Sunday, March 13, 2005

wahhhhh...

http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/teppanyaki/

thanZ to sheryl for showing me the fanfic.. wahhhhhhhZ.. kept me reading.. and reading.. and reading.. and reading.. and finished -_-

haiZ

suddenly feel like closing this blog.. =/ for some time..? or maybe forever.. shall see...

decided on cutting my hair short.. some time next week.. either on thursday or on friday.. short.. as in.. literally.. short.. ya.. =S the laz time i did tht.. was in like.. P6..? dunno how i'll turn out to look like.. juz feels tht.. i look too weak wif long hair.. tht stupid fragile look..

i wan be a boy =/

gosh... i tink the chair juz crushed a beetle.. brb...

ok fine.. it wasnt a beetle.. it flew away when i touched it.. scared me..

not touched any homework yet... two days at home was slacked.. feel like tearing the maths paper.. cuz damn maths make me think of stupid things.. bleah.. bro took my pencil case and put them on top of the shelf.. to tease tht i am short..

sometimes i realli wonder.. is he stupid retard simple-minded or wad... hasnt he heard of something known as.. CLIMBING THE CHAIR TO GET THE THING -_-

damn beetle-look-alike.. leave me alone.. argh.. STOP FLYING U TOOT-FACE

nvm.. =/

currently on er.. 16th or 17th disc of Qin Shen Shen Yu Meng Meng.. sat in front of the tv.. and juz watched.. and watched.. and watched.. weird.. the scenes where my sis and mother were tearing.. i felt nth... -_- not even the slightest tinge of sadness..

stupid headache wun stop... panadol extra extra wun help.. panadol extra extra as in extra dose of panadol extra.. so it's called panadol extra extra.. ok crap.. tht headache during last year's june chalet back again.. scenes keep coming on and off in mind.. some happened before.. some dreamt before.. some watched on tv before.. some imagined before.. some juz thought it up.. i seriously tink i'm going crazy...

i'm having enuff sleep.. ok.. more than enuff sleep.. it's juz tht.. the sleeping time is not rite -_- been out last two nights.. sleeping during the morning.. watching vcds during the afternoon.. sleeping in the evening.. and so on.. juz not.. regular.. -_- er

and i keep getting the feeling i'm going to fall each time i walk -_- like walking on the road.. den suddenly feel as if one leg is longer than the other.. and den juz trip over air.. -_- ok crap..

was at tanjong pagar there juz now when priscilla suddenly sms me wif a "!?&*$%@_# this is zimbae... he says he is bored n forced me 2 msg u... bad zimbae.. -.-" anyway, he wans me 2 tell u 2 stay happy and smile... =)" almost bashed the phone.. lolz.. joking.. thanZ.. zimbae -_-

sumthing damn wrong wif me.. sumthing keeps telling me.. i'm too weak.. explains why i want to cut away the long hair... cuz it makes me look fragile and break-able -_- and.. k fine.. i dunno wad i toking againZ... juz got the feeling.. like.. nvmZ... watch Qin Shen Shen Yu Meng Meng.. den try to picture how the Yi Ping iz feeling -_- ya.. tht Bai Mei Gui.. -_- fine i noe it's diao... dun hav the vcd nvm.. heard from bro tht it's replaying everyday at 4am on channel 8... k diao.. who wud wan to watch replays of a stupid show at 4am in the morning everyday.. =/

makes me sick of arguing wif ppl.. cuz sumtimes i realli dunno wad i'm saying.. like i've full control of wad i was arguing abt one second.. and den the next i completely lost my point.. gets frustrated when the point i'm trying to drive across is not well understood.. i feel.. er.. er.. angry -_-

ya.. angry.. er.. like.. er.. a tomato.. -_- dun ask me why.. some stupid tomato juz started running from one side of my mind to the other.. -_-" diaoZ.. and i tire out cuz.. sudd feel i hav so much things unsettled.. many many many things unsettled.. and yet i'm cooping myself up at home watching Qin Shen Shen Yu Meng Meng.. am i sick or wad -.-

i tink i sound like a mental patient here.. diaoZ..

today.. i kept staring down at my hands.. and started writing words on my hands.. i wrote the word.. "kept"... and realised it look abit.. er.. ABIT like "ketchup.." ok fine.. i noe there is a big difference.. diaoZ... kept.. ketchup.. kept.. ketchup.. kept ketchup... ketchup tht is kept.. kept tht is ketchup.. dun mind me.. told u i'm mentally unstable liaoZ..

and i started writing my chinese name.. backwards.. backwards.. as in.. all the strokes backwards too.. in the opposite direction of where it shld go.. diao... i muz be bored.. or realli crazy.. or both... boredly crazy... crazily bored.. fine.. i'm crapping again... -_-

my bro juz said.. "i tink u'll look cute in short hair.." my reply.. "i tink u'll look cute if u can become hollow man.."

hahahaz.. hope i din hurt his bo1 li2 xin1... lolZ...

me? cute? tht's wad i dun wan.. -_- i wan look.. er... er... strong.. -.-

diaoZ... nvmZ... dun tink anyone could understand wad someone who is going crazy is trying to sayZ...

off..