Wednesday, June 28, 2006
♥ Scared Son

To my badminton juniors, judging from the few trainings I went this year, I doubt you all are trying hard to train. I say this because I think most of you don't have the right mentality right now. Sigh. I think the best mentality for training was during that period of time we trained with Wu Jiao Lian. =/

Suddenly felt like mentioning this because as I was taking 901 home from Woodlands Interchange today, I saw Christ Church's Sec badminton players running outside their school. PT for them, I guess. And I can tell they've been running for a long time already, from how tired they look, and no, I don't think the PT our players are having now is enough.

I know it's easy for me to say, lah. I've stepped down already. I don't have to go through all that shit anymore. But, don't you think it's been a long time since we've really had tough trainings? Maybe once or twice in a long while, but as in, a whole long period of time of tough trainings? All the interruptions lah, this lah, that lah, the Sec ones lah, how to train like that?

Somehow I feel the Sec 2 girls are alright, and Fiona. But the boys huh. Of the two holiday trainings I went, the only boys I saw present for both trainings are Junhe and Jeremy, I think. Zonghan was late for one, Daryl didn't come for one, Nigel (?) didn't even appear, Eddie (?) looks like he's there to play, or something. And IT don't count.

Anyway, I was saying, the CC's badminton players. This is actually, not the first time I see them running outside the school. One round means running from their school to SSS along the stretch of road in front, then behind SSS, and then back to their school. That's very far, like one and one quarter rounds of our Running School Compound. You know, the route we always ran during PE lessons to train for NAPFA. That's even longer than that. Uh, and, uh, I'm just afraid the juniors will have to step down with the same regrets as us, lah.

Haiyah. Don't say le. Since when have I became so luo suo.

Sometimes, I really wish something stupid to happen to me, like falling into a drain or looking for my pen when it's right in front of me or something. So that I can have a good laugh, even if it's at myself.

But nothing stupid ever happens. The only stupid thing is I'm wishing for something stupid to happen. That's pretty stupid huh. Haaa.

And I've not been in the best of moods these days.

Today, after EFL, we were walking back from class. And Son decided to be funny and started stepping on my shoes on purpose. The first time, I thought it was accidental. Second time, I still thought it was accidental. The third time, I turned over when Chunying said, "Play what play lah Son." And guess what, I scolded Son, for the fun of it. I was just trying to scare him.

Me: -my scariest look, with want to beat people eyes, lifted up chin in the taunting manner and super buay song attitude- Very fun arh. Very fun is it. Fun harh. Harh Son. Very fun is it.
Son: -stunned face-
Me: What. Know how to talk or not. I asking you. Very fun is it. Like that play very fun harh. Say fun lah. Say fun then I play with you.
Son: -still stunned- Oh... Sorry sorry sorry.

I was playing a fool, but when I saw how scared he was, I actually really got angry. I wonder why.

Me: What. I feel like slapping you. Step what step. My shoes for you to step one is it. You think very funny arh. You step some more lah. -looks away before I totally lose control over myself-
Son: *murmuring* Why so fierce... Why so fierce...

Haha.

Maybe I just can't stand people looking sad and submissive. If he stood up and joked with me when I first taunted him, I might have just laughed along with him. I know I'm weird lah, don't need you to remind me.

I got to go study chem. No, should say LEARN chem. I know practically nothing about the whole chapter about organic chemistry. Or maybe I should just flunk the test, get a 0 or something. I feeling that rebellious. Ah no. I won't.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Sorry. Just felt like blog-screaming. Bye.