I finally fall asleep.

-_-

I've done the talk about have you ever wondered how your life will be like 10 years from now, remember? The blah blah blah crap that I typed an entry about some time back, about how we see ourselves 10 years from now and how true that can actually become? About how we always talk about different routes to take in the future but when the time really comes, none of us will actually take that route, even if we're given the chance? Haha, yah.

But, what about your life tomorrow?

You'll know what lessons there are tomorrow. You'll roughly know what's up tomorrow, you'll know what tests you have, what activities you have after school, whether you're going for a movie, what movie you're going to watch etc etc. Some of these may come true, some of these may not. But roughly, roughly you know what you're going to do.

But why is it that I never have a clue about how I'm going to feel about tomorrow?

Okay wait. Tomorrow is Friday. Oh, I know how I'm going to feel. -_-

Okay, that's beside the point. No matter how sure I am that tomorrow is still going to be fucked up, since it's a Friday, I'll still choose to start the day fresh and happy because I STILL believe that whether a day is beautiful or not depends on how you want to look at it. Yes, I know I'm dumb to still believe that after so many damned Fridays I've had. And I still believe that in my whole life, there has to be ONE Friday which is not as bad as the others. And that Friday might be tomorrow, who knows?

And then I wonder how fortune tellers work. I've been to a fortune teller once. Primary 6, with a friend. Lol. I paid $5 for one sentence which is obvious but I didn't want to believe, and left the place because my friend dragged me away. -_- Fortune tellers are interesting huh. But how do they work?? Who taught them to read palms and tell futures? Who taught the person who taught the fortune teller how to read palms and tell futures? And so on and so on and so on. Who was the first person who found out how to tell fortunes? Weird huh.

Anyway, why have your fortune told? For fun? To see if he's accurate? To know, roughly, what your life is going to be like? For what? If he's really so accurate, and your life is going to be like that, then what for have it told and then you can't do anything about it?

Why do we always have to care about what's going to happen tomorrow? Just like right now, I suddenly recalled I have a Literature test tomorrow which the rest of the class has taken last Friday. And I'm thinking, I remembered close to nothing about TET. But, why should I care?

Shouldn't tomorrow be left for tomorrow? Why do we always have to be prepared? Will what we are preparing for always come? Are we preparing because we have to be prepared for anything that comes our way? Why do we have to be prepared for something we don't even know will occur for sure? Why are we preparing our thermometers when we do not know for sure if the Bird Flu will hit Singapore? Because, if it does, then we won't panic? But that's "if it does", what "if it doesn't"?

Better to be safe than sorry? The best we can do to prepare for the worst?

But, why?

Why care to care about things you won't know for sure? If no one invented the word "if", will people still care? Trying forming a sentence about something that might happen and its consequence without the words "if", "might", "may", "whether" and it sounds like it may or may not happen. Impossible, right? So if no one invented those words, we wouldn't care, will we?

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No headache yet. Wow.

Alright. I'm not going to type more. It's so crappy that I think your screen has started walking sideways. HAHAHAHA.

This Saturday flag day! Anyway, do you realise most flag day's flags (the stickers) are round? Almost all that I've come across are round leh. Why arh. No one creative enough to print square or triangle stickers meh. LOL. Think too much. =/

Bye! :D (And congrats for having survived that long a crap.)